I Said I'd Never Let You Go

I looked up at him with the death glare. I can't believe he kissed me. And even worse I can't believe I kissed him back. This is why Tony didn't want me talking to him. He was afraid something like this would happen. And he was right.

"Are you going to say anything?" I demanded.

"You already know what I'm going to say." Austin tells me scratching the back of his head.

"No I really don't. So please enlighten me." I snarl.

"Autumn I still want you. Seeing you kiss Tony yesterday made me so jealous. After you left me in the coffee shop I was a mess. I did nothing but drink." He said sitting down on the couch in front of the lounge. “I know I hurt you. I also know sorry doesn't fix it. You're the only thing is made me feel whole since my mom died." His eyes were shining with tears.

I sat down next to him and rubbed his back. Motioning for him to continue I was hoping that maybe once everything was aired out that we could try to be friends. I did miss him, in more ways than I wanted to admit.

"When you walked out of the coffee shop my world crumbled again. It was like I was lost all over. Alan and the guys were extremely worried about me. I drink myself to oblivion trying to forget you, but all it did was make me miss you more." He says looking over me.

"Austin I never meant to hurt you that much; not that you didn't deserve it after what you did, but I have always cared about you. I always will. You were the first person that made me feel like I deserved to be happy. When everything happened between us Tony was the one that put me back together. He stood by me and showed me that it wasn't the end of the world. He fixed me as best as he could and I owe him for that." I explain.

"You feel obligated." He stated and I scowled.

"No I actually love him Austin. I don't want things to be awkward between us because we are on the same tour. I would like us to try and be friends, but the shit you just pulled isn't going to fly if you want me back in your life. I need you to prove to me that you can be civil and you are going to try that again." I tell him.

He looks down at his hands and bites his lip. He's contemplating what I just told him. I knew he wanted me back, but that part of our relationship was over. I still loved and yes, but the love I had for Tony came first. Austin was going to have to show me that he could respect my decision whether he liked it or not.

"Are you going to tell Tony I kissed you?" He asked quietly. I sighed. Was I going to tell him? I knew he deserved know. I also knew that it would start to make him think there was a possibility of me leaving him. Which there wasn’t.

"No." I stated. "There is no need to worry him with something that meant nothing and that won't happen again."

He mumbled something but I didn't catch it. I stood and began to walk towards the bunks again so I can change. I felt Austin grab my wrist, my skin with like fire under his touch. Even after all this time you still have effect on me.

I shot him a questioning glance. He shook his head and dropped my hand standing up.

"I'll talk to you later." He said before walking off the bus.

He left me there with flushed skin and a confused mind. What had he wanted to say then thought better of it. He made my head spin. One minute he was civil; the next he was kissing me then he was back to being civil. My phone vibrated again. I pulled it out opening the text I had just got.

'Blocked: Better tell Tony he's not the only one kissing those lips. 'Cause if you don't I will. And don't think for second I won't. Slut!'

My eyes grew wide how could anyone have seen us. Shit was about to hit the fan.

Notes

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