Queen For A Day

VIC’S POV
When Cooper got back with Cali’s pancakes he gave me an angry look. I was sitting on the couch, reading tweets on my phone but I stared up at him blankly when he walked in.
“I love Cali you know.” He stated emptily.
“Ok?” I was slightly uncomfortable.
“I know she means a lot to you. And I’m not trying to take your place in your child’s life. But for now she’s mine. So please don’t try anything.”
“I wasn’t planning on it!” I exclaimed angrily, standing up.
Spencer looked up from his laptop. “Oi, can you guys do this outside or not at all please?”
Cooper slumped his shoulders a bit, “Sorry.” He glanced at me once last time then walked down to Cali’s room.
“What’s the deal there?” Spencer asked quietly.
“I’m the father of Cali’s baby, but she’s dating Cooper.” I explained vaguely. I didn’t really want to go into it too much.
“Oh wow ok, good luck with that one then man.” He gave me half a smile then went back to typing.
I turned and walked outside, I needed some fresh air. Why were things so difficult? I loved her. I even told her that. But I still wasn’t sure what I wanted. Ideally I would love to be with her forever, which I also told her. But what if they started depending on me too much, I couldn’t disappoint them by being away for so often with the band. She’d get so lonely and our kid would be confused as why their Dad was going away so much. Then she’d probably find someone else, someone who’s always there for her and never has to leave for work. I don’t think I could cope with that.
I wandered aimlessly around the parking lot we were in, my hands stuffed my pockets and my feet kicking at rocks. A door slamming jolted me out of my thoughts and I turned to look at our bus. Cooper was walking out, a shocked look on his face. He noticed me staring at him and suddenly looked so defeated. He shook his head then turned and walked away. What the hell just happened in there? My thoughts flew to Cali and I ran back to the bus, going straight to her room. I took a deep breath then knocked on the door lightly.
“Can I come in Cali?”
I heard a sniffle. “Ok.” Her voice was so soft.
I walked in to find her curled up on the furthest corner of her bed, pressed against the two walls and cradling her belly. She wasn’t crying, but her hair was dishevelled and it looked like she’d been playing with it. Which I’ve noticed she only does when she’s stressed.
“Are you ok?” I asked carefully.
She shook her head. “I made my decision Vic.” Her voice was quivering.
“I can take it Cali, don’t worry about me. Just start from the beginning.” She was going to shut me down. She was going to end it once and for all. Every hope and dream I had for us was going to go just like that.
“I didn’t decide to date Cooper to piss you off or anything. He actually showed me kindness and that’s exactly what I needed, especially all those times you were being a dick to me.” She started, “but I’ve had feelings for you probably since Poppy and Saxon’s wedding. I don’t know if it started off only because I was pregnant with your baby but I actually do have feelings for you now. But I think I love you and Cooper the same amount, I can’t choose between the two of you. I’ve been trying to figure out what to do for ages now, and I guess when I found out about this tour I figured it would be a good chance to sort everything out. Being stuck in San Diego in the same old routine and life wasn’t helping at all. I kind of felt trapped, like the city was a cage that I was stuck in. and I was right, I’ve already managed to work out what is best for everyone. Vic, I can’t be with you.” My heart shattered into a million pieces. Her eyes filled with tears. “I’m sorry ok. But I haven’t chosen Cooper over you, I broke up with him. I can’t be with either of you.”
I sat down on the edge of the bed, giving the strongest smile I could manage. I couldn’t let myself break now. “Cali what do you mean ‘what’s best for everyone’? This isn’t anyone else’s decision but your own.”
She was silent.
“What do you want?” I both afraid and hopeful to hear her answer. But I had to know. She was talking like she had no other options.
“Vic I-I cant…” She choked, a tear falling from her eye.
“Yes you can, I’m sure, somewhere in your mind you know exactly who you want.”
“I want you Vic.” Her answer was barely a whisper, and she didn’t look up at all. But I heard her, and I was flooded with relief and happiness.
