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Curtains Close; Take a bow. I think we fooled all of them now.

Chapter 36 - Look In My Eyes, It's Killing Me

Rain's POV

I was slightly hurt by what he had said to me, but I just wanted the best for him. I should leave if he wanted me to. But I just felt so needy to be with him, and it was something I could barely control.

I stood there in the kitchen, watching him tend to Hanley. Oli rocked him and patted his back slowly, before humming in his ear gently to sooth him. Oli used to do that to me after he took me from the hospital.

"Oli?" I asked, trying to change the awful mood between us. He nodded to me. "Would you ever love me again?"

Oh no. That was too much. Especially after our argument. I wanted to suck back the question but it was too late now. My heart sank and I prepared myself for the probably answer I didn't want to hear. Why was I so quick to jump to the point with everyone.

He shrugged. "Look..." He paused before glancing to the time on the microwave beside me. "Shit, I have to go." He snapped, gently laying Hanley down in his crib.

"Bring me with you..." I whispered.

"No, Rain. It's not something you want to watch." He said, lifting his coat over himself and walking towards his shoes.

"Please. I just need to understand you Oli." I stated sadly.

He sighed and said nothing to me for a while. I could hear Hanley breathing quietly behind us. Oli opened his mouth a few times, but hesitated to talk. Finally he answered me. "Fine. But you have to keep Hanley quiet."

My stomach filled with excitement. I could finally find out what he did every time he left me. I quickly lifted Hanley up into my arms and wrapped him in his little rain coat. I squeezed his little hand in mine and together we headed after Oliver, who was now getting inside the car and starting it. I strapped Hanley in the back of the car and Oli told me to hurry up as I did it. I trembled with a mixture of emotions as I sat in the car with him, as I was so unsure about what I was about to see.

Notes

Sorry for not updating! Been going through a hard time lately. Hopefully I will get the next chapter out in the next couple of days :)

Comments

Quality read, I love this story so much, can you check out my new story please? I'd appreciate it and wanna collab

Anyone who is reading this, I'm actually the writer of this story, I just deleted my tumblr account that was linked to this a while ago. I wrote this years and years ago, and I think it's pretty poorly written at the start, so apologies lmao. But anyway, I made a new account, I'm older now so my writing has gotten better, I'm taking English as an A level too so everything is good. I'm in the process of writing something new, but I'm totally annoyed with the lack of views it's getting. It's got a kind of similar story involving drugs and pregnancy and stuff so check it out? <3 Its called "On The Vacant Canvas, We Should Be Waiting", and I've based some parts of the story ie. drugs and fights etc. on experiences that actually happened to me and my friends so it's quite a personal story, as I think it should be.

@SparklyRainbows
Thankyou so much, I've been really good lately, and I hope that you can be too, and I'm glad you're enjoying it :) You better stay awesome too, hun <3

I just want to let you know, I stated until 6:03 in the morning, reading the ever loving fuck out of this. This story is amazin . First of all, this story spans over years, not months or days like most storie . Second of all, I have a real connection with both Oli and Rain (which is one of the character names in my story, too!!!). I struggle with self harm, alcohol, and drug abuse, and this chapter really connected with me especially. Whatever you're going through, I've never met you, but I believe in you. I'm proud that you're five (or more) days sober, and you definitely better keep it up. You're a strong person, and it's really awesome that you're doing good and writing an amazing story while you're at. Stay beautiful my lovely creature!!

I really felt the connection in this chapter with the Alcohol abuse. I really liked this update, a lot x