You're My Favorite Addiction

I sat on the bottom step of Austin's stairs, staring blankly as he double checked everything that he was getting ready to take on tour with him. Thoughts began to swirl around in my already congested with a million thoughts mind. Today was the day that he'd be leaving me for 10 months. That means ten whole months without his smile, his eyes, his kisses, and I was still nervous about the baby.

Austin hadn't really taken notice to my change in persona. He's been so sucked into his music, which is fine. But, he is going to have a baby. He's going to be a dad. And I couldn't help like feel this child is going to grow up without their dad, like I did. I felt guilty for not telling him about the baby. But I didn't want him to stress. He's finally doing something that he absolutely loves. How could I just take that away from him?

He turned around and stared at me with sad eyes.

"C'mon darlin, don't look so upset. It's killing me." He pouted.

"I'm fine, just sad to see you go." I frowned.

He sighed and grabbed onto my hand, pulling into one of his famous hugs. Taking in his scent because this was going to be the last time I got to do this, for a while. He pulled away and placed a kiss on my forehead.

A part of me was jealous. He was going to obviously develop quite the fan base, and a majority were going to love him because he's good looking. The girls would fan girl, and I'd be at home. With our child, raising him or her, without him. Eventually I'm going to have to tell him I'm pregnant. Eventually, he'll know, but not right now. I don't want to ruin his excitement about all of this.

He grabbed his bags and we walked outside to the cold morning air. Now that I'm graduated it's going to be weird, knowing that I won't wake up everyday anticipating seeing him. Driving to school, picking up Alan and dealing with bull shit all day. I was definitely going to miss it, but I'm thankful that it's over. Especially now since I'm going to be a mom.

The tour bus pulled up and the guys all got out, ready to say their goodbyes to me. Austin went in and placed his bags down, while I hugged all the guys. They became a very close group of friends, and I was happy to know that if Austin did something I would be able to know. Not that I don't trust Austin, it's just when you become famous, you kinda go through the rock star phase. Right? Doesn't everybody?

I walked over to Tino, Phil, and Aaron hugging them all kissing them in the cheek. I liked these guys and I knew they were just as serious as Austin was. Then I walked over to Alan, he had tears in his eyes and it caused me to tear up as well. I hugged he tightly and when we pulled away he was full on crying. Alan was sorta emotional but that was okay.

"I love you ginger." I smiled.

"I love you so much Phoenix, thank you for being there for me through everything. I couldn't thank you enough." He frowned.

"Hey, it's what us best friends do." I smiled, and he nodded.

Then I walked over to Austin, just taking in his features up close and personal one last time. The way his eyes had little specks of good in them, the way his freckles were so strategically placed, or the way when he smiled, his tongue would peek through just a little bit.

"I love you with all my heart, and nothing will ever change that." He said into my hair.

"I love you too." I saddened, knowing this was good bye,

"Hey remember what I told you." He smiled.

"I'll love you till the stars fall from the sky." We both said in unison.

With that he and guys all hopped on the bus, Austin taking one last look at me and sighing before the bus door closed. As it pulled away I stood in the middle of road, not caring if any cars were coming or not. I watched the bus until it was out of my view and sighed and walked back over to my car, getting in and driving home.

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4 months had passed, and only every so often Austin would call. But, that was on a good day. I don't usually get phone calls, it's just text messages. Once the FaceTime calls stopped, the phone calls started coming in short as well, now his text messages are numbered, I was losing him.

From: The love of my life <3
"Busy today, call ya later if I can."

That's usually what all the text messages are like anymore, I didn't even get a 'I love you' anymore. I sighed and threw my phone across my room. I got up and looked at my growing belly in the mirror.

"I'll always love you, I promise you that." I said to my stomach, as I rubbed it.

I put on my shoes and hopped in my car. Driving until I could clear my mind, I didn't need to be stressed, but this situation is what I feared the most. And now my worst nightmare is coming true. When I think back to high school, I was always the girl that could get along without a guy, I didn't need one to be happy. But, with Austin I feel like I needed him at all times or I might shut down.

I stopped when I came to the bridge where I wrote many of my songs. I hadn't been here in a while, but it felt nice to come back and reminisce. I stared out over the bay, letting the slight fall air flow through my hair. The voice inside my head kept telling me 'he's not coming back' or 'just let it go Phoenix.' And I finally gave into my thoughts. In all actuality I was just a burden to Austin, he didn't want to talk to me. If he did then he would. I sighed and looked down at the ring on my finger. I took it off and looked out into the water. I admired the beauty one last time, I remembered the exact day he gave it to me, one last time. I recited his words in my head one last time, before I threw it out into the water.

"I'll love until the stars fall from the sky." I whispered.

"Well you lied." I growled.

I got in my car, drove to my house picked up everything I wanted to take. Starting driving, with no direction on where I was going. I didn't know, I didn't care at the moment. I kept driving.

And not once did I ever look back.

Notes

The End.

I finished this story, I hope you liked it.

There may be a sequal I'm not sure yet. But I will let you know, If so then I will posy the link on this story.

Enjoy the finale.

Love you guys!

steph<3

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