After a 2 weeks...

The long day drive here in San Diego was pretty tiring.

Mike and I decided to share an apartment so that we wouldnt have to feel lonely considering the fact that we just move here and we dont really know anybody here in SD plus we dont really have jobs so paying the rent will be a bit difficult if your all by yourself.
Mike is in his room right now probably asleep. I, on the other hand is unpacking my stuff here in my room. I want this to be done early before I sleep and plus it’ll take my mind off things so that I wont have to feel over the edge again. Ive been staying clean too I just dont want a repeat of what happened last time cause now I feel.a bit better like I dont even know why I tried to end it all
in the first place. My phone buzzed and I saw message from Jesse.

’Hey so how’s the drive?’ - Jesse

’pretty tiring. I miss you guys already. ’ - I replied

’aww. We miss you too man. Alright get some rest :)’ -Jesse.

I really do miss them all already, maybe I should go make friends with some of my neighbors or something so that I could have friends here too. Im done packing so I went to go shower first before sleeping.

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Next day....

"Keelliiinn, Keelliiinn, Keelliiinn" IMike yelled while shaking me. Ugh.

"what is it Mike?" I said irritated.

"get up. I wanna go to the mall." he said.

I slightly opened my eyes to look at him before closing it back again

"Im trying to sleep Mike." I said groggily

"C’mon man! You’ve been asleep the whole day" really? Doesnt seem like it.

"yeah. Well Im still tired."

"ugh. Better get out before I pour water on ya" he taunted. I guess I dont have much choice here then...

"alright, alright Im up" I got up and glared at him.

"go get ready" he giggled and skip happily out of my room. I laughed at how childish he acted.

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"Ugh Mike can I just go. Call me when you’re done.." I whined. Mike rolled his eyes. We’ve been on the mall for about 3 hours, I think, and Mike is such a girl for clothing, He said something about looking good for the ladies. I just laughed I didnt think he would actually be serious about it but, guess Im wrong.

"Oh c’mon Kell. I need your opinion on this."

"yeah yeah. Just hurry up." he nodded and went to go eye on some more clothes. I started walking as fast as I can so that I could escape Mike before he realizes I left.

I went to go to the restroom first cause I feel the need to take a leak. I went inside the cubicle, Im not really comfortable peeing on the urinal outside even though nobody’s in here. As I am doing my bussiness I heard two people come in they were chuckling and Im pretty sure I recognize one of the laughs, how could I ever forget his cute laugh that I love so much? but then again, I think Im going insane here.

"So you up for a movie later?" some guy asked.

"Im all in." even though the response of this guy was short his raspy voice still got stuck on my head. I recognize this voice, It’s Vic’s. Shut up Kellin. I told myself. Ive been over this. Stop going crazy all over again. The two strangers just talked and I know its bad but I found myself listening to their conversation.

"woaah is their a hose in there?!" the stranger ask while knocking at my door lightly. They both laugh. I felt a bit embarass I didnt even realize I was peeing so badly. I guess I just got caught up in listening to their voices.

"Are you okay there buddy?" this familiar angelic voice ask me. I just froze., that voice just sound so alike with Vic’s or maybe I just miss him too much.

"uuhh-- I- Im fine" I excused.

"Sure you are." the other guy said and I heard the door open and close again indicating that they left. I cant help but notice this sinking feeling inside of me.

I went out of the cubicle and washed my hands I took a second to look at my reflection in the mirror infront. Tears we’re already escaping from my eyes. I cant believe this I tried, I really did I tried to distract myself, hell I even left town to try and not think about Vic too much but that guy with that voice just ruined it all. No matter how much I try I keep stumbling back down, maybe the world doesnt want me to forget about Vic but why? I cant keep living like this just let me forget about you already Vic.

I’ groaned gripping some of my hair before leaving the restroom. Hhmm. So what to do now? Obviously my mood just got killed and I found myself thinking about Vic. I want so badly to cut right now but I cant. I decided to just walk and glance at various kiosk shops from time to time but right now I’m walking with my head down cause I dont want people looking at me weird if a tear would fall from my eye.

Some guy bumped into me and spilled his hot coffee all over my chest down to my stomach.

"ouch" I hissed in pain. God that probably burned my skin.

"Oh my gosh. Im so sorry. I wasnt looking. Fuck!. Here let me help you with that" I recognized the voice to be a guy. I still kept my head down as I didnt want this stranger to see me cry. He had tissues in hand and wipe them in my coffee-spilled clothes.

"Its ok. Really." I said weakly. Its partly my fault for not looking at where I was going but I feel shit right now so I guess he could take the blame for now.

"I practically burned you there. Im really sorry. Really really really sorry" he said while still wiping the stain off of my shirt.

Alright I feel bad for him now so I decided to take some of the blame. I place my hands on his to stop him from wiping and it worked but its really weird, I felt goosebumps its like I’ve felt that hand a million times before and I just want to look up to see who this mystery dude is, and so I did but what I saw next made my heart fell. He was just staring at me wide-eyed confuse and surprised

"Vic?"

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