A Match Into Water

I was underwater for so long until my phone went off bringing me out my trance I gasped for air as my head emerged out of the water that had been tainted pink with the blood that was on my body, I had a text it was off Vic......how did he get my number? Amber of course I'm going to kill her.

From - 07881021364
Hey its Vic can I call you? x

I was shocked that he'd been through the trouble to talk to me after he had known me properly for about 4 or 5 hours near enough 2 of which I was unconscious at hospital. I replied almost instantly after I added him to my contacts.

Me - Yeah in about 15 minuets though I'm just getting out the bath x

From - Vic x
Ok just tell me when :) x

I got out the bath and began to dry myself off I scurried past my mirror not taking one glance as I knew I would breakdown. I can't be crying just before I go on the phone to the boy I have been crushing on ever since I laid eyes on him.....I mean what girl wouldn't crush over him he is perfect in everyway. I put on some comfy pj's and text Vic saying he could call now moments later my phone rang and I answered.

"Hey Alisha" just the sound of his voice brought a smile to my face...that was twice in one day, it was so strange how just hearing his voice made me happy.

"Hello Vic, you okay?" I asked being polite hoping he would say he is after today.

"Darling I'm fine the important question is are you? I have been so worried" I could tell just by the tone in his voice that he must have been.

"I'm perfectly fine I've been through worse pain a lot worse" I said trying to comfort him remembering my suicide attempt earlier this year and the emotional pain of the sexual abuse.

"Sweetie I'm sorry, can I ask you something?" he had great sympathy in his voice.

"Of course you can, ask away"

"How long has it been since you started?" I felt every hair on my body stand up as soon as I heard him say that.

"What do you mean?" I tried to play dumb hoping he would brush it off.

"You know what I'm on about. How long have you been harming yourself? I'm not going to judge you not one bit in fact I can empathise with you on this one"

"What? You do too?" I was deeply confused he's so perfect.

"Yep, I have done for 2 or 3 years because I was bullied and trapped within my own emotions.....now its your turn" he said this in a firm tone of voice.

"For 2 years...since....since" tears streamed down my face.

"Baby don't cry its ok, I am going to help you get through it show you ways to fight the urge to cut. Babe what happened to you?" he said this carefully as he knew it was a sensitive area for me obviously.

"Since I was raped when I was 14. I have been took advantage of twice on top of that as well this year" I hadn't stopped crying instead I cried heavier.

"Sweetie I am so sorry! I am going to get you threw this, we will work together to keep each other strong" he replied with so much confidence in his voice.

"Okay, I'm going to have to go now I have some stuff to do" I didn't want to be rude its just I did have quite a lot of homework.

"Alright beautiful, just promise me you wont do anything?"

"I promise" I replied reluctantly.

"Darling you'll be ok, see you tomorrow" he said as he sighed.

I ended the phone call, I now understand why he didn't care about my cuts and why he knew how to cover them up so well. I trust Vic so much but I don't know why, its like I have known him my whole life. He's been the missing link to my recovery all these years.

Notes

Chapter 3......Sorry if my updates are a bit slow I've got exams to prep for. (sorry if there is any mistakes too)

I can relate to as most of this so far has happened to me and is very personal, yeah it hurts a lot to think about but writing about it is helping me so much. A lot more than my mental counsellor is actually, I would recommend writing about it on here if you have been through anything and writing about it on here can help.

I can fully relate this chapter.......... I have been raped, sexually took advantage of, self harmed/harming and suicide attempts but im getting better slowly but it is all part of recovery! To anyone out there who has been through shit in life STAY STRONG it gets better even if you think it doesn't!

Feedback is appreciated!