Don't Rain On My Parade

| Taylor's POV|

Im finally out of the hospital and back home. Two days in that God damn place. The stitches are coming out in a week they said. They had ran some tests on me while I was there and they gave me new medication to help with the anxiety attacks. They had also said that they were confused as to way I just started having them.

I had two or three a day in there before they started me on the meds. They have the worst side effects. Like today I was making a sandwich and fell asleep while spreading the mayo on it. My mom woke me up five minutes later, still standing.

Jaimes here to keep me company. I told Tony to go home to get some sleep. He only slept a few hours at the hospital he was so worried about me. My cuts are pretty bad. They said if I had gone a little bit deeper I would have bleed out before my mom would have found me. She cried so much when they told us that. I feel sorry for her. But at the same time I'm still mad at her.

"Are you going to school tomorrow?" Jaime asks. We are upstairs in my room watching The Breakfast Club.

"Im not sure. I wanna see Tony, you, and Vic. But I'm not sure I'll like seeing Mike." I havent told Mike what had happened but Hime told Vic and I'm sure Vic has told him by now.

"Youll be fine. Tony'll just beat the shit outta him up again." I giggle at the thought of shy little Turtle beating someone up, even if it has already happened, I still can't believe it.

"I know, but I'm scared of having another attack also. I've only been on this stuff a couple days and I'm not sure what it can undergo yet. And I might fall asleep while walking in the hall."

Jaime laughs. "Id love to see that."

I slap his arm. "Suriously! I fell asleep making my sandwich an hour ago!"

"Thats what took you so long?!" He laughs. This time I punch his arm.

"Im not sure if I can go to school. But at the same he I don't know if I can stay home alone." I shrug.

"I say you go to school. But, I don't wanna push you into something you don't want to do."

I think for a minute. "Either way it's going to suck." I sigh. "But. I rather it suck with my friends around me. I'll go."

Hime jumps off the bed throwing a fist to the sky. "Yes!"
~

My alarm clock goes off. Another Monday. "Ugh." I roll out of bed and slam the already broken buttons on top. I grab my towel and head to take a shower. There was still some blood on the tiles in the bathroom and carpet in the hall from them carrying me out on the stretcher. Mom had tried to scrub the little brownish red dots out but they won't budge.

As I wash out my knotted purple hair, the hot water flows over my new cuts. They sting like hell. Worse then the others.

I get dressed and ready, sliding on extra bracelets for extra coverage. Jaime got his car back from last Monday's incident so I don't have to pick him up.

I head downstairs and see mom making eggs. "Hey."

She turns from the stove. "You decided to go to school?" Ever since the hospital we have been very awkward talking to one another. She knows it was her fault. But I tell her it was mine. That I wasn't strong enough to resist.

"Yeah." I sigh. I reach down and touch my new scars covered with a large gauze pad unconsciously. It's become a habit.

"Here you go." She slides over my new meds along with a glass of Orange juice and a fried egg. I swallow down the pills, chug the juice and push away the egg. "Your not eating? The doctor said to take the pill with food."

"My stomach hurts and I've lost my appetite. I'm going to be late." I quickly grab my bag and head out the door.
~

I pull into the school parking lot and park next to Jaime. I really hope nobody knows. How could they? I try to reassure myself. No one could have told them. Oh God. What if everyone knows? Well. Only One way to find out.

I jump out of my car, throwing my bag over my shoulder and closing the door. I start to make my way to the entrance when I noticed that everyone's eyes were on my. I swallow hard. Shit. They know.

I find Jaime and Tony sitting on the stairs, just like old times. "Hey boys." I say as joyful as I could (which wasn't very joyful). Hime jumps up and hugs me. Tony does the same and kisses my head.

"How you feeling?" Tony asks me, still in his arms. I don't want to let go.

"How do they know?" I ask. Tony pulls away and looks confused.

"Who?" I turn and gesture to everyone in the hallway who all look away quickly. His eyes grow wide."I don't know. I didn't tell anyone."

I look up the stairs to see the girls from the coffee shop and the one who told me to kill myself, Courtney. They all stop talking and glare at me. They start to whisper to each other.

They make their way down the steps and one rams into Jaime. He loses balance and falls forward. "Oops." One says and they all giggle. "Close but not close enough." One says looking me up and down.

I help Hime up and then flip them off, even if they can't see me.

"I hate them." He says.

We head to English and all sit in our normal seats joined by Vic a few seconds later. The bell rings and a flood of students come into the room. Including Mike.

He sits next to Vic. Glaring at Tony the whole time. His black eye has grown lighter color. I still think it's hilarious that my little Turtle beat him up.

The class goes by quickly, Tony held my hand the whole time. Every now and then he would give it a slight squeeze. Sadly it went by to fast. Now I have social studies with Mike.

Tony asks if he could walk me there but I decline saying he would be late to his class. We kiss a quick goodbye and split off to different directions.

Mike walks a good distance behind me. But as I was about to step into social studies when he grabs my arm. Pulling me out of the doorway. Into the hall.

"What do you want?" I ask pulling away from his grip.

"Your killing me." His voice carried saddness. "I can't stand to see you with him."

"im sorry I dragged you into this. Truly. I'm sorry but I kinda did. I barely even know you." I turn to go into class.

"Tay." He pleds. I pause. Back still towards him. "Please. I REALLY like you. Would you just give us another chance. I'll make you happy. I'll make you feel beautiful. And loved. Please."

I turn and look into his sad filled eyes. "Tony does all those things now." I turn around again and walk into class. I sit in my normal spot and Mike slides next to me.

Courtney and her crue fill in the seats in front of me. I'm curious as to why since they despise of me.

