A Match Into Water

*Vic's POV*

I am so pathetic and useless.

What sort of boyfriend can't protect his girlfriend especially from the thing she fears the most?

It kills me to see what that bastard has don't to my angle.

Shes so fragile and broken, it's hard to see her like this again after she tried to commit suicide a few months ago.

She was getting better, she was managing to cope with things again and I let her fall.

This is all my fault.

I dissembled my razor I had in my draw and looked at the shimmering silver blades.

I've been clean for years.

The tears began to flow as I thought about Alisha laying in hospital crying on me as she found out her baby had died.

It rips me into pieces.

With the tears falling down my cheeks and grabbed a razor blade and pulled it across my thigh watching the blood slowly flow out.

I laid back in my bed thinking of what Alisha would be doing....it scared me the thought of what she could be doing. I decided to ring her.

She answered but all I could hear was her crying helplessly. I felt awful.

I decided I can't just leave her alone with her mother at a time like this, she needs me.

I know it seems as if I'm angry with her but I'm not I'm just so angry at myself for what I've done. Well for what I've not done, protect her.

She can't fight these battles alone she nreds to know I'm there for her.

Notes

So Vic's struggling to come to terms with everything.

Is he going to let Alisha know he's there for her?

So tomorrow is going to be great, I have my first rape and sexual abuse counselling session. So I might update tomorrow if not that's the reason why...

My god I looked last night and my stories on the most popular page, that's fucking amazing!!

How does everyone like the story?