Over the Ocean through the waves

I woke up at 9am everyone was sleeping and I decided on coffee I was minding my own business till Vic came barging in through the door "Well goodmorning sunsh_" I was cut off by him pinning me to the fridge anger filled his eyes. "Why did you do it? " "Do what?" "You liar you gave Alice a black eye last night" "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING FUENTES" Christiaan said throwing Vic to the couch "You ok?" "Yea but this asshole is accusing me of shit that didn't happen" "What did you say about my sister fuentes" He said turning around he might be younger than Vic but he was much stronger "She fucking hit Alice!" "And when did this happen? " "Last night she told me when I woke up" "So without even questioning her you decided she really did do it and decided to barge in and pin her to the fridge?" "Yes she had reason to do something like that" "Like what" I said trying to control my irritation "Well what happened in the bus" "Why the fuck would I waste my energy on her" "Because you're jealous" "You're kidding right?" "No I'm not I can understand your jealousy because she's perfect" "Perfect being?" "Well there's her personality her love, and she has the best body I've ever laid eyes upon not a scratch on them" That struck a nerve I think he knew "Dude that was low" Willem said rushing to me knowing my tears were falling already "It's why she did it" "You're a fucking prick Fuentes bmth guys were here all night and we sat outside smoking and your bitch walked on by and started bad-mouthing her,she's not the victim she went off to "think" when we went inside Michelle went to bed and I stayed up another hour get your facts straight before you come on here and make a girl cry" Willem said looking Vic straight in the eye "You're lying you all are" Just as he said that Oli walked on the bus seeing me cry he rushed over "What's wrong, are you ok?" "Oli an angel from heaven, please tell us where Michelle was last night" "Are ya stoned or sumthin she was here with us last night don't ya remember?" "Thank you" "Why?" "Vic here came in and pinned her against the fridge and just gave a low blow when it comes to insults," "Should I leave?" "I think Michelle needs a girl day before the show" "Ok see you later be good ok" He said walking off "Michelle I'm.._" "Spare it Vic I know you're not just..just go" He had a look of regret and anger on his face "I'm going back to bed" "Michelle" "No Chris I'm tired" "I love you" he said pulling me into a tight hug "I love you to"

I laid in my bed all day I did my warm up exercises for my voice and had some water and ate something so that I wouldn't pass out on stage "Hellooo San francisco are you guys ready for this!?" Of course the reply was a big cheer "Before we begin I'd like to invite our two 1st American fans who actually recognised us and made me realise we actually matter so I'm looking for Timothy and Derik can anyone help me with this if you see them hoist them in the air so I can identify them!" A few people got lifted but I saw them a few feet away from the stage "There you are come on!!" The crowed helped them out and security hoisted them on stage "Family meet your brothers Timothy and Derik they are our 1st American fans so they mean the world to us now lets fucking party and you two are staying here" The show went well I danced with Derik on a song and the smile on his face was priceless and they were pumping up the crowd as the show went along we were at our last song and I felt dizzy so I stayed center stage leaning on my mic stand with my eyes closed singing a song for my parents when I opened them I saw a lot of tears and people holding onto each other I saw Christiaan looking at me and I opened my arm for him he came running to me as I sang my last note "Guys I'm sorry for making you cry , this song was dedicated to our parents see we lost them in an accident a few years back and thats when music turned me around if you guys need anyone to talk to about this I'll come down after the show and we can talk I promise to talk to each and every one of you ok" I said over the mic,we were the last band to play so it was easy to talk to the kids

I gave autographs and pictures and listened to each story and giving advice where I could Madeleine was holding unto this one girl like her life depended on it tears streaming down her own face Johan was by the looks of it praying with another guy who looked similar to him ,Christiaan was enjoying the female attention as always and Willem was hugging a boy I decided to photos of these moments and post them later there were only 5 people left and after they went Derik and Timothy came up to us, we took photos and I promised Derik I'd visit him on the way back. I looked at the time it was 5am and we had the day off because others were going to play today everyone went inside and I stayed outside to smoke I heard someone walk so i peaked around the bus being careful not to be spotted I saw Alice walking and a car driving off she walked fast and looking everywhere to see that she was alone she had a extremely short dress on and a bag I looked at her as she changed into her pj's outside of the bus which I thought was weird considering it was 5am and she was well.. outside till I saw Jamie come out of the bus and walking around I saw him stretching and looking around with a smile on his face. "Jamie why are you up so early " "You ask me that every morning Alice" "I know its just fun to ask" "I say because it's the only quiet time I have and then you say it's like that for you to before going to bed" "See its like a daily ritual" "One I can go without" "Bye Jamie" she said walking to the bus "Why do I smell Vodka?" " Everyone here drinks Jack probably had some near here" "Maybe" he walked off and I went inside not caring that i was sleeping in my concert clothes


I woke up to a screaming Alice somewhere in our bus " What the fuck are you doing some of us are trying to sleep Alice you don't even live here!" I heard Johan scream "Where is she" "Why am I getting the feeling you're talking about me" I said leaning unto the door frame "YOU" "Me?" I said not really caring till I felt her hand collide with my face making me mad "Bitch what the fuck" "You are a slut stay away from Vic" "When the FUCK was I near him!" "Yesterday he was on your bus I saw him leave" "Yea he was here because you've been spreading lies about me " "Fucking bitch how dare you" I felt her fist collide with my left eye I knew my face was going to be fucked "Bitch get the fuck out of this bus" Johan said pushing her out "VIC GET THIS FUCKING BITCH UNDER CONTROL" I heard him scream I saw her running to his arms and the rest running to our bus "Where is she?!" Mike yelled running into the lounge Tony and Jamie close behind I kept my head down low "Michelle did you really punch her" Jamie asked I couldn't believe that they were on her side and I just lost it I lifted my head hearing them gasp I couldn't care less "You know what I actually thought you would be on my side because of the way YOU SAW her treating me but it looks like I was wrong on who my friends are I should never have made this band then I wouldn't know you and wouldn't have to feel like a worthless shit because of some ass I still love I can't believe you all just get out of my sight I don't want to see you take your so-called friendship somewhere else and leave me to not have my heart ripped out all tour!" I yelled at them I felt the tears fall from my face I saw the tears in their eyes "Michelle_" "NO Tony just just go please I can't be around you guys right now" "I am so sorry" "Goodbye Mike" "I think you all should just stay away from us" Johan said coming between me and them "Michelle go take a shower I'll escort these men out" "Bye guys"

"Do you really still love him?" Mike said I made eye contact with my one eye that was still open "Yes" I said before walking off. I just don't care anymore fuck this why did i have to fall for him..
He's right I'll never be perfect I thought I remember turning around then everything went black I heard faint yells in the distance,but my eyes wouldn't stay open and with that I closed my eyes

Notes

So much drama yes I know don't worry it get's better <3 keep smiling