I'm in San Diego this week. Not telling Vic as I should be, but doing a underwear shoot. I won't be able to do those soon. I just hope my tummy doesn't grow as we're doing the shoot.
I've been avoiding everyone as well. I'd been here two days and I bumped into Mike. Which means Vic knows I'm in the city. Which means he probably thinks I'm stalking him and his girlfriend who's here for 'business'. Yeah right, she's just pathetic.
I've been walking around for a while now. Not looking where I'm going. But I bumped into someone. The worst person you could possibly bump into. No, not Vic.
"Hi Zandra," she exclaimed happily, or fakely.
"Hi Leah," I smiled, being forced to call her by her name and not Kellin's sister.
"Kate said you'd be here. How're you?"
"I'm fine, thanks. And you?"
"Fantastic, really. I'm staying with Vic. He's shopping somewhere," she laughed loudly.
"Great," I muttered.
"Oh, before I go. Austin told Vic. What does she look like?"
"Who look like?" I asked stupidly.
"Jemma. Austin's new girlfriend," she looked at me like I was an idiot.
"I haven't met her,"
"He did tell you, didn't he?"
"Of course," I laughed shrilly.
"Well bye," she shrugged.
I watched her walk away happily. I glared at her back and walked into the nearest shop. I went to the shoe section and sat down on a stool. I got my phone out angrily and called Austin. It went straight to voice mail and I groaned.
"Hi, it's Zee, that person you're supposed to care about. Well I've just found out you're dating someone from Leah fucking Quinn. Have a nice time, Austin," I spat.
I hung up and crossed my arms across my chest angrily. I've told him the biggest thing that's ever happened to me. But he doesn't bother to tell me he has a girlfriend. I know he's going to be angry, but I don't care. I brought my knees up to my chest and started to cry. Again. Tears were rolling down my cheeks and I was sobbing heavily.
"Zandra?" I head a voice ask.
But when I turned around I glared. Vic was walking towards me.
"Leave me alone," I ordered.
"Shit, are you crying?" he gasped.
"Leave me alone," I repeated dangerously.
But he doesn't. He took a seat next to me. We sat for a while in silence and Vic stared at the floor.
"Feel like telling me what's wrong?" Vic offered.
"Why should I tell you?" I asked.
"Because there's no one else around and it looks like you could use someone while you're having an emotional breakdown,"
"I'm not having a breakdown," I hissed.
"Sure," he said dryly.
"Vic, just shut up. Stop acting like you're perfect,"
"Woah. I never said that. Why are you so moody?"
Your sperm has messed up my hormones, that's why.
"Why are you here?" I asked bluntly. "Do you cross dress?"
"No, I'm shopping for my girlfriend,"
"Oh,"
A small part of me wanted him here for me. It wasn't the fact it was Vic, father to my child. It was the fact he looked like he cared right now. That's what I want, someone to care.
"Would you rather me be here for you?" Vic asked.
"What? No!" I laughed shrilly. "Of course not!"
"You drive me insane!" Vic growled.
"No I don't," I replied.
"You sleep with me, sneak out and don't tell anyone. Then after ignoring me we kiss at your party,"
"So?" I rolled my eyes.
"I think you like me," Vic said.
"Don't flatter yourself," I retorted. "You have a girlfriend," I added.
"I like you, Zandra,"
"Then why are you dating Leah?" I questioned seriously.
"I don't know!" he exclaimed and pulled at his hair.
We didn't talk for a while. I just sat there looking at my hands. Vic looked at me and I frowned.
"Leah's great. But she's just . . . I don't know. When I see you I just loose it. I don't get that with her," Vic explained quietly.
"You don't like me, Vic. You hardly know me. If you did you wouldn't be around now,"
"Go on," he urged.
I was going to tell him. He's the father and he needs to know. I don't know how to tell him but I have to. I told my parents and I told Austin. I did that so I can tell Vic. I just have to come out and say it. Forget about how he may react and deal with it when it comes.
"Vic," I said. "I'm-"
"Vic!" Leah called and came over to us.
As she walked over I saw Vic frown with disappointment. I was going to tell him and she wrecked it! He would know by now. He might even be there for me, hugging me and telling me everything will be alright.
"Hi babe," Vic said.
"I should go," I said.
I stood up and rushed away. I got to the edge of the shop when I stopped. Leah was behind me. She looked at me and smiled widely.
"This fell out of your bag," she said.
I looked at her hand and my eyes widened. She was holding my scan picture. I took it off her and frowned.
"It isn't mine," I reassured her.
"Are you sure?" she asked.
I couldn't reply.
"I thought so. That's why Kellin has been so distant from me lately," he stated proudly.
"Don't tell anyone. You can't. Not even Vic," I pleaded.
She looked at me and shrugged. Vic came behind her and looked at me carefully.
"Bye," I told them.
"Take care. Don't put yourself under stress . . . In your condition," Leah said.
Vic looked at me confused. I glared at Leah and she smiled back in reply. You bitch Leah Quinn.

Notes

Hey! What did you think? She almost told him! Then Leah came and stopped her. Now Leah knows! What do you think will happen? Who wants Leah to fall off a cliff or something now? :)