Clush l////l Chapter 5

It's been a month since me and Konner were forced to break up and everything sent me into tears. I rarely left my room and even when I did, I was silent. Since Konner and me broke up, I haven't spoken. It didn't matter anyway. I felt dead, so what was the point in talking. My cutting has stopped but that left room for burning. I stopped eating and when I did, I'd force it out. Nothing mattered anymore.

My mother stood by the door, watching me sit silently. She looked guilty but she shouldn't. Yeah, it's her fault for me and Konner breaking up but it is her fault for falling in love. It's like saying it was my fault for falling in love. But it was starting to hurt seeing him but not being able to touch him. Even more so since he roomed right down the hall. Yeah, we moved to a bigger house so we could all live together.

My mother sighed, realizing that I wasn't going to acknowledge her. "Ceaser? I know you're upset but could you please go back to normal?" She asked. I stayed mute. She turned red with annoyance. "Ceaser Antonio Sato Perry! Why are you doing this?! Why won't you talk to me or Niall anymore?! What's wrong with you?!" Mother screamed at me. I glared at her.

"Do you know what it feels like to finally get someone you love but then get them ripped out of your grasped?" I growled. My mother jumped slightly. Probably since I've never used this tone ever. "Do you know what it's like to live with them but never get to touch them? Kiss them?" My mother looked away. I scoffed. "You'll never understand then."

Notes

Poor Turtle! :'(