You can't just turn back time

Tony's P.O.V.

It's been about two weeks since Jaime and I called off our engagement. Since I let him go. I cried the entire first week, with Mike there to comfort me through the heartbreak. I feel bad that he has to see me torn up over another guy that isn't him, but he said he understood, and he should. Jaime was everything to me and I was going to marry him. I still love him...but I want Mike. All I ever craved for in middle school was to be his. To stroll into his house on weekends and kiss him and hold his hand and take cute coupley selfies with him and do cute coupley stuff. But I never got that, instead I got all the hurt and rejection from him. All I wanted when I moved was to make up with him and have him back. All I hoped for the years into moving here in NYC was to bump into him, hoping that somehow he moved here too and we'd cross paths. Then I met Jaime and he made me feel like I didn't need Mike...yet, everyday, I hoped we'd talk again. I hoped I'd see him again. I hoped I heard from him. I hoped he'd somehow miss me.

I started to slowly fall for Jaime. It wasn't quick like falling in love with Mike. It took time because I was too afraid to open up to someone that wasn't him. I didn't want to love someone other than him. As crazy as it sounds, and I know I was just a kid back then, I was still in love with him. I loved him but I pushed it to the back of my mind once Jaime and I got together officially. It was still there though, this whole time just hiding away, waiting to spring out if he came back. And he came. And it sprung out. And I craved him all over again...just like in middle school. But this time it was different. This time he liked me too...he craved me.

He acted on his feelings and I acted on mine even though I was now with Jaime. Even though I had fallen in love again with someone new. It's true when they say, you fall in love more than once. I fell in love twice. Two great guys. Two amazing people. One I had to let go. And it hurt to let him go...we were together for so long. We went through so much. But Mike and I...

We had a history...

A beautiful friendship that was bound to turn into something more. And when it did, I was more than willing to accept it. And so...yea, I'm allowed to cry over Jaime when I'm with Mike. I'm allowed to have chosen him over Jaime too. And despite how broken I feel right now...I know I made the right choice. And I'm happy with my decisions.

"Baaaaabbbeee. Come to bed!" Mike groaned. Oh yea, I moved in with him. Jaime and I sold our house...and...he's still my best friend. That's the ironic part of it all. I was going to marry my best friend but we broke up and now I'm with my best friend. They're both my best friends.

"I'm coming, Mikey!" I laughed. Jaime and I are still talking, thankfully. We're not as close as we were, but that's obviously gonna take some time for us to get comfortable like before. We work together, so it's kind of hard not to see him everyday. It's weird to be around him when I still love him and I can't kiss him like I used to. Our co-workers don't say how cute we are anymore. He doesn't tell me, "I love you." anymore. We're just friends now. Something I never thought I'd have to call him again. Jaime's always, obviously, and most definitely going to have a special place in my heart. No matter what. He was almost my husband. We almost got married. We almost had kids together. We almost grew old together.

He's my almost boy.

And I'm so grateful to have him in my life, as well as Mike. I'm glad I haven't lost them.

"Finally! The bed was getting cold without you here." Mike pouted, once I had gotten in bed with him.

"I'm here now." I smiled. He smiled back at me and rubbed his thumb on my cheek sweetly, looking into my eyes.

"I love you so much." He whispered. He slowly pressed his warm lips to mine. I kissed him back, wrapping my arms around his waist and closing my eyes, butterflies erupting in my stomach.

"I love you too."

Notes

I know it's short but, at least I updated! Sorry it's been so long, like I explained in my other story, I was too suicidal to write anything. And if I did write something, it was on wattpad because I have more readers over there. Anyway, hope you liked it c: Happy NEW YEAR btw cx

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