I Said I'd Never Let You Go

“Autumn where the fuck have you been?” Jeremy yells at me. I shrug and walk over to the fridge grabbing a bottle of water. “You’ve been really distant lately and you’ve been leaving for hours on end; showing back up right before we have to play. What’s going on with you?”

“Jeremy you aren’t my dad so stop fucking acting like it.” I yell back at him before going to my bunk. I climb in and close my curtain. I curl into myself and start to cry. I didn’t know how else to deal with this.

Tony and I had been dating for a little over a year and about eight months in we finally went public. Shit hit the fan. His so called ‘fans’ called me every name in the book. There was almost always one that would come to our shows and say shit to me. I knew I shouldn’t care what they say cause Tony cared about me, but they were starting to get worse.

I started avoiding then venues until I absolutely had to be there. I refused to tell anyone how much what they said affected me. The one that hurt the moat was variations of ‘Austin didn’t want you so you have to try and bring Tony down with you.’ I knew it wasn’t true since I was the one that broke it off with Austin.

The band was getting worried about me. I had shut the all out even though I knew they just wanted to help. I couldn’t let them see how bad this was tearing me apart. It was just part of the fame right?

Through The Looking Glass had actually made quite the name for itself. We were on the last show of our first headlining tour and in a week we were starting Warped Tour. We were booked for the entire thing too. I was extremely excited because Pierce The Veil was playing too. This meant three whole months of spending time with Tony, I hadn’t seen him in almost 6 months.

My phone lit up and started vibrating. I wiped at my eyes trying to see my screen clearer. Tony’s face was smiling back at me. I hit the answer button, his picture was replaced with his actual face.

He was smiling, but it immediately fell when he saw I was crying.

“What’s wrong baby?” He asked concern lacing his voice.

“Nothing.” I mumble.

“Autumn clearly it’s no nothing. Please tell me.” He says.

“Just missing home and you.” I lie. I felt terrible about it, but I didn’t want him to worry. This was my problem and I needed to deal with it.

“Awe babe. Just one more week and we will have three whole months together. You will be rejoicing when it’s over and you are away from me.” He jokes.

“You and I both know that I would never want that.” I tell him. He was perfect. I hated that we didn’t see more of each other, but I knew that it was part of what we signed up for when we started dating. It mae the time we did have together even more special.

“Have you guys played yet?” He asks looking behind the screen and nodding to someone.

“No we play in an hour. I just got back to the bus.” I say.

“Alright well we are going to grab some food. Have a good show. Call me before you go to bed. I love you.” He says before hanging up not waiting for me to reply.

I frown and drop my phone. “I love you too.”

Just one more week of this and then I don’t have to worry about stupid phone calls, short texts, or shitty facetime calls. He would be here and everything would be alright. I crawled out of my bunk and started to get ready for the show. Sighing loudly I knew I needed to talk to him about everything going on with the fans, but I knew he loved them so much. He would be crushed if he found out how they had been treating me.

I walk out of the bus and by a large group waiting to get into the venue. A few call me over to sign some things and a few look at me with disgust. They whisper to each other.

“Don’t let them get to you.” A girl says. “They are just mad that Tony’s found someone he’s happy with. You are amazing and clearly you have what Tony want. I’s sure it’s not easy to hear shit like that all the time, but you are way better than them.”

I smile at her before starting to walk to toward the venue. She was right. It didn’t really make it easier to hear but I knew she had a point and I needed to stop beating myself up about it.

“Just give it up Autumn. You know Tony doesn’t really want you. He just feels bad for you and your shitty band.” One of them yells. I turn around and smirk at her.

“And yet here you are. Buying a ticket to my show and wearing merch for my ‘shitty band’. You realize how fucking stupid you sound right now right?” I yell back to her. I open the door and walk inside the door shutting behind me, but not before I saw the girl scowl at me.

Notes

This is the first chapter of the sequel. If you haven't read the first story I suggest you do so you aren't lost.

Hope you like it

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