I'll do anything for you

Victor's P.O.V.

My mood went from 100 to 0 within seconds of getting home and locking myself in my room. My heart was plummeting, my hands were shaking, and my gut was feeling raw. Why did I say that? I lied. I shouldn't of said that, then maybe he wouldn't have left me so easily. I hate myself so much right now.

"Victor? You okay?" My head shot up at Sharon's voice through the door. I went silent, trying not to cry anymore. I'm such an idiot. Man up, Victor! You fucking dumb ass!

"Y-Yea...I just miss Mike...and T-Tony..." I lied. Well, half lied.

"I do too..." And just like that Sharon sobbed. "I...They h-have to come back some time...it'll be okay..." It was too much for her and soon I heard footsteps walking away.

I went back to my own crying, laying in my bed with the lights off. Why am I crying? I'm the one who said I had someone else...I made it easier for Tony to go back to Mike. It's my fault. Kellin hates me! Why did I tell him we had something?! I have something; a fucking crush on Kellin! Kellin has something too; Hate towards me! God, I'm so fucking stupid.

This isn't fair...I don't deserve this! How could he do this to me?...No, Victor, you're being dumb again! Of course he left you! You're nothing to him when it comes to Mike! Mike was his first, you're just the sloppy seconds he never came back to eat and went straight for the fresh batch instead.

"God, I suck." I whispered to myself.

Maybe I should go to the skate park...fuck no, are you crazy?! Well maybe a little, yea. Kellin's gonna be there with his friends. Don't go. Well why the fuck should I not? I can if I want. He's just gonna be an ass.

True, very true. He'll be the ass-iest ass he can be. I really have to stop having conversations with myself. This is weird. Fuck it, I'm going. Maybe I can just avoid him and he'll leave me alone for once. I just need to calm down.

I got up out of my bed, taking my skateboard with me before I left the house. I went all the way to the skate park in the dark. It was already 7, so I doubt even Kellin would be here. Last time I came and they were here it was 5. When I walked in, I made sure to look well around. I didn't see Kellin or any of his friends so I quickly made my way to my usual spot and started skating. It was dark and cold outside, there were only about six other people here, all of which I didn't know. I decided to skate in the bowl, and that's what I did. With my headphones in, sweat on my forehead, completely enjoying myself and already feeling so much better than I was before. I did that for a while until someone bumped into me, causing me to fall on my back and sending my skateboard across the other side with the stranger fallen on top of me.

"Fuck!" I screamed. My headphones were knocked out of my ear and when I felt my head, it was practically throbbing. I looked at my hand and saw blood. Great, he hurt my head. Fucking bitch.

"Dude, I'm so sorry-Vic?"

I recognized the voice anywhere. How could I not recognize the voice of someone I practically give all my attention to at school everyday? I looked at him, not saying a word. He still hadn't moved off of me and he wasn't punching me in the face so I guess that was a good sign.

"Sorry...you okay?" Kellin asked, his eyes still locked with mine.

"No. My heads fucking bleeding." I snapped.

"S-Sorry...um..." Kellin paused, looking at my face then down to my arms. "Your elbow's bleeding too...I'm really sorry."

"Oh no, don't be. I've had way worse from you." I growled, pushing him off me harshly and walking over to get my skateboard. God, I hate him! Why does he have to be so flawless, yet so filled with flaws? If that makes any sense.

I was so angry I didn't even want to skate anymore, first Tony, now fucking Kellin. Ugh. I walked over to the smaller empty bowl and instead of skating, I just sat down with my legs hanging over the edge.

Not even a second later Kellin sat down next to me. I was quick with speaking.

"What the fuck do you want?!" I shouted. He looked at me with those big blue eyes of his and he had a look of guilt on his face.

"I'm really so-"

"Don't you fucking say sorry again. If you were sorry for just making me fall but not sorry for beating me up everyday then you don't deserve to be sorry for anything." I seethed.

"Hey, I've never laid a hand on you! It's all Josh and the guys!" Kellin quickly defended.

"Yea, well you let them do it!" I reminded him. "Not only that, but you feel the need to insult me every fucking day!" I shouted. That shut him up.

"You just think you're all that and a bag of chips. Well you're fucking not! You're a fucking ass and I'm not even sure why you have any fucking friends."

"Victor, I'm sorry for doing that to you...I'm sorry for what I do at school-"

"Then why the hell do you do it?!"

"Because they're my friends and I don't have anyone else! If I started being nice all of a sudden they'd drop me in an instant and think I was turning soft on them. I have a reputation, Vic. What do you expect me to do?" Kellin spilled. "Why don't you just man up and get over your little crush on me?!"

That crossed the line. I had been feeling so robbed this entire day and I had no will left in me. I felt my face fall in an instant and couldn't help the one tear that had escaped my eye. I got up, taking my skateboard and went away as fast as I could.

"Fuck, I'm sorry! Vic!" Kellin called out. I soon heard wheels behind me and I knew he was probably coming after me. Why does he even care? He shouldn't be apologizing. It's pissing me off. He's such an ass. Kellin was in front of me, surprisingly really fast and I almost would have fallen if it weren't for him catching me.

"I shouldn't have said that, I'm sorry. I know you don't like me, it's just everyone says you do and, I don't know...I was angry, I'm sorry." Kellin apologized again.

"But I do like you. That's why it hurt. Just let me go home." I choked out, my voice cracking. Why do I have to be so god damn sensitive? This never happened to me before. Tony's messing me up, man. I tried to push past him but he stopped me.

"You do?..." Kellin asked. I nodded and looked to the ground, avoiding his eyes.

"Why?" Kellin asked. "I'm fucked up. What could you possibly see in me?"

I wasn't sure if he was being insecure or if he was referring to him being fucked up to me, but either way I felt the need to answer.

"You are fucked up. And I fucking hate you." I paused. "But at the same time you're so perfect to me. You're like that popular jock you see in every teenage movie these days, and I'm that girl that wants the guy to notice her. You have since you fucking hate me, so I guess I'm not completely losing. It really sucks too, because my boyfriend just broke up with me today and now I'm stuck with having this stupid crush on you." I huffed. I had been holding it in and I didn't care to let any of it out.

"You think I hate you?" Was the first thing Kellin asked.

"Fuck yea I do." I shrugged.

"Well I don't. It's just an act." The fact that he was admitting this to me was alarming. "Come home with me tonight."

"What?"

"Come home with me. You hurt your head pretty bad, my mom's a doctor so like...she can see if you're alright..." Kellin spoke softly. He looked almost scared to speak.

"Okay..." I said barely above a whisper. How could I refuse going to my crush's house? Especially when he's being sweet and this is probably the only time in my entire life I'm ever gonna witness him being so kind to me.

"Cool...let's go. My house is this way..." Kellin shrugged, turning around. We decided to walk there instead and it felt really weird for both of us since we'd never really even had a conversation before today. My phone buzzed in my pocket. I looked at my phone seeing Tony's name flash across the screen.

Come to the hotel. Mike wants to talk to you.
-Tony

No, I can't. I'm with Kellin. He asked me out on a date :)
-Vic

Did I really just send that? Am I trying to make him jealous or trying to make myself feel better?

"You okay?" Kellin asked.

"Yea, yea..."

Really?...Cool. Have fun.
-Tony

"We're here. It's really close so...yea. Um, make sure you take your shoes off before you walk in." Kellin shrugged. I nodded and we both walked into his house. He kind of awkwardly told me where everything was until he introduced me to his mom.

Notes

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