A Match Into Water

*Vic's POV*

~A day later~

The nurse walked in and look straight into my eyes "Do you feel up to going to see Alisha's body today?"

I quickly looked away at an object in the room so I didn't have to look into her eyes and softly spoke "I think so...." I was trembling at this point as tears ran down my face.

"You sure you are?" She asked me again just to confirm, I nodded my head in agreement.

She aided me into the wheelchair and connected my iv and the bag of fluids at the top onto the metal frame on the wheelchair. I suddenly got a feeling like I was going to be sick as I was being wheeled down the many corridors, some were full of screaming and others full of broken hearts and people crying for the people that are ill or have sadly passed away.

We came to a slow holt at one door, there was nobody around us it was just me.

"Are you ready?" she spoke softly and placed her hand on my shoulder from behind me.

I nodded and felt a tear drop onto my hand, the door opened and she wheeled me next to her body it was covered with a sheet except from her upper body...obviously having her chest covered.

The nurse told me that she was going to give me some alone time with her but if I needed her to press this button on the remote that she handed to me, I thanked her as much as one person can as she left the room.

I slowly reached out and grabbed Alisha's hand, it was so cold but I didn't care...I leaned over and kissed her on the lips. I looked at her body, it was covered in cuts....I saw that a few of the cuts on her arm formed something I peered closely at her arm and saw that it spelt out Vic, she wrote my name on her body. I looked at her body laying there, she looked so peaceful and calm. The tears fell as I began to weep next to her, I wanted to tell her how much she meant to me.

I cleared my throat and began to speak "Hey beautiful, I miss you. I really miss you. You never gave me have the chance to tell you how much you mean to me.........I love you, I love you so very much but I never got to show you or protect you like I should have done and for that I am so very sorry. I cant help but think I'm to blame for all of this"

At that moment in time the nurse walked in with a piece of paper in her hand "We found this in Alisha's jean pocket, we thought you might want to see it. No one has read it as I told them not to as I thought you should have the decision" She held out this piece of paper that was crumpled in front of me.....I slowly reached out and took the letter I thanked her as she walked back out of the room.

I opened up the letter and began to read it out loud.

"To who ever finds this note first,
I apologise for the mess and for the fact you had to find my body, I know its a vile thing to look at when its not dead. If you hadn't guessed already this is my suicide note. I hate life all together I've had enough of the memories and thoughts. I cant deal with it anymore I have been for 3 years, 3 years today. I have had enough with not being wanted and with looking at my vile body everyday, every single day. You can imagine what its like to wake up and wish you was dead. I hope that you will never know that pain, even if your my worst enemy. That's how bad this pain is that I feel. I'm sorry my family and friends had to put up with such a fuck up but you wont anymore. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me of think it was their fault why I died. I love you all, this isn't goodbye just a farewell for now."

I burst out crying and clutched the letter close to my chest, I felt her pain in every word of that letter.

!I'm so sorry you felt like that Alisha, I'm so sorry" I kissed the top of her hand whilst speaking.

I ended up screaming at the top of my lungs "God, you vulture, bring her back!"

The nurse ran in and removed my hand from hers and began to wheel me out. I tried to fight back and hold on but I couldn't.

As I was placed back into my bed I began to be sucked into a black hole of depression without anyway out, I knew it would be her funeral soon and me and Amber are going to help her have the best funeral ever, make it about everything she loved......music.

Notes

Sorry its a bit on the short side!

I know this story is quite a shit depressing one....sorry guys :/

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