The Reason

"Bruh... Calm down.. But did she die? No." My dad slurred.
"She could have! And you would have been too busy getting hammered as fuck!"
"Dude, it's cool. Everything's fine.."
"No Vic! You're too drunk to fully capture what's going on!"

I close the door and slide down against it, crying. Why? Why would he do this? I'm so confused, worried, angry, and scared. What's gonna happen now? I crawl to my bed and get underneath the covers. I put my glasses on the nightstand and bite my bottom lip to keep from sobbing too loud. I curl up into a small ball and try to fall asleep. Even after 40 minutes, I couldn't. Dad and uncle Mike are still screaming at each other and it's keeping me up. I decide to listen to music. I plug in my earbuds to my ipod and listen to a song that perfectly describes how I feel everyday.

'Just find ways to cope with feelings that you don't understand,
cause no one really cares how you feel,
just as long as you act like everyone else expects you to act....

Everyone hates me,
I hate all of you
I tried to adjust but
I'm young and screwed up
How do you expect me to believe
When you were my age you didn't...

But I'm trying to hold on to anything
And not mess up everything
Everything, eveything

I'm trying to hold on to what I love
And not mess up everything...
I mess up everything...
No one cares anyway...'

Shortly after the song ends, I fall into a deep sleep.

When I wake up the next morning. I'm just scared. I want this day to be over with. I pick out black jeans and a hot pink shirt with hearts all over it out of my closet. I do my hair and makeup. I put on my bracelets and wristbands and walk downstairs. Dad isn't up...
I peep into his bedroom and see him passed out on the ground. I carefully grab him by the side and arm and lift him up to his bed and tucked him in. I shut the door and walk into the kitchen and eat a piece of toast before walking to school. School was horrid. Possibly the worst day of my entire life. I was sitting outside during social skills since we had a free period today. I was reading when a group of girls came up to me and poured an entire gallon of water on me! Not only that, but right after, leader of the group called her boyfriend over and he kicked me very hard in the stomach. I was almost in tears while the whole eighth grade was laughing at me! I also had to spend the entire day in soaking wet clothes because I couldn't go home. Luckily, dad wasn't home to see me wet.

I went upstairs and lifted up my shirt and saw a HUGE bruise on my stomach. Crap. If dad sees this, he'll go crazy. I take a shower and as soon as I get dressed, the doorbell rings. I look through the peep hole and see that it's Tony. I open the door.

"Hey Kitz!"
"Hi Tony..."
He scratched his head awkwardly.
"Well, um, I need to talk to you about your dad and mom."
"Um, okay."
"Why don't we go for some coffee, yeah?"
"Alright."

Notes

Late update... Sorry.

Song mentioned: This song is a curse - Frank Iero
Roxanne xoxo