the fear in my heart is enough to make me cold

(Liv's POV)

I woke up fairly refreshed, i looked at the clock and OH SHIT! How the hell is it 1:45 in the afternoon i went to sleep at like 9:30? Whatever The guys weren't playing till' 5 anyway. I walked to the bathroom and cringed at the sight of my reflection, smudged eyeliner, puffy eyes, dry lips, major bedhead the whole nine yards. I turned on the shower, stripped my clothes, and hopped in, I was about to get out when I realized that I had forgot to grab a towel

"VICCCC!".......I waited a minute then called out again "MIKEEE!" still no answer, maybe they're still asleep? no, all they're bunks were open. Ugh, whatever I'll just make a naked dash for it,

I opened the door, looked around to make sure the coast was clear and sprinted towards the back lounge when all of a sudden BAM! i banged into.....Austin?

"OH MY GOD!" Was all I could say cause I was naked.....on the floor....in front of Austin fucking Carlile

"I AM SO SORRY OH MY GOD I JUST I'M GONNA GO I'LL BYE" he stammered

"Wait no! get me a towel!" he looked confused

"Top shelf to the right c'mon bruh towel please!" He reached up, threw me a towel, and ran his hand through his hair

"What are you even doing here?" I said as i tried to stand up "FUCK!" I screamed as i fell down again in pain

"Are you okay?" he said worried
"Yeah I just, I think I twisted my ankle when I fell but I'm fine I think."
"Are you sure? I could get your brothers if you need"
"I'm fine, I promise"
"Oh? stand up and walk then" he said now smirking
"Fine..." I braced myself for the pain knowing that I definitely could not walk right now
I stepped on the ground and immediately a sharp shooting pain shot up my entire leg "Motherfucker!" I shouted, "What are you laughing at?" I asked Austin who was nearly dying
"Aw, you tried to be so tough, I'll go get your brother" "yeah yeah yeah, fucker" Austin ventured out to go grab Vic and Mike from wherever they were and I came to the realization that i was sitting in the middle of the floor..in a towel...unable to walk with wet dripping hair, this should be fun to explain.
"Liv! where are you?" I heard Vic yelling from the front of the bus
"Over here, by he back lounge" He could've just walked to the back instead of calling for me, it's not like this bus is a mansion
"Hey jellybean, what happened?" Mike asked
"And why are you sitting in a puddle on the floor in a towel?" Vic asked suspiciously
"hehe, funny story for another time, but I fell and twisted my ankle, it's kinda hard to walk on it."
"Alright, we can take you to the urgent care clinic"
"No, we won't be out in time, you guys have to play soon!" I couldn't let them cancel their first show
"Jellybean we've got 3 and a half hours left it couldn't possibly take that long...they don't call it urgent care for nothing y'know." Mike was right I guess but I hate doctor's offices, they give me the creeps.
"Ok, fine, but if they take too long we're leaving!"
"Whatever you say Sergeant Olivia!"

The whole ride to the clinic I was silently freaking out, The whole idea of having to go to a doctor, have them touch you, and having to wear a stupid hospital gown even if the thing you're getting checked out is no where in the vicinity of the area left exposed by the robe scares me.

We arrived at the clinic in about 10 minutes. Mike went to check me in which required a shit ton of paper work so me and Vic were just sitting talking for a little bit, which was nice because we hardly ever talked anymore. I'm not sure why, but lately it just seemed like he wanted nothing to do with me.

"So, why were you sitting in a puddle in a towel in the middle of out bus?"
"Well, I went to take a shower and I forgot a towel and no one was on the bus so i figured i could make a naked dash for it and grab one from the back lounge but I kinda ran into Austin...naked...and fell."
He looked at me for a couple seconds and then laughed louder than I've heard him laugh in a long time
"Olivia Fuentes that has to be the greatest thing that has ever come out of your little Mexican mouth oh my god!"
"Ha ha ha very funny, i can't believe Austin saw me naked!"
"Austin saw you what?!" Mike shouted from behind Vic
me and Vic just looked at each other and burst out laughing, Mike however was not a very happy camper.

"Olivia Fuentes?" A nurse called from a back hallway
"That's me" i responded, voice shaking a bit
"You can follow me this way to room 108"
"Can they come with me?" I asked hopeful
"I'm sorry dear, we usually only let parents come ba-"
"please" i said trying to sound as desperate as possible
"Okay, i guess I can make an exception."

The three of us followed her back into the room and she took my height and weight
"you are 5 feet exact and you weight 92 pounds"
I saw Vic and Mike's eyes widen at the number but they didn't say anything.
"You're weight is very low dear, are you eating okay? getting enough fiber and such?"
"yes ma'am"
"ok, well you can follow me to this room over here, we're going to get an X-ray of your foot and make sure everything is where it's supposed to be"

After 20 minutes of the lady painfully moving my foot around to get pictures of it and me squirming around they finally discovered that I had fractured my foot in 3 places and would have to wear a boot for at least 3 weeks.

I got my boot, got the crutches and the three of us made our way back to the venue. I decided to text Aiden and tell him about all of my unfortunate events but I didn't get an answer. He must be out with Hannah (his girlfriend) or something.

We finally made it back to the bus and all the guys forced me to stay in bed all day because they couldn't have clumsy little Liv breaking her head. I took the time to catch up on local news or whatever from home but as I was scrolling through i saw the words that I never wanted to see in my entire life

"Local boy commits suicide: The family of Aiden Blake mourns during this tragic time"

'"oh my god" I whisper "no no no no no' I call his phone and get no response "Come on Aiden pick up, please pick up please" still no answer "AIDEN PICK UP THE FUCKING PHONE!" I half scream half sob

"Liv what's going on what's wrong?!" The guys come running back but i don't pay them any attention

"PICK UP THE FUCKING PHONE PLEASE I CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU ANSWER THE PHONE YOU PROMISED ME, YOU PROMISED!" I scream at the top of my lungs and sink to the floor, sobbing, Mike and Vic sit down and hug me, Vic takes the phone from my hands and reads the headline, then shows it to Mike, They both sigh and we all just sit there. Me shaking in their arms, for a very long time.

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