Unseen Love
True Feelings
I was in the middle of Best Buy looking for another camera because I broke my other one. I was standing there minding my own business when I heard a man’s voice behind me.
“Can I help you with anything?” He must be a worker here. He was very attractive. He wasn’t exactly my type, but he was cute.
“No, I am just looking. Thank you though,” I said with a half-smile and returning to looking at the cameras.
“Okay, well my name is Connor if you need any help just let me know.” His smile was breath taking. I could help but feel captivated by his bright smile.
‘Wow. Am I really even considering someone like him? He looks like a pretty decent guy. Maybe he is even fun in the sheets!’ I was pulled out of my thoughts by the same guy.
“I am sorry, I can get I trouble for this but I can’t help myself. You are so pretty and I would like to take you out sometime?” Connor’s voice was very unsure. I personally thought it was adorable.
“Sure, why not. Here you can put your number in my phone and I will text you my address so you can pick me up.” Am I making the right choice?
“Babe.” Austin’s voice was so weak I barely heard it.
“Tina. Wake up.” Austin’s voice was full of worry and despair. He was shaking me to wake up. I just couldn’t open my eyes. I was afraid that he would realized how fucked up I was and leave me. So much for a good morning. I finally opened my eyes and felt Austin loose up on the bed.
“Austin. I am so sorry I woke up. I didn’t mean to.” I said with tears falls freely down my face.
“Teen, you don’t have to say sorry for having a nightmare.” He stopped talking so he could wrap his arms around my neck pulling me into his chest. I was kind of hesitant at first but soon after I wrapped my arms around his torso and began crying even harder. He stayed there just holding me and letting me cry into his chest.
“I am okay now…” I stated in a low embarrassed tone, while pushing him away from me.
“Tina. I am pretty sure I know what you were dreaming about. I know you must be scared going into another relationship with someone you barely know. But I want you to know me. I want know you.” Austin grabbed my hand and started rubbing little circles in my palm.
“That is what I am afraid of.” I pulled my hand away him and started searching for the covers. I was starting feel a little bit more uncomfortable with my naked body. “I am afraid of you finding out everything about me and then realizing how fucked up I am and leave.” I was holding back the tears, but a couple of them did fall. Austin wiped them away from my face.
“Oh sweetie. But that is the thing. I want to know everything about you. I want to know your darkest moments. I want to be the one to bring you back. Tina, I want to be here for you. You are so much different than all the other girls. You are strong and kind and through all of the shit life has thrown at you stand up and ask for more.”
“How do you know that I am not like the other girls? What if I do end up being like the other girls and then you leave? I have had so many people leave me because the way I am now. Victoria is the only one who has stayed by my side. I trust her with my life. Austin I use to be able to trust people but ever since Connor…” Austin cut me off before I could even finish.
“Stop right there. Let’s get one thing straight I am not Connor. I am not some ass hole who beats girls just for the fuck of it okay. You are not some punching bag that I want in my life. I want to possibly grow a life with you Tina. Right now, I don’t know if the is as a couple or just as friends all I know is I want to be there for you. The only time I will leave you is on tour, but I am not mentally or emotionally leaving you. Physically yes, I would have to. Tina this may sound very weird and outrageous, but I am growing strong feelings for you. The moment I saw you get out of Tori’s car I knew I had to know you. Your smile captured me. Then I saw you scared and crying in the parking and all I wanted to do was be out there with you, hug you, and tell you that everything will get better. When we hugged for the first in IHop, something exploded in me. I felt like I have known you for years. Despite you being so broken and fragile, you are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I did not use to believe love at first sight, but now I do. I believe it now because of you.” He put an emphasis on you and wrapped his arms around me. I was full fledge crying. Austin kissed my forehead and began rocking me, so that I would calm down.
“Nobody has ever told me things like that. No one has ever expressed to me how bad they want to be with me. For you it was love at first sight but for me it was love at first touch. I am falling for you also. I am just so scared of falling in love with someone and they hurt me. As you can tell I have severe trust issues… but I am willing to try with you Austin.” I couldn’t help but smile because I wasn’t questioning myself. I knew I was making the right choice.
