Believe You Me
June 5th
Julie was avoiding me and I couldn’t take it anymore. Before we went on stage that night, Casey was talking to Jaime as I made my way over to Julie and grabbed her arm, pushing her softly to the wall and she stared up at me. “Mike, what’s going on?” I could hear the nervousness in her voice and I grabbed her face in my hands, leaning down and kissing her softly.
She stayed still for a bit until she loosened up and held on to my shoulders. My hands traveled down her arms, to her waist and bringing her closer until she pulled away. I watched as she blinked, realizing what had happened and she pushed me away. I watched her walk back to the amps and connect everything to its rightful place. She had kissed me back, I knew she would. I smiled, going to the back with the guys and sitting on the chair.
“What’s up, man?” Vic asked me. I shrugged and grinned like a fool at the memory of what just happened.
“You okay there, Mike?” Tony asked.
“Just excited about this concert.” We were soon on stage and this time, Julie wasn’t with Casey, or on the other side, watching us like usual. I began wondering what happened and when the show was over, I apologized to the fans but claimed to have hurt my hand badly. I walked to the bus, keeping an eye out for Julie but seeing nothing. I quietly got on the bus and heard her speaking to someone.
“Yes I know I’m due for the check-up soon. No I haven’t. Yes I have. It’s a bit difficult, you won’t understand. I’m trying to cope with it. Yes, I’ll be there soon. Good bye.” I walked into the bunks, pretty upset that she hadn’t said that she was sick.
“You’re sick?” I stormed in. Julie turned to me, surprised to see me.
“Aren’t you supposed to be in the meet and greet? Why are you here?” She changed the subject. Why was she doing this?
“I asked you something!” I yelled.
“It’s nothing so just relax!” She yelled back. She was about to go into the bathroom when I blocked her path.
“Julie, just talk to me.” I begged.
“Mike, you’re not my boyfriend so leave me alone!” She yelled. I was tired of this shit. I grabbed her shoulders and pushed her to the wall between the bathroom and bunks. I crashed my lips to hers and she tried to move away from me. I grabbed her wrists with one hand and with the other I cupped her neck, bringing her face closer.
I felt her relax after a bit and she began kissing me back. I let go of her wrists and she linked her hands around my neck, gripping the collar of my shirt. I groaned in the kiss, pulling back for air and moving to her jaw.
“Mike, please stop.” She panted. I shook my head, moving back to her lips and kissing her again. She returned it before I pulled away looking at her. She stared up at me and tried catching her breath. Her eyes glistened with love and happiness, but they quickly turned into guilt and what looked like regret.
“Julie, give me a chance. That’s all I’m asking for, baby.” I whispered, placing small kisses on her lips.
“Mike, I can’t.” She said between each kiss, which she returned.
“Julie,” I looked at her and cupped her cheek. “Tell me that you don’t want this.” I whispered. She stared at me, shocked but she looked down. I lifted her head up but her eyes were closed. “Look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t want this.” Julie opened her eyes and looked at me. She hesitated before speaking and a few tears fell from her eyes.
“I don’t want this, Mike. I don’t want this, and I don’t want you.” I felt my heart shatter and for once, I felt tears falling from my eyes. Julie held on to the sides of my shirt for dear life as I rested my forehead on her shoulder.
“Why?” I said, barely above a whisper.
“I can’t have you fall in love with me, and I can’t fall in love with you.” She said. I chuckled and looked at her, grabbing her face.
“It’s too late for me.” I smiled, kissing her. Julie pushed me back.
“Then get over it.” She cried, rushing into the bathroom and locking the door. I heard the shower turn on and sobs on the other side. I punched the wall, this time really hurting my hand. I walked to my bunk, grabbing the bottle of Jack lying around and decided to drink my problems away, like always.
She stayed still for a bit until she loosened up and held on to my shoulders. My hands traveled down her arms, to her waist and bringing her closer until she pulled away. I watched as she blinked, realizing what had happened and she pushed me away. I watched her walk back to the amps and connect everything to its rightful place. She had kissed me back, I knew she would. I smiled, going to the back with the guys and sitting on the chair.
“What’s up, man?” Vic asked me. I shrugged and grinned like a fool at the memory of what just happened.
“You okay there, Mike?” Tony asked.
“Just excited about this concert.” We were soon on stage and this time, Julie wasn’t with Casey, or on the other side, watching us like usual. I began wondering what happened and when the show was over, I apologized to the fans but claimed to have hurt my hand badly. I walked to the bus, keeping an eye out for Julie but seeing nothing. I quietly got on the bus and heard her speaking to someone.
“Yes I know I’m due for the check-up soon. No I haven’t. Yes I have. It’s a bit difficult, you won’t understand. I’m trying to cope with it. Yes, I’ll be there soon. Good bye.” I walked into the bunks, pretty upset that she hadn’t said that she was sick.
“You’re sick?” I stormed in. Julie turned to me, surprised to see me.
“Aren’t you supposed to be in the meet and greet? Why are you here?” She changed the subject. Why was she doing this?
“I asked you something!” I yelled.
“It’s nothing so just relax!” She yelled back. She was about to go into the bathroom when I blocked her path.
“Julie, just talk to me.” I begged.
“Mike, you’re not my boyfriend so leave me alone!” She yelled. I was tired of this shit. I grabbed her shoulders and pushed her to the wall between the bathroom and bunks. I crashed my lips to hers and she tried to move away from me. I grabbed her wrists with one hand and with the other I cupped her neck, bringing her face closer.
I felt her relax after a bit and she began kissing me back. I let go of her wrists and she linked her hands around my neck, gripping the collar of my shirt. I groaned in the kiss, pulling back for air and moving to her jaw.
“Mike, please stop.” She panted. I shook my head, moving back to her lips and kissing her again. She returned it before I pulled away looking at her. She stared up at me and tried catching her breath. Her eyes glistened with love and happiness, but they quickly turned into guilt and what looked like regret.
“Julie, give me a chance. That’s all I’m asking for, baby.” I whispered, placing small kisses on her lips.
“Mike, I can’t.” She said between each kiss, which she returned.
“Julie,” I looked at her and cupped her cheek. “Tell me that you don’t want this.” I whispered. She stared at me, shocked but she looked down. I lifted her head up but her eyes were closed. “Look me in the eyes and tell me you don’t want this.” Julie opened her eyes and looked at me. She hesitated before speaking and a few tears fell from her eyes.
“I don’t want this, Mike. I don’t want this, and I don’t want you.” I felt my heart shatter and for once, I felt tears falling from my eyes. Julie held on to the sides of my shirt for dear life as I rested my forehead on her shoulder.
“Why?” I said, barely above a whisper.
“I can’t have you fall in love with me, and I can’t fall in love with you.” She said. I chuckled and looked at her, grabbing her face.
“It’s too late for me.” I smiled, kissing her. Julie pushed me back.
“Then get over it.” She cried, rushing into the bathroom and locking the door. I heard the shower turn on and sobs on the other side. I punched the wall, this time really hurting my hand. I walked to my bunk, grabbing the bottle of Jack lying around and decided to drink my problems away, like always.
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