Sometimes I Sit and Wonder, Sometimes I Feel like Letting Go.

Christmas is in 2 days, and I don't have Mike a gift. I'm a horrible boyfriend, I don't even know what he wants. How does he put with me, I'm horrible. I'll go to the store today, and see if I can find something. I want to get him a really good gift.

My mom let me use her car today, so I wouldn't have to walk the 15 miles to the mall. Thank God.I was already, ready, so once I got in the car I left. I put on some music while driving, Ill have to change it when I got home because Mom doesn't like it. All I can say is, she's missing out.

The ride was pretty short, and I was there within 10 minutes. The traffic actually wasn't that bad, of wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Which is surprising, seeing as Christmas is two days away.

I walked into the mall felling overwhelmed I didn't know what to get Mike. The first place I stopped was food, because lets face it I was hungry. Maybe I could think on a full stomach, lets hope. I decided on the same pizza place Mike and I ate at when Vic took us here. We've been together almost two months. And things has happened that takes like forever to happen. We've had sex, told out parents about us, that's about it. But don't you wait at least like 4 months? Whatever, we love each other, right?

I thought about that as I ate; don't even know why. One I finished off my vegetarian pizza, I started to somewhat shop. I don't know how women does this all the damn time. I haven't been at it for ten minutes and I'm already done with it.

I went to as many stores, I thought might have things Mike would like in them. I found absolutely nothing. Mike is going to hate me, I can't even fins him a Christmas gift. I'm such a fuck up.

I was walking to exit as a store I hadn't seen before took my interest. It was a music shop, called 'Big Mans Music'. I walked in, and it was huge, just to be in a mall. Once I was in there, it hit me. Mike would probably like some records and new drum sticks.

The record selection they had was huge. They had everything from AC/DC to Blink`182. Speaking of Blink They had an awesome edition of the self title album. It was vinyl, with two discs, and a little booklet about them. There was also a Fall Out Boy one, and Misfits. He'll love these hopefully. I also picked up some drum sticks, then went to pay.

My total came up to about fifty bucks. I paid and left going out to the car. Finally I got Mike a present, I just hope he likes it. I don't want to disappoint him, which I probably do that anyways.

The drive home just seemed to drag on and on. Time felt like it was in slow motion, which I knew it wasn't because I listened to the exact same songs on the way back, as I did going. I don't know why. But I've been feeling different every since Abby punched Ronnie, something just seems off. I can't quiet place it.

I grabbed the bag that had Mike's presents in it and made my way inside. Setting it down on the kitchen table; going to look for wrapping paper. I finally found some in the linen closet. That's a weird place for wrapping paper. Anyways, when I went back in the kitchen Mama was there looking through it.

"Hi, Mama." I said, and kissed her cheek.

"Hi, honey. Who's this for?"

"Mike." I said sheepishly. Every since she found out, on her own, that we was dating she's been all mushy.

"Oh, that's sweet. What do you want for dinner?"

"I don't know, anything you want to make. No meat." I said, because sometimes she forgets.

"Okay, honey. I'll let you wrap Mike's presents." She said, and I grabbed my bag heading to my room.

One I was in there I sat in the middle of the floor, crossed legged and started wrapping. I wrapped the records together in a stack, and the drum sticks like a big piece of candy. I was done within 15 minutes, and after that texted Mike.

Me: Hi Mikey.

Mikey: Hi Tone.

Me: I got Christmas present today :)

Mikey: Ohh, what is it?

Me: I can't tell you.

Mikey: Ugh. :( Whatcha doing?

Me: Waiting for food. You?

Mikey: Food! But wishing I was there with you, <3

Me: Aww ;)

After I said that Mama hollered that dinner was ready. I had to tell Mike by first/

Mikey: I love you <3

Me: I love you too <3 But I gotta go, food is calling my name!

Mikey: Okay, Talk to you later. Love you.

He is too nice. Damn, I love him. I left my phone in my room and went downstairs to eat. Mama, had fixed enchiladas. I filled up my plate and ate.

Notes

I really fucking hate this chapter. Teel me, is it that bad? Because I hate it. Anyways, tomorrow is my last day of school before Winter break. And I can write all I want, well not on Sunday or Christmas, but other then that yeah. I hope y'all have a wonderful day/night!! <3 <3