It never ends

My chest hurt. And my head felt blurry. Oliver had followed me out here and I could already tell he wasn’t gonna leave if I just told him to leave. So I decided to just hear whatever he has to say.
“The day you came into the dorms for the first time, when you went into the dorm bedroom. It was Austin and Celeste’s idea” my head was flooded with memories of when I first came into the dorms, I had saw everyone. They didn’t quite give me the impression of being super nice people, not like I was expecting something like that. I don’t really know what I was expecting. But the fact that they hadn’t even known my name and already had apparently bet on me didn’t settle right with me.

“The deal was to see if I could get you in bed in a month” my stomach felt queasy with every word he said. A Month? It hasn’t’ even been a full month yet has it. I had given my virginity to him, I trusted him and the whole time it had been a lie.

I couldn’t find any words to say. I just stood there, all the energy I had draining out.

“If that’s all…” I said turning around, I don’t know where exactly I’m going, but I know I can’t stay here. I didn’t get very far ,Oliver moved in front of me, blocking my way.

“ The morning after, I tried to stop it, but it was useless, it was already done”
Oliver grabbed my hands, but I recoiled.

“I-I can’t just forgive you just like that”
“Why not?” He cocked his head the side, He looked cute when he did that. No. I can’t just give in easily.

“Because, you completely embarrassed me! You’re sorry but you didn’t tell me earlier! Were you gonna even tell me at all? I can’t be with someone who keeps secrets like this”

I could barely look directly at Oliver, his face was saddened and I don’t know if he was being genuinely sincere or if he was just a good liar. But if he was lying why would he have come out here to apologize in the first place.

“I need some space” I said.
Oliver sighed , “well let me at least drive you home” I didn’t know what he meant by home, I don’t even know where I’m going to go. I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it. I guess it’s better than getting a ride from a stranger.

“Fine” I said crossing my arms. Olivers expression was blank, he dug in his pocket for his keys and I followed him.

We rode in awkward, uncomfortable silence; at least awkward and uncomfortable for me. I kept my glances out the window. My face felt dry and bare, I had stopped crying, but my chest felt heavy and my head. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know where he was going, I just want to get in bed and sleep. Hopefully I can avoid everyone in my classes and everywhere. Maybe I can apply for a new room-mate since I don’t think staying where I am would be a good idea, especially since they all seem to love to hang out at the dorm room.

I was finally able to take a breath of relief when he pulled up to the Large dorm building. When he parked I quickly got out and didn’t waste any time waiting for the elevator, I just used the stairs, and I heard oliver catching up behind me but I didn’t look back. I couldn’t get my key out fast enough to open the door but when I finally got inside, oliver was already right behind me.

I turned around to face him. His eyebrows were lowered and he was staring me intently.

“I don’t know what else to say” he said “you’re just gonna pretend nothing ever happened.”
“there’s really nothing else to say. Can you just leave, I’m really tired”
“not until you forgive me”
I was about to speak, but oliver spoke before I could get any words out.
“let me show you, tomorrow” his eyes were bright and piercing.
“I’ll see” I said before backing up into the hallway to the bedroom door. I didn’t come out and he didn’t come knocking.

Notes

sorry for the short chapter. hope you enjoy, it's thursday night so the next chapter should be up by at least tuesday or monday.