I took a deep breath in.. And exhaled.
I got this.
i kept telling myself.
I got this.
maybe you're asking yourself why I'm trying to control myself. I just cant help it.
Stephan and I have been texting constantly over the past week, and we decided it was bet for us to meet at MY place to talk about the whole. 'sadly' thing from the supermarket the other day. I mean, I was totally excited to tell him my story, but I'm afraid that he might reject me. Yay! Someone that's my cousin is totally rejecting me! I mean not like I'm totally not use to someone from blood or not rejecting me. Right? Ha! I'm pathetic. I put my hair into a high ponytail and change into some leather leggings and a long Slayer shirt. Which was my dad's but he left it with me and all that crap.
"When they coming around?" Penny asked as she gives her blazer. And by they she mean Stephan and his 'cousin' Katherine. I mean.. Kitty.
"In an hour or so." She nods firmly and grabs her lunch bag. "text me if I got the job please."
"I will. Have fun!" She says, emotionless and slams the door shut.
she still furious.
i let out a sigh and sat on the couch, waiting for the guests. I say Indian style and began watching Maury. Oh these motherfucking sluts and manwhores.
*ping*
i reached for my phone and unlocked it.
Stephan: WE'RE OUTSIDE! What apartment number?
me: 108.

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"Okay.. Now., tell me the whole.. One of my uncles leaving you story."
"It's a long and sad story."
"Alia...." He warned. I smile as I recognized that tone.
"I was born. That's what happened. I was born into a awesome family, or at least I was told all my life. At the age of four or so... My mom passed away. Maybe my dad never loved me.. Or he couldn't take care of me anymore.. But all I remembered was that I was left at the orphanage. He left me their, with a luggage filled of my clothes, barbies and other toys. I begged him.. Pleaded him to not leave me but he didn't listen...."

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"Daddy please. I wanna go Home" I begged my daddy.
"Alia.. Sweetie please. I need sometime alone."
"you don't love me?" I asked him.
"Alia.. I love you with ALLL my heart."
"will you come back after your break?" He smiled, but his eyes were sparkly.
"I will. And I'll take you to the zoo."
"Where I can see Turtles and giraffes and penguins and monkeys?" He nodded. "But I wanna go now."
"I can't take you now Alia." I crossed my arms. "But I promise I will come back and take you."
"can I take uncle Vic with me? And Stephy?" He wiped his face. He was crying? But my daddy was superman. He don't cry. "Why you crying daddy?" I asked him. "Superman doesn't cry." I said and wiped his face. He smiled.
"Nothing honey." He kisses my forehead, making me giggle.
"pinky Promise daddy?" I held out my pinky. He looks into my eyes and smiles.
"Pinky promise princess."

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"Everyday I waited by the window. Waiting to see his car stop in the parking lot, see him get out and walk inside the building. Everyday I waited to go to the zoo. I would always dress up in my dresses. Everyday, I waited to go see the turtles, the monkeys, the penguins and the giraffes.. But as the days passed, my hope was fading, and the dream of being with my cousin and my uncles, walking hand by hand at the zoo, be some more and more like a dream of a child. When I arrived, I was instantly friends with Penny. We clicked right away. We played tea parties and dress up. She would sneak out of her room and go to mine and vice versa, until the lady put us in the same room. At the age of 13 I was diagnosed with depression. I felt like everything that was happening to me was my fault. I was the one that caused it. I wanted to die... I really did. But Penny found me... Right on time. I was grateful to have such an amazing friend... Sister. At the age of 15 we both got adopted by two solider friends. One of them had a wife and a kid, the ones that got me only had a wife. His wife couldn't bear children, so they decided to adopt me. They spoiled me... They bought me everything, they wanted me to be happy. I mean all I needed was their love, and I had it all. But I hade bad luck and my adoptive dad went back to battle. Died a few day later. When I turned 18, I told my adoptive momma that I was going into the world alone, depressed, sad, broken.. I've lost both of my fathers, alone in the world. I ha Penny with me. She was my rock.. And I'm hers. Meeting my dad again.. After 15 years of now communication.. It's hard for me." I wipe my face. "That's why I changed. I dyed my hair blonde and I use contacts... I don't carry his last name.. I have no last name. I'm just Alia." I look at Stephan and Kitty, who was crying.
"Who's your dad Alia?" She asked. I shook my head.
"i can't tell you."
"you know who he is right?" Stephan asked. I nodded.
"His face.. His tattoos. Everything. He probably doesn't even remember me. But I know everything about him. His favorite color, whiskey, beer, shoe brand. Everything.. Although I have to thank his fanbase for that." I sighed. "I can't see their band name without his stupid grin replaying like a melody in my head. I see his face in posters and shirts and I want to burn them."
"will you tell him on the day you meet him?" Kitty asked.
"Kitty.... I will make him regret the day he linked his pinky with mine."



and that was a fact.

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