“Then why have you said you don’t want either of us, can’t we just be together?” I sounded so whiney and pathetic but I couldn’t help it. I would do everything within my power to be loved by Cali Hill.
“Because I can’t! It wouldn’t be fair to Cooper! What was it like for you to watch him and me together? Did it hurt you at all?”
I looked down to the floor, “yeah, it was hell.”
“So it’d be like that for him to watch us together. I just think it’s best for me to stay single. I’ll get over both of you some day.” She rested her head back against the wall and closed her eyes.
“Right.” That hurt. I watched her beautiful face as her lips started to tremble and tears fell from her eyes. “At least let me hold you right now,” I whispered, finally giving up. I had to respect her decision, even if it killed me inside. And I could understand what she meant about Cooper seeing her and me together. I moved to I was sitting beside her and pulled her to me so I was cradling her body on my lap. She let out a sob that broke my heart and her tears started to wet my shirt. I kissed the top of her head and held onto her like my life depended on it.
“I love you Vic.” She cried softly.
“I love you too.” I reached down and wiped the tears off one of her wet cheeks. We stayed there in silence for hours, and eventually she’d fallen asleep. I moved her gently so she was lying on her side on top of the blankets. I lay beside her and watched her sleeping. I loved her so much. How was I going to be able to see her every day for 2 months and get over her? It was impossible. Cali shifted in her sleep and crinkled her nose. A piece of her hair fell down over her face so I reached up to push it behind her ear.
“What are you doing?” She mumbled, not opening her eyes.
“Nothing, sorry if I woke you.” I replied just as quiet.
“You didn’t, the baby’s kicking.” She sighed, opening her eyes like it was the hardest thing in the world. She reached out and grabbed my hand, placing it on one side of her belly. I felt it almost immediately. The baby was kicking and moving around.
“Ugh, it’s doing somersaults or something in there.” She groaned.
“I can’t wait until we’re parents Cali.”
“We already are.” She looked at me sincerely.
“I guess so.” I thought for a second. “Can I kiss you Cali?”
“Vic.. I told you before that I can’t be with you.” She frowned.
“I know, I know. But I want to kiss you, just one last time.” I moved my hand from her stomach to her lower back and pulled her closer to me. Well, as close as we could get with a baby in the middle.
Cali rolled her eyes. “Fine, only if-”
I quickly pressed my lips to hers before she could say anything. I reached my other arm out so it was under her neck, and held her head closer to mine. She didn’t want to keep the kiss slow, I didn’t push anything but it was undoubtedly filled with passion. She moaned lightly into the kiss as it became more fiery and heated. I dug my fingers into her lower back and she bit my lip in return. I suddenly pulled away, things were going too far.
“Wow,” she puffed. We were lying so close together still. I didn’t let her leave my grasp. Instead I kissed her again, to which she responded willingly. I pulled away for a breath a few minutes later and she looked up at me playfully.
“I thought you said just one more time,” she giggled.
“I can’t help it Cali, you’re so hot. To be honest I wish you weren’t pregnant right now..” I trailed off, but dug my fingers into her tighter, hinting towards what I meant.
Her cheeks flushed pink and she looked down, playing with the sleeves of her hoodie. “Yeah.” She looked back to my eyes, “But we’re not together remember Vic. Just because we love each other and want this it can’t happen.”
I let out a frustrated groan and sat up, “This is going to fucking suck. I’m not going to stop loving you Cali.”
“I’m sorry but I’ve made my decision, maybe we should stop whatever we almost have here, it’s not going to work well, especially not on this tour.” Cali sat up slowly, and watched me with wide eyes.
“Ok ok, I’m sorry.” I sighed, I wasn’t going to be able to change her mind. I leaned in and pressed my lips to hers once more, in a soft meaningful kiss then stood up. “I’m going for a walk, I’ll see you later Baby.”
She raised her eyebrow, “You can’t call me that.”
“Fine.” I sighed, “bye Cali.”

Notes

Here's her decision!!!
What do you think about it? Was it the right choice or the wrong choice?

I'm trying to update regularly- i don't like to keep you all waiting :)
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Beth xx