"Vic?" Kellin called me, taking a seat next to me at the couch.

"Yes babe?" I started playing random chords at the guitar that sitted on my lap.

"I want to learn. Will you please teach me how to play?" he started strumming randomly at the strings.

"hmm. No" I sang

"aww. Why not." he pouted.

"just cause." I played some more.

"Fine." he crossed his arms. I find him adorable. I was just messing with him, I mean who could really say no to that face.

"I guess I’ll go ask Jesse then." he got up and I immediately yanked him back in.

"Alright fine come here, I’ll teach you." I placed the guitar at the side so he could sit in my lap. He did so and grab the guitar.

"Im ready." he sang. I giggled at how cute he was being. I placed his left hand at the neck, positioning his fingers at the strings to form chords and helping him strum at his right.

"Ok this is ’A’"

"cool."
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"Oh hey! Look who finally decided to get up" Jenna smiled at me when she saw me passing by her room, her door was open. I went closer, leaning on the door frame and saw Jaime, Tony, Jack, Alex and Austin.

"Hey guys." I smiled at them. They all smiled and mutter their Hellos.

"Where are you going?" Jenna asked.

"For a jog."

"at 12:00 in the afternoon?" Alex asked with an amuse face.

"uhh yeah. I guess."

"Oh c’mon man, join us. Lets play video games. You’ve been totally AWOL for a week." Austin said. I wanted to come hang with them but I dont know I just feel like I need a walk and some time to collect my thoughts.

"yeah where have you been Vic?" Jack asked.

"I hang out with my brother and my bestfriend last week" I smiled at the thought.

"trip down memory lane." Jenna clarified.

"Oh well thats good. how much do you know now?" Alex asked.

"not enough" I frowned.

" Well how’s about inviting them over, so we could meet them?" Jaime smiled widely.

"Sure, I’ll call Mike" I said they all nodded.

"but Im still taking a jog though, I’ll be back soon" I said they just chuckled.

I went outside the door and started to walk, letting my feet drag me wherever.
I dont even know. I dont even know what to think anymore. I feel like I may have fallen for Kellin and I know that he’s my best friend and we just met again like a week ago. Hell, I dont even know much about him but all I know is that when Im with him I feel like there’s really something more between us like more than friends or something like that, the way he would look at me. I guess Im in love with him; if thats the appropriate word for it, too soon I know, but I can explain, ever since I woke up from that stupid coma I’ve been having dreams about him, up until now Im still having those crazy dreams about him which is weird because Im not really sure why but I also cant deny the fact that I kinda happen to like dreaming about him especially when the dreams are sweet and nice and even before we met in person I’ve started to like him because of those stupid dreams.

At first I taught it was all real but no it really was all just a dream so now I have this crazy conclusion, maybe those dreams are about the future or something. Gosh what are you thinking Vic. Why am I so stupid? Ugh. I dont even know, he just makes me feel all warm and happy inside, I find it amazing how he could make me feel like this for him already in such a short amount of time. I know its wrong cause his my friend and we’re both guys and all, but fuck it, I just want him to be mine. I wanna be the one to make him happy, cheer him up when he’s sad, be the one that pops up into his mind first thing when he wakes up. Fuck. I love him. I love him so much already. So now this whole thing got me wondering am I gay? I dont know but this is definitely the type of questions that I shouldnt be asking them. I dont want them to judge me if ever they wouldnt accept that. If ever I would be. I dont know what or how I should feel all I know is I just have to sort all of this feelings out first before I do anything stupid. I stop walking to familiarize myself on the surroundings and well, because Im tired. I look around and notice Im on the park, and oh look, if it isnt the devil himself.

Kellin.

Sitting lazily at the swing set swaying it back and forth slowly. Looking at the ground, he seemed like he was in deep thought. Hmm I wonder what he’s thinking about?.. I smiled and started making my way over to him.

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Kellin’s POV

Why do I feel like this? Why do I feel like Im about to cry again? I should be happy now right? I should be smiling not crying. I sniffed and wipe the tears that were threathening to fall from my face. Ugh. Stop being such a girl Kellin. Vic is here, he’s finally here. He’s alive. I could finally talk to him again or even just be in his presence, but why do I feel like shit?. I miss him, that’s why. I miss him so much and I miss us. I cant help but think if we will ever be the same again.

"a penny for your thoughts" I heard Vic’s voice behind me. I look up, He went to the side and took a seat on the empty swing next to me.

"Vic." he smiled looking at me.

"hmm. You seem like youre in deep thought, what were you thinking about?"

"oh. Uhmm.. its nothing."

"really? Well it doesnt seem like its nothing." he gave me a concern look. I stopped swaying the swing and sighed, looking over those brown eyes of his. Look at him, looking all innocent and with out a care, flashing me that genuine.smile of his, its like he doesnt even have a clue about anything huh?. Dammit! I miss him. I miss him so much. He’s there sitting beside me but I still miss him even more.

"Kells are you crying?" he said reaching up to wipe a tear on my face. Why is he always acting all sweet on me? I know he’s just being friendly and all cause that’s what I am to him now, a friend, nothing more; but every time he does that I feel butterflies in my stomach flutter around.

"Im fine." I said sniffing.

And then there was silence. I look over at him, he was just staring at the ground, almost like he was waiting for it to open up, he looks like he was thinking something.

"Kellin?" he called out still looking down. He started swinging back and forth slowly.

"hmm?"

"why are you so sad all the time?" he asked.

why AM I so sad? Hmm because, I dont know, I want you to look at me the same way you did when we were inlove. Should I say that? Probably not. If I dont want to scare him off.

"its ok if you dont want to tell me, I just want you to know that, I may not remember much but I think your special to me, I could feel it; and I dont want to see you sad because well, you’re kinda making me feel all sad" he finally looked up to meet my stare and pouted but soon smiled me that sweet smile of his.

he said I was special. That’s a good sign right? I soon found myself smiling back at him, probably looking like an idiot.

"But I still think you should’nt keep all your feelings inside. It’ll make you feel better. You know?" I just nodded. He stood up to go walk in front of me. He then reached his hand out, I took it and he pulled me up and hugged me tightly.

"I just think you needed a hug." he said grinning at me when he pulled away.

"feeling better now?" he asked. I nodded.

"Thanks"

"Anytime. Well I need to get back now. Maybe you and Mike could come over later? I could introduce you guys to some new friends of mine?"

"sure I’ll tell Mike."

"Ok cool. I’ll see you." and with that he started walking away.

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