A few minutes into the lesson Courtney turns and passes me a note with a grin plastered on her face. I cautiously unfold it knowing that I shouldn't. But I do anyway.

'Close but not close enough. Try again, nobody wants you here. XOXO -Courtney'

I crumple the note, and see Mike's eyes on me. Emotion floods my conscious. Anger, sadness, depression. I'm angry mostly at myself for having read that note. But also at Courtney. Does she feel powerful when she does this? Bully me?

I stand up in a heist, throw the crumpled paper at Courtney and hit her in te back of the head then storm out of the room.

Just as my feet reach the hallway floor tears brake my eyes like water breaking a dam. They roll down my cheek rapidly and I run. I need to be alone. I need to calm Down before I have another attack. Which was sure to come.

As I turn into the restroom, I run into someone, sending papers flying. "SHIT!" I yell. I scurry to pick up the papers. "Im so sorry." I sniffle.

"Its fine. School means shit to me. I could care less about some English papers." She laughs a little. "But you did manage to scare the shit outta me. " She bends down to pickup some papers.

Her bright bleach blonde hair was easy it identity her as Allison. She's in most of my classes. She doesn't have friends with her ever. She came to this school a few weeks before Vic and Mike. I've never actually talked to her.

I wipe away a few tears and hand her the papers.

"Darling? Why are you crying?" She asks. I start to cry even harder. I don't want people to worry about me. I almost always hurt them.

"Its... It's nothing." I sniffle again.

"A beautiful girl like you should never cry. Come here." She pulls me into a hug. I accept it and hug her back. I would never done this but she was so nice and I really need a hug right now.

"Im not beautiful. I'm shit." I cry out. For some reason I feel like spilling every thing to her. She pulls away and holds my shoulders arm length away.

"Hey, shut up. Your like the prettiest girl around. I'm jealous." I chuckle at the thought of someone bbeing jealous of me.

"Thank you. It means a lot." I nod a little.

"Your Taylor, right?"

"Yeah." I wipe away more tears. "And your Allison?"

"Yep! I heard what happened. I hope your okay. I'm really sorry." She points to my arm.

"How did you hear?" I'm curious to how the rumors started. The last thing I wanna hear is Mike.

"I overheard it. Courtenay mom works at the hospital. That's how it started going around I guess." Of course. "I just want you to know that it gets better. But only if you give it a chance to."

She pulls up her sleeve showing her scars. They are healed but still bumped up. None look new. "Six months clean from the blade."

"im proud of you." I compliment her. I roll up my sleeve and show her mine. Most covered with the gauze pad.

"Babe." She sounded disappointed but her voice also filled with sorrow.

"I know." I sniffle. My tears had slowed their roll. "I promised I'd try... but I cant." I pull my sleeve back down. "Im sorry. I didnt mean to spill this all onto you like that." I step past her to go into the restroom.

"Wait." She grabbed my shoulder. "it's okay. I promise. I love to listen." She smiles a little

"Thank you, Allison."

"Call me Ally." She says cheerfully.

I smile at her friendliness. "Thank you, Ally." I correct myself.

"Anytime. We should hang out. I could use a friend." She shrugs.

"yeah, definitely." We exchange numbers and I tell her to find me and the guys at lunch. She agrees and we head our separate ways.

Somewhere deep down, under the anger and sadness, and depression, a spark of happiness fulfills me. I've made a friend.
~

At lunch Ally finds us and Introduced her to everyone. Mike was nowhere to be found. I didn't mind.

"You should come to Himes after school for meatball Mondays!" Vic suggests.

"Oh my God! I totally forgot about that!" I yell out.

"I don't want to intrude." Ally shys away.

"No really! It'll be great!" Hime convinces.

"okay. Could I have a ride" she asks.

"ill drive you." I offer.

"Okay. Thank you." She grins. Her eyes goto Vic and they both blush.
~
|Jaimes POV|

"Welcome." I say as I open my front door. "Momll be home at sevenish." We all walk in, Tony, Vic, Tay, Ally, and I. No Mike. We all know that wouldn't be the best idea.

We get our seats in the living room. Tony and Vic on the couch, Tay and Ally share the bean bag and I take the recliner."so what we wanna play?" I ask.

"Alcohol!" Tony blurts.

"No no no." I wave my hand at him. "Moms locked it all up." Tony pouts.

"Mmmm. Let's play this!" Ally holds up a Zombie game.

"Are you sure? It's pretty gory." I ask.

"I love zombie games!" She gets up and pops it in.She throws one controller to me and kees one for her. We play for a while and she's kicking my butt.

"Your too good!" Vic admits. She blushes.

"Thanks."

"Here." I toss the remote to Vic.

"Game on." He smiles a toothy smile at Ally. She blushes harder, smiles then turns to the screen.

"Meatballs!" Tony yells scaring me makeing me jump.

"Okay, okay." I get up to make to meatballs and Tay follows.

"Allison seems cool." I tell Tay as we reach the kitchen, out of hearing range.

"Yeah! I can tell we'll be hanging out more." She go to the fridge. "I think she's got a thing for vic."

I throw the meat and vegi balls into the microwave. "Really?" I ask.

"You seem disappointed?" She asks rummaging through the fridge.

"Kinda."

"why?" She asks still in the fridge.

"its just... Everyone around me is in a relationship and I'm like the third wheel. Now I'm going to be the fifth wheel." I point to the living room.

"Youll find someone." She says. "AHA!!" She yells holding up a tequila bottle. "Anything to mix with it?"

"I'm not a bartender." I take the meat/vegi balls out of the microwave. "MEATBALLS!"

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