I Introduce The Selfish Machine

I was leaned against the speaker, watching Tony bounce around the stage. They were about to wrap the concert up, so he was getting bouncier and bouncier. He looked at me and gave me a huge smile. He did that every night. Usually, I would laugh because I thought it was adorable. Tonight, I just gave him a slight smirk, and I could tell by the look he gave me that he knew something was wrong.
"Thank you guys for a bomb ass night! We're Pierce The Veil and we'll see you next time." Vic shouted into the mic. They started throwing pics and stuff off stage, then ran off when they were finished. Tony ran straight to me and hugged me. It didn't feel comfortable, his sweaty body touching my bare arms.
"Tony, you're all sweaty." I said, pulling away. Tony held his hand out and someone threw him a towel.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
I shrugged. "Nothing."
"Yeah, right." Tony said, then pushed past me. I followed right behind him, only because Jaime and all the other guys had ran back on the bus.
We were in the alley where the buses were parked when Tony turned around to face me. He took off his sweaty shirt before speaking.
"So, are you going to tell me what's wrong or just stand there with your arms crossed?" He asked, his voice all serious.
I rolled my eyes. "There is nothing wrong, Tony."
"Yeah, I don't believe that."
"There isn't!"
Tony ran his hands through his hair, clearly frustrated with me. "Piper, when we started dating, I knew you would be bitter and distance. I got it, but after we went on tour, you started to grow closer to me. I actually felt like you were my girlfriend and not some girl that I was having sex with. You were happy, not bitter, happy! Piper, what happened because you were not like his a few hours ago."
"Tony, if you knew I was like this, then why are you so mad about this?"
"Because you started to change! We were growing closer and closer! I was actually having fun talking to you, and you were smiling and laughing. What the hell happened?" His voice was raised now, he was practically yelling at me.
I bit my bottom lip so hard that I tasted blood. I was mad. Who was he to think that he could yell at me like this when I was falling in love with him? I was upset, but of course, my blood cells didn't want me to be upset about it. "You want to know why Tony? Huh? You want to know?" I stepped closer to him, my chest touching his. I had to look up to yell at him. "Because, I actually started to fall for you! Okay? For once in my life I actually started to fall for you and I just couldn't let myself be broken like that." My eyes started to fill with tears. "I couldn't love you because love doesn't work the way fairy tales display it. Love doesn't work that way! You don't fall in love and live happily ever after. Love dies. It always does. Love destroys. It destroys everything, like a bomb. Everything in it's wake dies! It dies and dies and dies, Tony! So you want to know why my attitude changed? Because I can't love. I started to fall for you and I'm just too afraid to love you."
I bit my lip harder to fight back the tears. Fight, blood cells, fight. Don't let me show how weak I actually am. Fight, fight, fight.
I took a deep breath and stepped back a little bit. It was silent between Tony and I. I didn't have anything to say, I had told him almost everything.
Tony sighed, then slightly shook his head before he spoke. "Why are you so afraid to love me, Piper?"

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