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Curtains Close; Take a bow. I think we fooled all of them now.

Chapter 34 - Don't Leave Me Alone In This Bed

Rain's POV

Oli was reclining in his chair, his hair was hanging from his head as he held it back. Hanley was breathing slowly by my ear as he slept. I held him propped up on my breast and gently rocked him to make sure he didn't begin to cry.

"Oli?" I asked, trying to lighten the mood.

He nodded slowly.

"I was thinking, maybe we should go out tomorrow? I heard the weather was going to be nice and I think that..."

"It doesn't matter." He interrupted. "Why would I care about the weather?"

I sighed. "Sorry. I just want you to be happy again Oliver. I'll do anything." I pleaded, standing up from next to him and lifting Hanley onto my hip.

He gave me a deathly stare. "Anything..." He said under his breath. "How about you just leave me alone." He grunted.

I ignored his piggish comment. "Oli please come out with me tomorrow. It will make you feel better. I promise." He sat and thought. "Do it for Hanley." I nudged, attempting to make him feel something.

"Fine." He hushed, holding his arms out to take Hanley from me. Oli seemed to have a magic touch with him. Hanley never cried, spit up or fidgeted when he was with Oli. I felt slightly jealous for that.

The night was awful, I had little sleep due to Hanley howling. I couldn't stand it and tried everything to make him stop. But he kept crying, and I could barely stand for it any longer. Oliver came downstairs once, and hushed Hanley back to sleep in minutes, before shooting a disappointed look at me and heading back to bed.

Now I was sat, the sun glaring onto my lap by the window, staring out onto the mint green grass outside. "Oliver." I said gently. "Let's go now."

He walked straight up behind me and lifted Hanley out of his crib. I held his hand and tugged him out of the door excitedly, but he screwed his face up at it all. He strapped Hanley inside the back of the car and sat beside me, watching me drive the car most of the way.

"Where are we." He sluggishly said, rolling his eyes.

"This is my favorite place Oli. This is the cliff edge I would come to when I was upset about something."

He lifted out Hanley and slammed the car door, looking out over the tiny area of grass which hung over a huge drop and a chalky white cliff. "Why?" He asked.

"Because I wanted you to stand on that edge." I said simply, pointing to him where he should stand. He walked over and peered over hesitantly, holding Hanley close to his chest. "Now, I'm going to push you off." I smirked.

"Push me off?" He asked nervously. "But you'd kill me and Hanley." He stated.

"What's wrong with that?" I asked, watching him raise his eyebrows at me.

"Well..." He said. "I wouldn't want you to kill Hanley. Only me."

"Exactly." I proudly said. "It's killing you Oli. Don't drag Hanley down with you."

He looked confused. "How am I dragging Hanley down with me?"

"Well..." I answered. "I wouldn't want my father to be like this. You are almost lethargic with sadness Oli."

He huffed. "You're right. It's just so hard Rain. I don't want to look after him alone."

"I'm here." I whispered, slipping my hand into his. "We can get through this Oli. You have me."

Notes

Comments

Quality read, I love this story so much, can you check out my new story please? I'd appreciate it and wanna collab

Anyone who is reading this, I'm actually the writer of this story, I just deleted my tumblr account that was linked to this a while ago. I wrote this years and years ago, and I think it's pretty poorly written at the start, so apologies lmao. But anyway, I made a new account, I'm older now so my writing has gotten better, I'm taking English as an A level too so everything is good. I'm in the process of writing something new, but I'm totally annoyed with the lack of views it's getting. It's got a kind of similar story involving drugs and pregnancy and stuff so check it out? <3 Its called "On The Vacant Canvas, We Should Be Waiting", and I've based some parts of the story ie. drugs and fights etc. on experiences that actually happened to me and my friends so it's quite a personal story, as I think it should be.

@SparklyRainbows
Thankyou so much, I've been really good lately, and I hope that you can be too, and I'm glad you're enjoying it :) You better stay awesome too, hun <3

I just want to let you know, I stated until 6:03 in the morning, reading the ever loving fuck out of this. This story is amazin . First of all, this story spans over years, not months or days like most storie . Second of all, I have a real connection with both Oli and Rain (which is one of the character names in my story, too!!!). I struggle with self harm, alcohol, and drug abuse, and this chapter really connected with me especially. Whatever you're going through, I've never met you, but I believe in you. I'm proud that you're five (or more) days sober, and you definitely better keep it up. You're a strong person, and it's really awesome that you're doing good and writing an amazing story while you're at. Stay beautiful my lovely creature!!

I really felt the connection in this chapter with the Alcohol abuse. I really liked this update, a lot x