Forgive Me- Part 3

Amelia's POV

"Case what are doing?" I ask as my three year old daughter pulls apart the sandwich I had made her.

"Tastes better like this" she said before reordering the ham and salad.

"It tastes the same" Cale said from the other side of the table.

"Cale, you haven't even taken a bite, we have to leave soon, please keep eating" I say taking the pencil he had clutched in his hand.

Taking care of these two has been a handle to say the least. Physically they are very similar, but personality wise, they couldn't be any different.

Both Casey and Cale had Jaime's dark brown, puppy dog eyes, tan skin and dimples coupled with my natural dirty blonde hair. It was obvious that they were twins and they definitely look more like Jaime than me. But personality wise, Casey was more like Jaime in that she was really bubbly and outgoing while Cale is more like me, quiet shy, and prefers to spend his time looking at books and drawing over being with people. Though he can't read just yet he already knows the alphabet and is very eager to learn. Casey on the other hand couldn't be less interested. She loved being outside, running around and chatting to people.

I love them both more than anything else but I can't help but think about how things would be if I hadn't run away. What would Jaime have thought? Would he have been excited? Would he have wanted them? Would he have even believed they were his? I missed him, and a lot of the time I regret running away but sometimes I think it was for the best. I keep track of everyone, check out their twitters and see what they've been up to. But I haven't contacted anyone, not even Lex. I've been tempted several times yea, but despite the amount of calls, tweets and messages I've received, I never let myself reply. I'll only cause them all more pain. They've probably forgotten about me by now anyway. It's been years...

"Mummy, are you thinking about Daddy again?" Casey said. She was so switched on when it came to people and could read every expression that passes my face. She has always been able to tell when I'm thinking about Jaime.

"Yes sweetheart."

"When will we get to meet him?" Cale asked. He's always wanted to meet Jaime. I had to talk to them about him when it came to Father's Day and their day care was making cards. They were curious as to why they didn't have a dad to make a card for.

"I'm not sure honey."

"Can we visit?"

"No Case, we can't"

"But why not?" Cale asked "We go visit Omar and Uncle Jason and Aunty 'Liza"

"I know but Daddy's busy."

"Can he visit us?" Casey asked

"No baby"

"Why not?"

"Because he doesn't know where we live"

"Can you tell him?"

"No, I can't, now come on, keep eating." Their attention was easily diverted once again to their food.

I hated that they didn't have a dad, especially because it was entirely my fault. I wanted them to know that they did have a dad. That they weren't weird, just that their dad wasn't here right now. They knew what he looked like and Jason has a photo of Jaime and me hanging next to his bed while Casey has some of his solo music on a disc that I play to put her to sleep. They don't even know him but they adore him more than anything. Maybe I should call him... Try to get him to become a part of their lives. They would love that. But would he go along with it? Would he even want to know them?

Well, I guess I'll never know unless I try. But how do you even start a conversation like that with someone you haven't spoken to in four years?

Notes

So here you have it!! First two chapters of Part 3 of the Forgive Me Trilogy! I know these are both really short but that's because i was orriginally post them as the same chapter then changed my mind at the last minute...

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