I think I'm in love with you..

Vic's P.O.V.

Kellin was lying next to me & I smiled. We were both in a locker room. We were on the ground & no one else was there. I remember we always sneak in here so that we could escape the world, we'd go in the showers & talk for hours & take things out of other boy's lockers. Kellin rolled over on his side & faced me.

"Vicky boo...can I ask you something?" Kellin asked.

"Yea, kellybear. Tell me anything." I said back.

"What's going to happen to us when we tell people about us...? Do you think we'll fall apart..or-" I cut him off.

"No, baby. We never will. I promise. You're mine & I'm yours." I whispered in his ear & smiled. He kissed me & my stomach filled with butterflies. I love the taste of his lips. This guy is everything I ever wanted.

"Vic, I want to sing something to you...I wrote it myself....for you....I'm just a little shy." He whispered back pulling away from the kiss.

"Sing it to me baby, I won't judge you." I said. Then he began to sing.



"Stay for tonight
If you want to
I can show you
What my dreams are made of,
as I'm dreaming of your face
I've been away for a long time
Such a long time
And I miss you there
I can't imagine being anywhere else
I can't imagine being anywhere else but here


How the hell did you ever pick me?
Honestly, I could sing you a song
But I don't think words can express your beauty
It's singing to me
How the hell did we end up like this?
You bring out the beast in me
I fell in love from the moment we kissed
Since then we've been history


They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me


It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are
What my dreams are made of
Can't fall asleep, can't fall asleep
I lay in my bed awake, in my bed awake at night
As I dream of you
I'll fall in love, you'll fall in love
It could mean everything, everything to me
I can't imagine being anywhere else


They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me


The way that we are
Is the reason I stay
As long as you're here with me
I know we'll be OK


They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need
Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me


They say that love is forever
Your forever is all that I need
Please stay as long as you need


Can't promise that things won't be broken
But I swear that I will never leave
Please stay forever with me."

I was crying by now, this is the most amazing thing anyone has done for me. I felt myself fall into his arms & he kissed me as passionate as ever. But what I was about to do was breaking my heart....I'm leaving him. I need to...I know if I don't, when we tell everyone, we'll both get shit from it everyday. I don't want to ruin his life. It happened at my old school & I can't let it happen to me again. Or to him. I love him too much. This is the best for him, both of us. I need to do it now.

"Kells..." I spoke, my voice cracked a bit as I started to cry even more...

"Vicky, what's wrong, love?" He wiped away my tears & hugged me. I pulled away.

"I-I can't be with you anymore..." I whispered it to him, turning my head don to the floor.

"Vi-vick, baby...what do you mean?" Kellin started to cry & I just couldn't see him this way. But staying would hurt him more.


"I can't stay with you Kellin! Once we come out & tell everyone, they'll just give us hate & we'll both be bullied! You too! I don't want that for you! I went through it in my old school & I don't want it to happen to someone I'm in love with!" Thats what I wish I said...but instead I said,

"I love you Kellin, I need to leave before you get hurt.."

Kellin's eyes were filled with so much pain. My heart fell to my stomach & I felt like I was making the worst decision of my life.

"You-you said...you love me?" Kellin got closer to me..I wanted to just pretend like I never said that, but I couldn't go back now. "I can't live without you..."

"Yes you can, & you will, I'm sorry...Kellin, I love you. Goodbye." I walked out of the locker room, I was crying more than I ever had in my entire life. I'm leaving my first love...I hate this so much. I looked back & saw kelling slide down to the floor & bury his face into the palms of his hands.





I woke up & realized I was in a hospital bed. The nurse explained what happened & said someone wanted to see me. Did I really just dream about the night I left Kellin....my heart feels like it's been ripped out of it's chest just like that night. I was snapped out of my thoughts when Jaime walked in.

"Jaime." I smiled up at him, still trying to get my mind off what I just dreamed about.

"Baby, are you okay, Vic?" Jaime asked, holding my hand.

"Yea, baby. I'm fine. I got two broken ribs but other than that, I'm great." I tried not to laugh, & just smiled.

"Thank god, Vic. I'm not sure if I could live without you." Those last words bought me back to when Kellin said he couldn't live without me...but I quickly shook away the thought as Jaime kissed me. I was surprised, but kissed him back. I fell asleep a few minutes later. I wanted to go back to when I was happy. Dreams are always better anyway.


I woke up to Kellin shaking me lightly.


"Vic, oh my god, are you okay?" Kellin asked, lightly shaking Vic. I looked up at him.

"Kells, Hey I'm fine. What are you doing here?" I smiled at him.

"I, well...the big day is here. Hopefully if the surgery goes well, I'll be 'no cancer Kellin'. " Kellin smiled at me. I love his smile.

"As long as you're here with me," Kellin grabbed my hand & I held it tight.

"I know I'll be okay." I whispered back remembering..that's from the song he wrote me...from that night...He smiled at me, but quickly frowned. I guess he remembered too. Kellin was getting up to go towards the nurses calling him.

"Good luck, Kells. I'll see you when you're out." I yelled.

"I'll see you too. Love you." Kellin yelled back. I love you too...I just smiled & waved. Then he was out the door.

"Jaime..I think I'm feeling better" I smiled at Jaime, motioning him to come it with me. Then I kissed him on his cheek.

"I'm glad you are, Vic." Jaime said, kissing me back.

Notes

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