always have a part of me

Dani had a date with some guy from her work, so we had the house to ourselves. Vic had turned on some movie, pretending like he wasn't just going to fuck me. Recently, things between us had been really weird. Ever since I let slip that I felt more for him, he's been an incredible ass. It's hard to stay with him, and I'm always wondering why I do, and then he gives me that fucking goofy smile and it feels like fireworks and butterflies and like my entire chest is going to explode because my heart can't take it.

He leaned down to kiss my head, running his fingers through my hair. I sighed, sort of a bittersweet feeling in my chest. I was happy where I was at that very moment, watching him watch the movie. His face was always so expressive, and I could always tell what he was feeling, especially when he was lying about it. But that was what I loved. I knew him better than anybody. He had stopped being my best friend's older brother, and instead became the incredible man that I had fallen in love with.

Except when it came to actually talking about feelings, especially about Dani. I knew he loved her. He's made it even more clear since I said those three words. He'll purposely tell me that she won't be home at a certain time so I should come over, but of course she's home, and he makes sure I get to see him practically fucking her goodbye.

"Can I help you?" he said without actually looking down, shaking me out of my thoughts.

"Vic, I can't do this anymore." I said just above a whisper.

I sat up as he turned off the tv, finally looking at me. He took a deep breath before letting his eyes meet mine. I could see the sadness in his eyes, the genuine hurt look that he had that I had never seen from him. He was usually more guarded and much more of an ass about this kind of thing. And it surprised me more that this was what he was upset about.

"I was hoping it wouldn't come to this Max. The truth is," he paused, looking down at his lap like he does when he has to say something he doesn't want to. "I could never love you, you're nothing but sex to me. I have told my other girlfriends that I love them, granted it's to get sexual favors, but I couldn't even lie to you about it. You made it too easy to control you."
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And suddenly, those sad eyes faded and a small smirk grew on his face.

"Break up sex?" Vic said smugly.

This was exactly why I couldn't be with him. He knew how to make me feel lower than dog shit, and he seemed to love to do it. I needed this, to get away from his fucking crazy ass. I couldn't even think of how I fell in love with such a sociopathic douchebag. And that's when I found myself in the pouring rain walking the ten blocks to mom and pop Fuentes's house where Michael was still staying.

Notes

So, when I hand wrote the draft for this, I fucking hated it. There are so many changes in this draft, but it needed to be published for you guys. Trying to get the rest of what I have written down posted tonight, if I don't get a chance to finish before I pass out, I promise to put it up after work tomorrow. Thank you for reading! Please comment, it means the world hearing what you guys like about the story.