Wonderless

"..Oh and there’s also that time when we went to a party and we got so so wasted, police showed up and Kellin had to go pick us up it was just messed up. It was fun though. Oh and one time Ma and Pa.." I tuned out of what Mike was telling me.

It sounds fun though the stories he was telling; I also noticed that back then, wherever I go there was Kellin, I cant help but smile to that, almost like we were inseparable back then, no wonder I feel a slight crush for him, but yeah Im not gonna tell him that, not yet atleast; and I wanted to know more but I dont know my head kinda hurts. I actually get snippets of the stories he was telling me before and Im pretty confident that if this keeps up I might get my memory back in a months time. I want this to work and I’ve been trying so hard.We’ve been doing this in about a week now and the progress seems to be doing fine.

"Mom and Dad. Shit!" Mike bolted causing me to tune back in reality.

"what? What about?" I said in confusion.

"They might Kill me!" he exclaimed.

"I forgot to tell them you’re here with us. Its been rough for them and I dont know I think you need to talk to them I’ll skype them right now." he added.

"Wait Mike. I dont know what to tell them" I said scratching the back of my head awkwardly. he gave me a reassuring smile before saying,
"Bro. You dont need to tell them anything. They’ll be fine with just your presence. They miss you so much you know? and oh dont go all crazy shit like you did to Kellin and I okay?" he said mockingly at the last part.

"I told you I just freaked out." I said punching his shoulders playfully.

"whatever you say Vic"

"Yeah yeah just call ma and pa" I waved him off. He took out his phone and started calling.

"Ma... Yeah..Im fine. Ma.. Mhmm" I chuckled at Mike he seemed like a Mama’s boy.

"yeah.. So the reason I called is because I wanted to skype with you and pa... Well Vic is here and....No ma Im not high" he rolled his eyes. I just chuckled.

"Ok.. Love you too Ma. Bye" Mike let out a sigh.
"So that went well"

he grabbed his laptop on the bedside table and started typing.

"Ma, Pa" Mike greeted with a huge grin on his face.

"mijo, we miss you so much and Michael if this is some sick twisted joke of yours..." I hear a soft voice of a lady spoke, Im guessing, ma

"Its not Ma trust me."

"So where’s your brother?" Pa spoke.

"oh yeah, Vic come here, come meet our ma and pa" Mike smiled and gestured for me to come over to the screen and so I did. I notice they look not so different from what I’ve seen them in pictures, Mike is right, they were happy to see me, they then smiled at me and I almost instantly felt the awkwardness drift away.

"mijo? is that really you?!" pa asked. I nodded.

"I cant believe it, Vic, my baby, you’re back.. y-youre alive. we miss you"

"I miss you too ma, pa.. and Its good to be back" I smiled, I cant ignore this warm feeling inside of me. its true I had miss them so much, I didnt even realized. I love them. Even though we’ve only been talking for not even an hour, I feel so close to them already.

"See I told you, they miss you" Mike nudge my shoulders, I nodded giving him a small smile. We had talked for almost an hour now, mostly them asking me about how Ive been doing.

"So how are things with you and Kellin doing?" pa asked.

"Fine, I guess" uhmm I dont know I think asking about how me an Kellin are doing is a bit random but I dont know maybe because we’re just really close back then? yeah that might be it.

"Im sure he’s happy you guys are back together again, I mean he was really devastated back then, with out you" Ma said. Okay now Im confuse, back together again? what did she mean by that?

"back together again?" they looked at me a bit confused. I was confuse myself too so I look over at Mike.

"Oh uhmm. I totally forgot, Vic has amnesia." Mike turned to mom and dad.

"Oh dear, thats bad." Ma and pa looked a bit sad. "but does he uhh.. "

"uhhmm.. Vic has a girlfriend" Mike said kinda awkwardly interrupting Ma.

"ohh. well.. thats fine.. uhm.. soo why dont you go tell me about her some time.. I would love to see her when we come visit you boys next week." Ma said hesitantly but smiled after. I smiled cause of the thought of my parents coming over.

"We miss you boys so much alright we have to go now. Uhmm we’ll see you soon alright. Take care boys" pa said. Mike and I said our good byes and then we turn the laptop off placing it back to the table.

"So Mike uhmm.. What was that all about?.. You know with the Kellin thing. What do I dont know about?" I couldnt help it. I couldnt even stop thinking about what happened earlier. I just think Im missing out on something like what do I not know about Kellin?

"Ohh.. Uhmm.. Why dont you go ask Kellin himself.. "

"uhmm Ok. I’ll uh.. just go talk to him then" he nodded and I stood up and made my way to Kellin’s room. l knocked twice and open the door. He was just laying there on the bed staring up on the ceiling. I let out a deep sigh..
"Damn dude, dont you ever know how to smile?" He look over to me and sat upright.

"Oh, Hey" He smiled weakly. I went over and sat next to him on the bed.

"So what brings you here?"

"Well I uhh.. I need to ask you something" I looked down on his hands which rested on his lap and noticed something, something that shouldnt belong there. On his left arm there were.....Cuts. Why does he have them? I dont even know but I dont like it there. I frowned at the sight of it. I notice some of the cuts were still healing, some are now scars. How come I’ve never noticed them before?

"Vic" he called out. I look up to face him.

"Are you Okay? You kinda zoned out.. Uhmm.. Anyway, I said what did you wanted to ask?"

"Oh uhh.." I couldnt help it. I grab his left arm lightly, he flinch at the sudden movement.

"Since when did this happened?" I reffered to his cuts. His eyes widened and blinked a few times

"Uhmm.." he panicked and looked like he was thinking on what he’d say next.

"it was a long long time ago"

"Kells, you sure? they look new" I frowned. Such a beautiful guy like him shouldnt be doing this.

"Im sorry. You’re probably disgusted right now." he looked down and tried to pull his arm away, I didnt let him though, Instead I place kisses on each and everyone of them. He flinch at the sudden movement but soon relaxed. I should’ve been there to stop this, I should’ve been a good friend.

"Im really sorry you had to deal with this.... I shouldve been there.. But Im here now... and Im not gonna let you do this again alright? " I said in between kisses.
"promise me?"

"I-I promise" I pulled him into a hug. I didnt know he was that broken but I need to help him out, I need to make up for all the times that I wasnt there. I’ll make it my goal to make him happy again.
"Im sorry"

"ssh." I rubbed his back to comfort him.

"So what did you wanted to ask me?" he said as we pulled away from the hug.

"Oh yeah, I uhh talked to Ma and Pa" he nodded for me to continue

"And I dont know they said something about, well, us ;and I dont know I feel like there’s something you and Mike are not telling me..Well is there?" he stiffened for a moment but then relaxed

"Oh. Well.. I dont want to tell you right now." he said kinda frowned.

"You need to remember, but no worries, I’ll help you out okay?" he smiled. I nodded. Im still curious though.

"not even a hint?" I smiled. He leaned into me and gave me a quick peck on the lips.

"That’s your hint." I didnt quite get it though but damn I like that hint.

"Another hint?" I smiled. He shook his head no. Aww.

"I cant. Cause you’ll get it."

"Fine." I pouted.

"Aww. Dont be like that. I said I’ll help you out. Alright?" he held my hand and intertwined it with his and from that moment I swear I’ve never been so so desperate to get my memory back. I need to know, I need it now.

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