Kissing In Cars

Kellin's POV

"Kellin, are you okay?" Victor asked. He didn't seem at all fazed by the fact that Patrick just kissed me in front of him, and I think it's because he might feel bad.

"No. I feel like such an asshole." I mutter.

"It's not your fault..."

"But it is. I used him. You don't just go around using people! I'm such an ass! Even worse, he said it always happens!" I groan, drowning in my own guilt as Vic pulls me down to him.

"Kellin, he's just upset right now. Let him cool off and then try apologizing and explaining things. I mean...I don't exactly blame you for kissing him in front of me, so if I could understand and forgive you for that, then he should be able to do the same for this." Vic responds. That actually makes me feel a little but better, and so I adjust myself on his lap and rest my head on his shoulders trying to calm down.

"Okay." I replyed. "I hope you're right."

"I'm always right." Vic gives me a cheeky smile.

"Oh shut up." I roll my eyes. He plops a big, sloppy kiss on my cheek, making a noisy smooch sound. I wipe it away, scrunching up my face and pretending it was the grossest thing in the world.

"Ew, Vic cooties." I tease. Vic laughs, holding my face in place and planting kisses all over my face as I struggle to get away.

"You're so cute." Vic laughs, kissing my nose before stopping to look at me.

"You're cute." I laugh. Then Vic starts laughing and at first I think it's because of the whole 'cooties' situation but when he doesn't stop laughing I realize it's something else.

"What?" I ask out of curiosity.

"It's just...it's been a month. Even a little more than a month that I've met you and I just..."

"You just what?"

"I just never thought I'd come to summer camp and fall for someone...it's so cheesy. Like a teen summer romance movie." Vic laughed. And I laughed too, because it was true. Him saying movie reminded me of when we first found the meadow. I remember feeling as if the moment we shared that day was a scene straight out of a movie.

"Hey, how long is summer, anyway?" I asked.

"Hmmm...three months, I believe. Why?"

"No reason. Just curious." I answered.

"But that is a reason." Vic laughed, poking my stomach.

"Well okay, because I'm curious." I roll my eyes again. But I'm not just curious. I'm thinking about everything and what's gonna happen to us when we get back to school. I'm know as the good-for-nothing-loser-fag. Vic's popular, he has all the friends in the school and everyone loves him. No one loves me, not even likes me, even worse; no one even knows who I am. I'm surprised it's been going so well here for me here. Look at how lucky I got! I'm fucking dating a popular guy who also happens to be my long-time crush!

But when we go back to school, I can't help but feel that things will be different. I know he shows me off here, but at school? Come on, he's not dumb enough to walk around with someone who gets bullied everyday, not dumb enough to love a loser like me. I'm a loser. How could he possibly love me?

"Kellin, you okay?" Vic asks beside me. I snap out of my little daze and nod my head quickly.

"Are you sure? I asked you a question like four times." Vic laughs.

"You did?" I turn pale-well paler than I already am- looking up at him.

"Yea. I asked if you were ready to go get breakfast." Vic quirks an eyebrow.

"Oh, um...yea, let's go." I smile.

Vic and I get dressed, walk to the cafeteria and take our usual seats. I see Patrick across the room, sitting all alone. Mike is nowhere to be seen. I get up, wanting to talk to Patrick.

"I'll be right back." I tell Vic. I get up, set my food down and walk towards Pat.

"Hey..." I nervously say.

"What do you want?..." Patrick asks, not even so much as glancing at me.

"Look, Pat, I'm sorry...I know what I did was wrong and I shouldn't have done it but I did and I can't take it back because that's jut not how it works. But if it did work like that, believe me, I would. I'm really sorry. I just wanted to hurt Vic the way he hurt me...I um...caught him cheating, I guess you could say."

Pat's face softens as he looks at me.

"I just felt so bad and...I didn't know any other way to make myself feel better and I though that if I had something with you that maybe he'd really understand why I was mad and I'd have some...type of revenge.." I speak quietly. Pat sits there, taking it all in.

"But you're an amazing guy, Pat. You deserve someone who really, really likes you. Someone like Mike." I smile. Pat seems a little thrown off as his cheeks flush a bright pink.

"I don't like him that way..." Pat finally says, blushing like mad. I'm not sure if he's lying or not. Mike clearly likes him, if he likes him back he's go for him like he went for me. Then again if he doesn't like Mike that could be why he doesn't want to date him; Because he likes him too much. Poor Pat's probably shy. Or maybe he really just doesn't like Mike. Hmmm...

"And that's perfectly fine. But seriously, Pat...I'm sorry about what happened. Can we still be friends?" I ask.

"I forgive you...we, we can be friends." Pat smiles softly. I smile back in relief and we proceed in a hug. I get going an head back to where Vic is.

"How'd it go?" Is the first thing he asks.

"I think it went pretty damn good, actually." I grinned.

"Told you it would." Vic smiled. That smile. Fuck, it kills. My mind drifts off and then I blurt out an unexpected question.

"Where do you see us in two months?" I instantaneously regret saying a thing.

"What do you mean?" Vic asks.

You're just being insecure, Kellin. Calm down. You have two fucking months left. Two. Two....

"Never mind, forget I said anything." I say quickly. "So Vic, when are you planning to sing Barbie Girl to me?" I ask, changing the subject.

"Oh god, never." Vic's face turns hot red. Thankfully he doesn't ask more about what I had said.

"Pleeeeeaaaassseeee?" I beg with a pout.

"Hmmm...how about no?" Vic laughs out loud.

"Fine." I chuckle. And then the stupid fucking bell goes a-ring-a-ting-ting. I get to see Adam. Lovely, just lovely.

Notes

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