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"I'm leaving vic, I can't do this anymore it's not right for me or for my daughter, all these emotions I have for him still it's not right, he's getting married to her vic.. He's getting married to her!" I shouted throwing all my clothes into my suitcase. Vic pulled at my hand willing me to stop what I was doing, I was having none of it.
"Em please rethink this, what has you so riled up you two were fine Mike always does this." I looked to Vic tears staining my cheeks.
"he said he loved me Vic, he said that he wished it wouldn't have been to late for an us, but I had to be fucking blinded and foolish I believed him." I sobbed. I fell to the floor cradling my head in my hands sobs racking my body. I felt arms wrap tight around my body, my head pressing tight against there chest.
"Shhh it's okay em, it's okay." He whispered rocking me slightly. I tightened my grip on his shirt as the tears continued to fall the pain of yet another broken promise breaking my heart much more than I could have imagined.
"he said he loved me vic why did he lie?" I whispered sniffling. I didn't expect an answer from the older fuentes, I knew not even he would ever understand his brother.

Urgent loud knocks sounded on the other side of the door, vic stood making his way to check who it was. I didn't bother to look up keeping my eyes trained on the floor, the beige carpet becoming a thing of interest.
"Momma was wrong why crying?" I looked up to see my daughter before me her doe eyes wide in concern. The sight of her pulled at my heart strings causing more tears to fall. Dawn immediately wrapped her arms around my head squishing me to her tiny frame. I held onto her tightly, like she was my life line.
"momma I luv yew don be sad." I nodded my head pulling back to wipe at my eyes.
"Sorry babe moms just having a rough time, momma loves you so much babe."
Dawn smiled showing all her teeth before puckering her lips and leaning in. I looked to the door to see Mike standing with vic all eyes on me.
"are you okay?" Mike questioned. I looked away not wanting to let my emotions show through.

I stood up off the floor, continuing to put things in my bag, dawn watching from behind.
"why are you packing your bag?" He questioned again. I rolled my eyes continuing to pack once more not bothering to answer the man before me.
"I asked you a question em, why are you packing?" I let out a breath shutting my eyes tightly before turning to the two.
"Im leaving Mike, I'm going home, I'm tired of whatever this is and my emotions being stomped all over, since day one you've never seen me, it was always the pretty little busted blondes, never me, and I need to leave to give myself time to heal, dawn is still your child and I want her to be with you all her life but me in your eyes I was never apart of it and I was blindsided with your lies, so I'm doing this for me." I spoke turning back to my suitcase and zipping it up.
"mommas leavin, but I want to see tios and daddy play." Dawn pouted her lip trembling. I leaned down eye level with dawn taking her face in my hands.
"tell you what princess, I'll let you stay the rest of the week with daddy and your tios and then when your ready I'll come get you." Dawn smiled brightly jumping up and down in excitement, it was short lived as a thought crossed her mind.
"what about momma she not gon be with dadde? I shine my head sadly closing my eyes to hold the tears back.
"but dadde say he luv momma." Dawn said her voice rising a bit. I looked at my daughter her emotions showing through.
"no! No! Dadde say he luv momma why dadde lie!" Dawn shouted.
"Baby calm down its okay mommas okay, your daddy has alysha he's very happy with her." I said rubbing her cheek to console her. Dawn smacked my hand away waddling past me to her father. I turned my heart breaking once more,
"why you lie dadde why you has to hurt momma she luv yew!" She shouted tears falling down her cheeks.
Mike leaned down getting eye level with dawn, " I'm sorry baby girl I really am."
"no you lie dadde I hate yew, yew hurt momma." Dawn yelled. Mike looked like he had been slapped in the face repeatedly the amount of pain written on his face was one of great pain.
"Vic take her to tony and Himes room I'll go console her right now." I spoke to vic. Vic picked a sobbing dawn up and exited the room.

"she said she hates me.. She hates me." Mike whispered. I stood where I was not moving, "she doesn't hate you Mike she just upset." Mike looked up at me with glistening eyes.
"dont leave em please don't leave, I don't want to lose my daughter." I shook my head willing the tear away, "don't worry Mike you won't be losing her, I told vic to watch her the rest of the week, she needs to be with her father." Mike looked up at me almost thankful, " why are you leaving em?"
I picked up my suitcase walking to the door. I rested my hand on the knob turning to him as I pulled it open, "something's never change I guess, I always saw you Mike, and you.... You never saw me...you'll never see me." I spoke. I exited the room not looking behind me. I stopped by the guys room bidding them a see you later dawn having calmed down placed a kiss on my cheek.
"be strong for momma okay babe and if anything happens have too vic, Jaime, or tony call me okay?" I asked. Dawn nodded hugging me once more.
i hugged vic one last time, "take care em, I want to see you back here next week looking better than ever." He spoke squeezing me right. I nodded into his shoulder waving one last time before exiting.

The cab to the airport was one of the longest rides ever, the ride back home having been the worse. As I stuck the key into my home, a wave of emotions hit me like a ton of bricks. I fell on the couch the tears consuming me.
"Losing him was like blue I'd never known.
missing him was dark grey all alone
forgetting him was trying to know somebody you've never met."

Notes

Okay so I made myself kinda sad but I think this chapter was wow I think I did pretty good! Thoughts? Hope you enjoy.
-Padme