Without You There Is No Me

Some things happen to us for a reason. Others resemble a bulldozer, colliding with our lives and our loves and passions until there's little else left. They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I disagree. What doesn't kill you scars you for always. We're left with ugly battle wounds that our narrow minded neighbours and peers and mail men judge us for.
After what happened it was impossible to forget. I nearly died. Even worse, he nearly died with me. It may just be what I can do but I am a firm believer in this life not being the end of us. If he had died I don't think that I could handle the guilt. Vic would have happily died for me, that's what scares me I think.
Now I have so many questions raised that won't leave me alone. How could I possibly do that? I banished that thing. It made me feel powerful. Maybe I have some power inside me. That's why the bad people wanted me dead. Maybe I really am special, even for one of The Haunted. Inside me there is such a longing to know. I want to save people. I want to help The Haunted. I could save lives. I feel like all the answers I'm looking for will become clear if I could just visit my past self. If I could go back. There must still be a connection with myself and England of some sort.
The questions don't have a sense of time or place. I'm sitting in English class and can't stop them. Jess nudged me and I looked around. Our teacher was at the front of the class glaring at me.
"Sorry." I mumbled.
"Your homework." she urged.
"My homework?" I echoed.
"Yes. Everyone is handing in their projects before Easter Break. Unless they want to spend it with me."
"Oh, well-"
"She left it at my house." Vic suddenly called.
"What?" the woman turned to him.
"We were at my house last night and she forgot to pick it up before we went to school," Vic explained. Someone at the front wolf whistled and I put my head down. "It's really good." Vic told her.
"Tomorrow by the latest." she snapped before she walked to her desk. I looked at Vic gratefully and he smiled widely back at me.
The bell sounded and everyone started to pack away. I stood up and looked to my side to see Vic already there. I smiled warmly and he took my hand. We followed Jess outside of class and started on our way out of school. I saw Mike waiting for us with Jaime and Tony.
"Thanks for saving me." I said to Vic.
"Wouldn't be the first time." he replied, a slight smile on his face.
"Funny." I rolled my eyes.
We reached the others. I went to follow them to the car park but had to stop. I felt dizzy. It wasn't a dizziness you can ignore. I felt like I was going to pass out. Vic's hand rested on the small of my back and I breathed deeply.
"Han'?" Jaime asked. Then as quickly as it came it disappeared.
"Are you okay?" Tony frowned.
"Sorry, I went really dizzy for a second."
"Dizzy like you need a aspirin. Or dizzy like you need some holy water?" Mike asked.
"Holy water." I frowned.
"Do we need to take it to HQ?" Jess asked.
"We need to stop calling it that. We're not fucking Buffy." Mike rolled his eyes.
"I wish I looked like Sarah Michelle Gellar from the Buffy days." I replied.
"You're better." Vic said easily and kissed my cheek.
"If it wasn't for all The Haunted bullshit I'd hit you for being so cute." Mike grumbled.
"Anyway, I don't know. I think we're safe." I told them.
"You coming to mine?" Vic asked.
"Yeah." I smiled.
"I'll see you at home." Jaime told me and took Jess to his car.
"You hanging out?" Mike asked Tony. Tony nodded and we walked to Vic's car. Tony and Mike got in the back seat and I sat in the front with Vic.
"Are you sure you're okay?" he asked anxiously.
"I'm fine." I reassured him.
"You're not." he frowned.
"Drive." I urged.
"Listen to the lady!" Mike said from the backseat and kicked Vic's chair.
"You want to walk?" Vic playfully threatened, but started to drive. "And you're not."
"I don't know. I just want to know things. I have to know things."
"Like what?" he urged.
"It might just be because it's April." I shrugged.
"What's April?" Tony asked.
"It's when I died before." I explained.
"How can we know things though?" Vic asked carefully.
"I think we need to go to England."
"England." Mike echoed.
"Yeah." I nodded.
"Han', I don't know if we can do that." Vic sighed.
"Why not?"
"Because it's thousands of miles away. We'd have to get a plane. Tickets to England are expensive."
"I know but I need to." I tried.
"If anything, only you and I could go."
"We can't let you go on your own." Tony said.
"How would you convince your parents to let you go on a ghost discovery?" Vic asked.
"We could say it's a vacation. Everyone goes on vacation. And we do have Easter Break. That's two weeks." Mike said.
"Are we seriously considering this?" Vic sighed.
"What if someone's trying to get in touch with Han'? That's why she's going dizzy. Maybe they wanted us to come up with this idea." Mike said.
"No, you just want to go on vacation," Vic sighed. "Han' do you feel like you need this?" he asked me seriously.
"I think I do." I said, bitting down on my lip.
"Okay," Vic smiled, like that's all he had to hear. "We need to think things through first." he replied and pulled into his drive.

Notes

Hey! I'm back everyone! This is the first chapter of the new story. What did you think? Why did Hannah feel dizzy? Will they go to England? What will they discover? Any predictions? As always send me your ghost stories! I love them! :)