Guitars and Love

Ashley~
Its been a week since we got home from warped tour. It actually nice to just lay in my bed. I haven't talked to anyone, as soon as we got in town, i head to my apartment and haven't left. My phone is still in my purse, i haven't took it out since we've got back. I havent eaten much either, i just didnt want anything. I got out of bed and went into the shower, the water felt so nice against my skin. I got out and sliped on my baggy sweats and put on a tank top. I brushed my hair and then put it up in a messy bun. Maybe i should stop be antisocial. I walked into the living room and grabbed my phone from my purse. I took a seat on the couch and turned on my phone. Holy cow! I had nearly a 100 text messages and about 50 voice mails. I skimmed through my texts ans since that most were from Mike. None from Tony, why am i not surprised. I saw a few but i mostly seen besides Mike was from Vic, Jaime, Jake, Nat, Roger, and Alex. All there messages were pretty much the same, asking if i was okay or why am i not answering. Just as i was about to call Mike, there was a knock on my door. I opened the door to see Mike standing there, a smile grew on my face.
"Your alive!" He yelled giving me a huge hug.
"Nice to see you too Mikey"
"Im mad at you" He said walking through the door.
"Why?" I asked closing the door and following him to the couch.
"You havent answered me in a week! I was worried sick!" he said pushing me a little.
I smiled and pushed him back "Dont get all but hurt, i havnt talked to anyone, and i was about to call you actually" I said showing him my phone with his number dialed in.
"I keep my promise that day Ashley, you just didnt answer, and i know needed me" He said looking at me with a concern look.
"I know, i know, and i did need you, i just... I dont know, i didnt feel like talking" I said looking down at my hands.
"Well, im here now, and im not leaving" He said wrapping both his hands on my right arm.
I laughed "Okay"
There was another knock at my door. I looked at Mike and he shrugged at me. I got up and opened the door and saw Alex standing there.
"Alex?" I said holding the door open.
"Nice to know your okay" He said and turned to walk away.
"Alex, please, come inside"
He hesitated and then walked through my door.
"Hey man" Mike said to him as he took a seat at the couch.
I closed the door and took a seat next to them.
"I thought you were avoiding me, since its my fault that you guys broke up" Alex said looking at me with sorrow eyes.
"No, i dont blame you Alex, and i wasnt avoiding you i just keep my phone off this whole week, I havent talked to anyone" I said looking at my phone that was on the coffee table.
"I thought the same thing" Mike said.
"I still feel like its my fault" Alex said.
"Dont, okay, i just want to forget about that."
Alex nodded.
"Ash can i use your bathroom?" Mike said standing up.
"no" I said sarcastically.
He laughed "Okay ill just go here" He said starting to unbuttoned his pants.
I got up quick, "Mike! I was kidding!" I said pushing him in the direction of the bathroom.
Alex sat there laughing, wow i haven't seen a smile on his face since the whole thing started.
"Want some tea?" I asked looking down at Alex.
"um yeah"
I went into my kitchen and pulled out two cups a filled them with ice. I grabbed the tea from the fridge and poured it into the cups. I returned into the living room and handed Alex a cup and set the other on the table.
"Ashley?" He said putting the cup down on the table.
"Yeah?"
"Have you eaten? You look a whole lot skinnier from when i last seen you and a little pale."
I took a minute before i said "I just haven't been hungry lately"
He shook his head "You need to eat"
Once again there was a knock at my door. I got up and opened it. Tony was standing there, unsure of himself. I guess he seen Alex sitting there because he was starting to walk away.
"Tony!" Mike yelled from behind me.
He turned around and stood there for a minute before speaking "Ash, can we talk?"
Mike patted me on the back and went to seat with Alex. I walked outside and closed the door behind me.
I crossed my arms, "Why are you here?" I said trying not to sound rude.
"I came to apologize about how i was acting last week"
I didnt say anything, i just looked at him waiting for him to continue.
"Im sorry, im so soryy, I dont know what i was thinking Ash, I understand now why you didnt tell me. I shouldnt have overreacted. It wassnt your fault. I shouldnt have thrown you out of the bus the way did. I shouldnt have yelled at you the way i did. And Alex, i.. shouldnt have hit him. We've been friends far too long and i know he wouldnt have done that if he was sober. I just, i didnt think at all that day, i said what ever and did whatever. Ashley, i get it if you dont ever want to talk to me. I wanted to call you so many times but i just couldnt go this over the phone so i thought coming to see you would be better. And then i came here and saw you and then i saw Alex i just..."
"Tony.. theres nothing going on between me and Alex, there never was, your the one ive always wanted. I havent talked to anyone this week, thats why hes here. Hes checking on me, why because he hates himself for getting drunk and doing what he did. That day you saw me hugging him, i was forgiving him for acting the way he was. I was mad at first, but i know he wouldnt have done that sober. It just hurts me so much that you wouldn't even listen to me" I said looking at him.
He came closer to me but i put my arm out putting a distance between us, and shook my head.
"Its going to take time, okay" I said to him.
He nodded and then looked at me for awhile.
"Have you been eating?" he said looking from head to toe.
"I just haven't been hungry"
"Ashley, please dont do this"
"Do what?"
"Starve yourself over this, you like really pale and really skinny"
"Ill be fine okay"
He stood quiet for a few minutes and then nodded, and asked "Can i talk to Alex?"
I went inside the house.
"Ash you alright?" Alex said getting up from his seat.
"Yeah, he wants to talk to you"
He stood still for a moment and then nodded and walked out the door.
I took a seat next to Mike and put my head against his shoulder. He put his head on top of mine.
"did he apologize?"
"Yeah, i told him that its going to take time"
"I really want you guys to make up, and hes being hating on himself since then, Ash, he really does love you"
"i want to make up too, you dont know how bad i just wanted to kiss him and tell that everything's okay, when its not, I really do love him, just a little more time is what i need"
Mike grabbed my hands and held them tight.
"Okay, now lets get you something to eat" he said getting up and heading to the kitchen.
I followed him and watched him search the cabinets.
"Dont you go shopping?" He said as he looked in the fridge.
"I do, just not this week"
Then Alex walked into the kitchen.
"What happen?" I asked.
"He apologized and i did too, and we decided to forget everythings thats happened"
"Is he still outside?" I asked looking toward the door.
"No, he left"
"Okay! Im just going to have to take you somewhere to eat, go get ready" Mike said pushing me to my room.
"Whats wrong with what im wearing" I said looking at both Mike and Alex.
They glanced at each other and both went into my closet. I sat on my bed and watched as the talked about what they wanted me to wear. They came out with a black n white plaid shirt and shorts. They knew what they were doing. Mike pushed me into the bathroom and Alex handed me the clothes and shut the door. I got dress real quick and did my hair. And no makeup.
<----- (Her look)
I looked in mirror, i actually felt pretty. I opened the door and they started clapping.
" Finally!" They both said and got up off the bed.
They dragged me out of the house and took me to taco bell. I know i said i was going to try the whole vegetarian thing, and i was doing good too, i really just needed a taco.

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