My bed was the most comforting thing about today. After taking Jonah to school, me having a doctor's appointment, grocery shopping, and in about fifteen minutes; spending time with the girls, I was exhausted. I laid in my black leggings, a big striped tee, with a comfy cardigan to match. If I was gonna be out and about today, I was going to be comfortable. And, with the weather cooling down a degree or two, I was actually a little cold.

The doorbell rang and I groaned for what felt like ten minutes, all the way down the stairs and to the door. Alysha's short blonde hair was the first thing that stuck out to me, other than the fact that she wasn't wearing pants. At least I don't think. Her pearly white smile that she showed in photographs greeted me and I gave her a smile half as pretty as hers as we walked from my doorstep to Jessica's car. I got in the front seat because that's where I felt like I had the most space and said a soft hello to Erin and Jess as I buckled myself in.

As the engine started up, and the air conditioning hitting me square in the face, Jessica drove off to who-knows-where and I didn't really care. I was feeling a little grumpy today. No particular reason. Just a human growing inside of me and choosing to rest on my fucking ribs, no biggie. And her name was Human right now because her father has yet to choose a name and that already annoyed the shit out of me. I should've cancelled this little girls day or whatever.

"Liv, how are you feeling?" Erin asked sweetly from the backseat, her medium brown tresses flowing under a mustard colored beanie.

I faked smiled, wondering if I should be honest or be fake. I'll be fake. "Great. I'm almost ready for her to get out of here." I looked down at my stomach, and how big it's gotten. I feel like it's just gone by so fast, which made me sad, and also made me happy.

Erin went on about babies and what she wants to buy the baby tons of things and I tuned out as I looked outside as the city passed by me. I felt like crying, for no reason. It was actually laughable at all the things I cried at lately. The only thing not laughable was when I cried because I missed Vic. I can only dream of how happy and smooth this time could be if he wasn't touring.

I was getting this thought in my head that I've always sacrificed basically everything in my life for Vic so he could play a show there and release an album here. I shook the thought out of my head, because watch out -- there goes me being selfish again. I rolled my eyes at myself hone pretended to join in on the conversation with the girls. Alysha was talking about something I didn't care about, Erin was talking about baking, Jessica would give an occasional yeah and mhm whenever appropriate, and I was just sitting there, nodding whenever I could.

I kept pressing the home button on my phone to check the time, see if Vic had called or text me yet. He'd been a real pain in my ass the last two days, but nonetheless, it was a pain that I loved more than anything -- a pain that I wanted to feel. We arrived at our destination at some small cafe and all went inside one by one. I stuck with Jessica since she seemed to be distancing herself from the others, not in a bad way, just a small way.

We ordered some sort of hot beverage and Erin and I got muffins; hers blueberry, mine banana nut. I sat beside Jessica in this little nook of the cafe, me following like a puppy, both of us sitting in two of these big, red, comfy chairs. "What's wrong?" I decided to ask, since she looked like she'd rather be anywhere else.

She looked over to Alysha and Erin, whom were looking at the books on the bookshelves here, and Jess raised an eyebrow over to me. "Guess who."

"Let me see, she must be blonde." I said, already knowing the answer. I mean, Erin isn't the one to completely annoy nor do wrong. She's the nicest person I've ever met actually. "What happened?"

She sighed, "I don't know if I'm overreacting. Please tell me if I am, okay? Erin isn't mean enough to tell the truth, but you always tell the truth, fearlessly." She sighed once more, deeper than previous before she spoke again. "She was texting Jaime. Like, why the fuck is she texting Jaime. If you were texting or calling Jaime, that'd be different, but it's her." Jessica's right. If I were texting Jaime, it would be different. I've known Jaime since before all of these bitches came along and Jess knew that.

"Why was she texting him? Did you see the messages?"

"I saw them on his computer. You know how on a Macbook you can see messages? I saw them. They weren't flirty on his part, but on hers they were. Like bitch, you have a boyfriend. She was telling him stuff that I'm not okay with. It wasn't like sexual or anything, but you know what I mean? Jaime doesn't even like her." She rolled her brown eyes and glared over at Alysha. I would glare too. I mean, I am glaring.

