I'm crying again. Of course I am. I'm always crying. It's not like crying will help things. I'm still knocked up, hiding from Vic in a shop dressing room, half hoping he'll find me and half hoping he won't. I haven't seen him for a week. I'm a little shocked and disoriented to see him here. This is my city, shouldn't he be in San Diego if he isn't touring? I risked looking out of the curtain to see him standing outside the opposite dressing room. He saw me and smiled.
"Shit," I muttered.
"Zee!" he called.
"Oh, hi Vic," I forced a smile.
"How're you? And you know . . ."
"Fine," I quickly replied.
"Vic," someone said.
A woman walked out of a dressing room. She went to Vic and took his arm. Does he never shop alone?
"Oh hello," the woman said.
"Hi," I smiled.
"Zee, this is Steph. She's my girlfriend," Vic explained.
Wow, slap in the face.
"How long?"
"A week," Steph said happily.
"So, just after your party," I said tightly.
"That's right," she added.
"Nice," I nodded at Vic. "I'm Zandra," I explained.
"Oh, it's lovely to meet you. Vic told me everything," she said.
"He did?" I muttered.
"Yes," she nodded. "That's how we met. And I think you should know you don't need to worry, I'm perfectly okay with everything,"
"That's open minded of you," I said quietly.
Vic's phone started to ring. He looked at it and frowned.
"I'll be a sec. I need to take this, it's my manager," he explained.
Vic walked away, leaving Steph and I alone.
"There's something I want to ask you," Steph said.
"Okay . . ." I trailed away.
"When I met Vic he was upset and he told me everything. He said you're giving the baby up for adoption. I was just making sure he wasn't forcing you,"
"He isn't," I laughed shrilly. "Believe me,"
"Okay, that's good. I just wanted to make sure things are over between you before I like Vic too much. I know things are moving fast between us,"
"They never really started," I lied. "We slept together, I got pregnant. It's been all physical,"
"I just wanted to make sure. I'd be happy as long as Vic is and I want him to be there for the baby," Steph explained kindly.
Is she sweet or just fake like Leah?
"Steph, why don't you go and pay?" Vic asked, coming back.
"Okay, it's been so nice, Zandra," Steph smiled before she walked away.
Vic leaned against the wall near me. He looked at me and smiled a little.
"Were you hiding from me?" he asked carefully.
"Don't be stupid!" I snapped.
"How long were you in there?" He asked smugly.
"Half an hour," I muttered.
"What were you doing?"
"Crying," I replied honestly.
"Why?" he asked shocked.
"I'm prone to emotional outbursts now,"
"Oh," he nodded. "What did Steph say to you? I really like her you know,"
"Like you really liked me?" I rolled my eyes.
"Why are you always like this?!" he huffed. "You're so infuriating,"
"Then why are you talking to me?"
"Stop!" Vic demanded. "I wish I never slept with you!" he finally exclaimed, his head in his hand.
"So do I! Maybe if you were better in bed it'd be worth the pregnancy," I said angrily.
"Are you saying I'm rubbish in bed?"
"I'm not saying you're good. So . . ." I muttered.
"I am great in bed! Loads of women have said so,"
"They just say that so you'll finish and they can tell their friends they slept with Vic from Pierce the Veil," I rolled my eyes.
"Well, you weren't good either,"
"I was,"
"Wasn't," he countered.
"That's not how I remember you feeling at the time,"
"Shut up," Vic said, only half serious.
I stuck my tongue out at him. Vic did the same and I started to laugh. Vic laughed as well. I grinned and he looked away from me to calm down again.
"You're so stupid," I teased.
"So are you," he laughed again.
"We both are," I smiled.
"Um . . . Zee?" he asked cautiously.
"Yes?" I asked.
"What are we going to do?"
"I don't know," I muttered.
"Do you want an adoption?"
"I guess I sort of do. I don't really know,"
"Why don't you think it over?" he offered.
Think it over? I'm nine weeks now, I've been thinking it over for seven.
"Yeah," I nodded.
"Could you call me? You know . . . Keep me up to date. I don't want to be a dick about it," Vic said awkwardly.
"Sure," I nodded.
"And if you need anything. . ."
"I don't want your money," I said flatly.
"I mean anything. If you want some company and Alan or Austin or Katelynne or Kellin or anyone isn't free. . . Even if I can't make it I'm sure Mike or Jaime or Tony would like to get to know you better,"
"Thanks," I giggled.
"What?" he questioned.
"You're trying so hard and it's funny," I said.
Vic rolled his eyes. I smiled again and he laughed.
"I should go," I told him.
First Vic went to hug me. But I didn't. Then realising I went to hug him, but this point he thought I didn't want to hug. So I hugged him and Vic's hand hit my stomach, thinking we were going to shake hands. I squashed his hand, but Vic tried to style it out but hugging me with his free arm.
"Cool," Vic nodded once we pulled away.
"Yeah," I muttered and stumbled away from him.

Notes

Hey! What did you think? Is she going to put the baby up for adoption? Do you like Steph? Wat do you think will happen?