It has been a week since I met Austin in IHop. He and Alan have been trying to get a hold of me every day since then. I don’t really want to talk to them. I am just afraid of growing accustom of them being around and then they leave me just forget who I was. Tori has been pushing me to talk to them but I am just really scared to. Before I went blind I took as many chances as I could but now everything has changed. I am afraid of taking chances. A huge part of me wants someone to come along who will just bring me back from this hell hole I created called my life.

“Hey babe, the guys are asking about you again. What do you want me to tell them this time? You don’t feel good? You’re sleeping? What excuse is it today?” If you can tell Tori was pretty annoyed. I don’t understand why she was so annoyed. She was the one who has always made sure I didn’t take chances and that I remained in the safe zone.

“What the fuck do you want me to say Victoria?! You are always telling me to be careful. Ever since I lost my sight you didn’t want me to take chances! Just for you, so you would worry your little ass off, I learned how to be safe! This is so fucking unbelievable! Nothing I ever do is okay with you! I am just a fuck up!? Why are you JUST NOW pushing me to take fucking chances again?! It has been 2 fucking years since I took a chance on life! You don’t think I want to?! Well here is a news flash for you I do! Do you know how hard it is for me to push Alan and Austin away!? You know damn well that the only thing I want to do is be in Austin’s arms! I told you! But, he deserves better than some emotional blind bitch like me! So please just make up another fucking excuse and leave me the fuck alone! Shut the door on your way out!” There was no way I could control my tears. It is as if Niagara Falls were my tear ducts. I was crying so hard that I began hyperventilating.

This past week I have not been able to get Austin out of my mind, especially the way we hugged. I fell for Austin the moment her grabbed me and hugged me. I felt safe. The only other time I have ever felt safe was with Tori. But, I figured I was holding Austin back from being with someone who could love him and actually show him love by doing things for him. I can’t even pick out my own damn clothes more or less love and care for someone.

“Oh God damn Valentina! Yes I admit I wanted you to change because I thought it would be the best for you, but now I truly see how miserable you are. I just want you to be happy Teen. I hate seeing you so sad. The other day at IHop I saw the way Austin looked at you. It was nothing but love in his eyes. Then when you stopped talking his eyes changed. You could tell that he was genuinely worried about you. And with how much he has been bugging Alan about you, you can tell he wants to get to know you and possibly take care of you. Tina I love you and I want the best for you. I think that is Austin. Don’t you even fucking think that you could hold him back or that you are no good for him! You are just afraid of taking a once in a life time chance because you are afraid. You are so different now. I hate it! I changed you and I am so sorry! I see that now! I want nothing other than to bring you back as my best friend. I miss the free spirited, fun, girl! You weren’t afraid of living Teen. And now you are because of me.” Tori was crying so much. We were both crying.

I didn’t know if I should hug her not. I mean everything is true. She was the reason I changed, besides the fact I went blind. I decided to hug her anyways. She was my best friend. I know she wanted the best for me. Maybe being with Austin was the way I needed to go. Maybe he could be the one to bring me back. I guess it wouldn’t hurt to take the chance of seeing. The worst thing that could happen is he forget about me but I have a feeling that he wouldn’t do that.

“Tori… I love you. I did change. I have always been afraid to tell you that I was miserable and I wanted to go back to normal. I figured that I was supposed to change my personality because I changed physically. But maybe I don’t need too.” There is a large amount of hope in that statement and Tori heard it because she immediately pulled me into a hug.

“Oh and Tori, how do you know that he has been bugging Alan?” I had a very concerned and curious look on my face. Had they been talking and she didn’t tell me?

“Oh… Well… At IHop Alan and I... well we clicked.” All I could think about was how this bitch didn’t tell me! She continued, “While you and Austin were getting close so was Alan and I.” I was in shock. My jaw was dropped and everything. How could I not have noticed?

“Why didn’t you tell me?! That is amazing! I really am! But why didn’t you tell me?” I frowned. I realized I had been so selfish to actually go and try to talk to my best friend.

“I saw you were trying so hard to forget about Austin that I didn’t want to tell you that I was possibly dating his best friend…” Wow. I really must be a bitch.

“I am sorry I have been so selfish. For now no matter what is wrong with me will you please always talk to me? No matter who it is okay?” I really have missed Tori. She agreed by giving me one of her classic hugs.

“So now that we agreed for you to talk to Austin… Would it be too early for us four to go on a double date? Austin and Alan have both been bugging the shit out of me. Austin really wants you to be his. I honestly think it is adorable. Alan told me that Austin is a hopeless romantic and he always treats his girls over the top. Pretty much, he spoils that shit out of them.” Tori was very excited for me to get back out there. Honestly so was I.

“Well I am up for it. Text them and tell them I agreed while I go shower. Can you out something for me to wear? I want to look hot. I want to blow Austin away.” I was actually very surprised at how confident I was being.

I was determined on making this first date amazing. I am tired of being the boring one. Tonight I plan on being the old Valentina.

Notes

I am ready for Tina to be fun and exciting! I was going to make her more depressed and scared, but I am having more fun writing about a fun girl. There will be sad chapters in the future. Not all love is easy. It most defiantly is not going to be easy for Tina and Austin.

Expect more of Alan and Tori's relationship also! This story is coming together so cute to me!

I have been reading over the past few chapters and realized there is a lot of spelling, wording, and grammar issues. Please bare with me. I am working on making my writing a lot better!

Well I hope you enjoy this chapter! SPOILER: next chapter will be in Austin's POV! :D Can't wait!