“Can I help you with anything?” He must be a worker here. He was very attractive. He wasn’t exactly my type, but he was cute.
“No, I am just looking. Thank you though,” I said with a half-smile and returning to looking at the cameras.
“Okay, well my name is Connor if you need any help just let me know.” His smile was breath taking. I could help but feel captivated by his bright smile.
‘Wow. Am I really even considering someone like him? He looks like a pretty decent guy. Maybe he is even fun in the sheets!’ I was pulled out of my thoughts by the same guy.
“I am sorry, I can get I trouble for this but I can’t help myself. You are so pretty and I would like to take you out sometime?” Connor’s voice was very unsure. I personally thought it was adorable.
“Sure, why not. Here you can put your number in my phone and I will text you my address so you can pick me up.” Am I making the right choice?
“Babe.” Austin’s voice was so weak I barely heard it.
“Tina. Wake up.” Austin’s voice was full of worry and despair. He was shaking me to wake up. I just couldn’t open my eyes. I was afraid that he would realized how fucked up I was and leave me. So much for a good morning. I finally opened my eyes and felt Austin loose up on the bed.
“Austin. I am so sorry I woke up. I didn’t mean to.” I said with tears falls freely down my face.
“Teen, you don’t have to say sorry for having a nightmare.” He stopped talking so he could wrap his arms around my neck pulling me into his chest. I was kind of hesitant at first but soon after I wrapped my arms around his torso and began crying even harder. He stayed there just holding me and letting me cry into his chest.
“I am okay now…” I stated in a low embarrassed tone, while pushing him away from me.
“Tina. I am pretty sure I know what you were dreaming about. I know you must be scared going into another relationship with someone you barely know. But I want you to know me. I want know you.” Austin grabbed my hand and started rubbing little circles in my palm.
“That is what I am afraid of.” I pulled my hand away him and started searching for the covers. I was starting feel a little bit more uncomfortable with my naked body. “I am afraid of you finding out everything about me and then realizing how fucked up I am and leave.” I was holding back the tears, but a couple of them did fall. Austin wiped them away from my face.
“Oh sweetie. But that is the thing. I want to know everything about you. I want to know your darkest moments. I want to be the one to bring you back. Tina, I want to be here for you. You are so much different than all the other girls. You are strong and kind and through all of the shit life has thrown at you stand up and ask for more.”
“How do you know that I am not like the other girls? What if I do end up being like the other girls and then you leave? I have had so many people leave me because the way I am now. Victoria is the only one who has stayed by my side. I trust her with my life. Austin I use to be able to trust people but ever since Connor…” Austin cut me off before I could even finish.
“Stop right there. Let’s get one thing straight I am not Connor. I am not some ass hole who beats girls just for the fuck of it okay. You are not some punching bag that I want in my life. I want to possibly grow a life with you Tina. Right now, I don’t know if the is as a couple or just as friends all I know is I want to be there for you. The only time I will leave you is on tour, but I am not mentally or emotionally leaving you. Physically yes, I would have to. Tina this may sound very weird and outrageous, but I am growing strong feelings for you. The moment I saw you get out of Tori’s car I knew I had to know you. Your smile captured me. Then I saw you scared and crying in the parking and all I wanted to do was be out there with you, hug you, and tell you that everything will get better. When we hugged for the first in IHop, something exploded in me. I felt like I have known you for years. Despite you being so broken and fragile, you are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I did not use to believe love at first sight, but now I do. I believe it now because of you.” He put an emphasis on you and wrapped his arms around me. I was full fledge crying. Austin kissed my forehead and began rocking me, so that I would calm down.
“Nobody has ever told me things like that. No one has ever expressed to me how bad they want to be with me. For you it was love at first sight but for me it was love at first touch. I am falling for you also. I am just so scared of falling in love with someone and they hurt me. As you can tell I have severe trust issues… but I am willing to try with you Austin.” I couldn’t help but smile because I wasn’t questioning myself. I knew I was making the right choice.
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11/11/14