Clush l////l Chapter 4 TRIGGER WARNING

I giggled as Konner kissed me lightly. We have been dating for a month now and it couldn't be better. Konner would sleep over four times a week and I'd sleep over at his house for the rest. Our parents just thought it was because we were good friends. Oh how they were wrong. So, so wrong.

I wrapped my arms around Konner's neck as he held us up. I kissed him back, loving the way Konner's lips felt on mine. BANG! The door bashed open, causing Konner to fly across the bed. I cautiously peaked through my hair to see Mr. Horan and my mother with open mouths and wide eyes. "Ca-can we speak t-to yo-you guys?" My mother asked.

I nodded softly and gestured to the bean bag seats. "What did you wanna talk about?" Konner asked, annoyance in his voice slightly. I mentally giggled, knowing he was mad about getting interrupted. Mr. Horan cleared his throat and looked away. "Konner, Ceaser.... I um...... We're getting married...." My heart, face, life, everything dropped.

"Ma-married?" I whispered. My mother nodded. Tears slowly slid down my face. "I.. um.. We ha-have to br-br-break u-u-u-u-up?" They were silent. I instantly took that as a yes. I slowly and wobbly stood up and went into my bathroom, locking the door behind me. I slid down the door and buried my face in my knees.

Tears pooled in my jeans but I didn't care. Pain was flying through my chest like cannons were firing them off and all I could do was cry. I crawled to my cupboards and withdrew my box of blades. I took out a blade and immediately knew it was my first and favourite blade. I pulled up my MEST crewneck and shoved the piece of metal into my wrist.

There was banging on the door but I didn't care. One... Two... Three.... Ten.... Seventeen.... Twenty-Two..... Thirty-six.... The door flew open before could make the thirty-seventh cut. I looked up to see Konner. His face was red and he stared at the sheet of metal in my hand and the box full of blades on the ground. He tentatively walked over and plucked a blade out of the box.

"Tony... If you hurt yourself, I'll do the same 'cuz I love you." He said before counting the new cuts on my wrist. Konner pushed the blade into his wrist and I freaked. He was cutting because I cut. I grabbed his hand before he could work his way up to ten. "Stop, Konner!" I screamed at him. He shook his head. "Tone, I love you! Do you understand that if you can cause so much pain to yourself 'cuz of me... 'cuz of us, I'll do the same?! We go together or we don't go down at all!"

And with that, he yanked his hand free and went on cutting. Tears rained from my eyes. All I could do was watch. He dropped the blade when he reached thirty-six. Konner stared me in the eyes. "No more cutting, Turtle." I nodded and latched onto him. "N-n-no more cut-cut-cutting." I sobbed into his chest. "Yeah... No more cutting...."

Notes

Sorry if this triggered anyone. I was even tempted to do it. Sorry for a depressing chapter.