Jess stopped looking at her and her eyes landed on me, "What's wrong with you?"

"I feel grumpy today. I miss Vic. The baby thinks it's cool to lay down on my ribs. I'm just annoyed with everything today."

"Why didn't you cancel on us? You should've. You have a good reason, you know." She smiled softly.

I matched her smile, for the first time today actually. "I know. I'm just tired of being alone all day." I stuck out my lip and looked down on the phone, once again seeing nothing but the time and my background, which was that famous picture of Vic, Jo, and I at Disneyland.

"Still hasn't called?"

I shook my head, "No. And, I'm just annoyed. Mainly about that. About how Jo is getting picked up from school by his grandparents and is gonna be there for the next two days. I'm just, ugggh I don't know Jess."

"I don't know either, Liv. I'm gonna smack Miss Priss over there."

"Does Mike know?" I asked curiously, cutting a piece of my muffin with a fork and shoving it in my mouth.

"You know what, I don't even know."

"You should screenshot them and save it for a rainy day." I suggested, joking of course. I'm not about blackmail, but from the look on her face, I think I gave her an idea. Greaaaatttt.

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Once I finally got into my house, I locked the door behind me and threw my keys and bag on the ground and plopped on the couch. I kicked off my boots, and threw the covers over me as I put on some tv show, whatever it landed on really. It actually turned out to be a show that was interesting, Total Divas, and I got hooked pretty quickly. I was grateful there was a marathon on.

Just as another episode was getting really good, my phone lights up and rings. An old picture of Vic, from like 2009 came up. I smiled a little looking at it, even though it was a tough time for us that year, he was still such a stud. "About time." I said with a smirk pulling on the end of my lips.

"I know Livvy, I'm so sorry. We had shitty service the entire drive and even when we stopped. I found some service in the restroom here at the venue." He chuckled a little, making me laugh.

"As long as we're talking now."

"I got all your texts at once and it seems like you had a long day."

"I did. Annoyingly long. When are you coming home again?" I asked, in a more begging tone.

"Let's see. In like four weeks." I could hear the sadness in his voice. I was wondering if he could hear my heart break into two.

As soon as he said weeks, my eyes began to water and a lump in my throat formed. Here we go, more tears. I sniffled, trying to keep it together. "Four weeks. Okay."

"I made sure I was gonna be home at least two weeks before the due date. I know that's when things can start happening."

"I know. I'm just sad because I really miss you and I wish you were here." Tears began to fall but I wiped them almost as quick as they formed. Typical me.

He stayed quiet for a second, letting a sigh out. I hope I didn't make him feel bad, I'm just needy as fuck right now. "Livvy, I love you so much. I'll be home as soon as I can okay? Make sure she doesn't come without me."

I smiled softly, "I won't. I promise."

We talked for a little while longer before we hung up. I shut off the TV and slowly walked up the stairs. But before I went into mine and Vic's room, I peeked in the nursery, flipping the lights on as I overlooked everything. Everything was absolutely perfect and in its place. All I needed was my baby girl in it.

I turned off the light and closed the door as I went across the hall into my room. The bed was made nicely, the room was lit dimly. The bed invited me in, pajamas or not, and I took it, seeping deeper in the sheets, warming up my body. It was still slightly cold mainly because Vic wasn't there on the other side, but I was used to it by now.

"Baby girl," I said softly as my hands were placed on my stomach. "Please wait to come until your dad gets home. I know it's gonna be frustrating with him gone most nights, but he is so excited to meet you. Let's just hold off until your due date, okay beautiful girl? I love you. We love you."

My eyes became heavy and I found myself dozing off. I think I just need to sleep off the weirdly irritating day I had today. Whether it was for no reason, or actually had a purpose, I just needed to sleep it off. As the Godfather's said, "Tomorrow holds such better days."

Notes

What do y'all think of this update? It's more of a filler, but I ignited some potential drama between Jaime / Jessica / Alysha and possibly Mike. And guess what, even more drama is gonna happen later on. Believe me ;)

Thank you all for reading and the continued patience that you all have for me. I appreciate it and I love you all to teeny and tiny pieces.