Tony's pov

"Hey mom! Have you seen my black vans?!" I heard Crystal's voice ring loudly inside the house. I groaned and covered my head with my pillow. I peeked at the clock and saw it was 6:27 a.m. What. The. Fuck.
My head was throbbing and I've only slept for an hour. Well, I just got home an hour ago after the party.
"Already packed mija! Now hurry up!"Lydia yelled back. I heard shuffling around and then soft footsteps running down the stairs.
The curiosity got the best of me when I heard other voices down stairs. I peeled myself away from my bed and slipped a hoodie on before lazily walking down stairs.
"What's going on? I'm trying to sleep here and my head is killing me." I mumbled, not looking up.
"Nothing mijo, go back to sleep. The guys are just picking crystal up so they can head to the airport." My mom spoke. My head shot up, bringing a killer headache again.
"What? Airport? Why?" I asked looking at Mike who had suitcases in hand.
"We're going to Disneyland, like we planned ages ago. We gave what was supposed to be your ticket to Crystalluna since you said you didn't want to go." Mike shrugged.
"What?! When did I say that?!"
"A week ago. You told us to fuck off." Crystal spoke up quietly.
"Yup! Now c'mon, we have to put these up." Mike said casually heading outside. Crystal followed him while I followed her.
"You guys are leaving me? We planned this freshman year!" I exclaimed as Mike put the suitcases in the trunk of Vic's Car.
"And? Dude you ditched us for those new friends of yours remember?" Jaime spoke up from the passengers seat. Vic just gave me a blank look from the driver seat before turning straight ahead.
"I didn't ditch you."
"Yeah you did Tony. You also ditched Crystal at prom remember?" Mike sighed getting in the car. He looked down at his lap, like he did when he was nervous, sad, or scared. I wasn't sure which.
"Mike. Shut up." Crystal snapped at him. Her checks turned red and her eyes watered a bit before she composed herself. I turned and looked at my mom and Lydia who were watching from the porch. My anger flared quickly.
"I thought you guys were my friends!" I yelled making crystal jump.
"Friends? As I recall you had no friends until you meet those assholes. You were the 'nerd with no friends'. What were we then?" Jaime mocked.
"Look Tony I'm sorry but we have to go. You made your choice and it wasn't us. I'm sorry." Crystal apologized quietly before getting in the car next to Mike.
"You know what fuck you! All of you! I don't need you!" I yelled angrily. My heart ached, I just lost my friends without realizing it. They just looked at me before speeding off.
I turned and walked inside, pissed off at the damn world.
"Tony, in sorry honey but you pushed them away. You can't treat them like that and expect them to be ok with it." My mom spoke. I ignored her and hurried upstairs to my room.
Seriously? They just left me here. Shit, I don't even remember them asking me!
I locked the door of my room and sat down with my back to the door thinking. I tried to remember if they really did ask me. Then it hit me.
They did ask. It was one day after school when I was going to my locker. When I got there Vic, Jaime, and Mike were there, but so were Chris and Andy. I walked up like usual and grabbed my things ready to go. Chris was explaining this party but Jaime and Vic kept interrupting.
"Tony seriously this is important. It's about our trip." Vic said but I rolled my eyes. I just wanted to hear about this party I was invited to.
"Tony, seriously? We do exist you know." Mike said making Chris go quiet and stare at him, annoyance clear in his features.
"Maybe you do but not in my world so can you fuck off?" I laughed before shutting my locker and leaving with a laughing Chris and Andy.
That's how it happened, they did tell me but I was too much of a dick to understand.
"Fuck!" I yelled in frustration at myself. I really did fuck up. How could I be so stupid? I groaned and got up, towards my wardrobe.
I was quick to open my little cabinet which keeps a bottle of vodka, I always keep it there just in case. Today is the case.
Without hesitation I opened the bottle and took a huge gulp out of it. It burned my throat but I didn't care. I continued gilding down the bottle, gulp by gulp.
Tears pricked my eyes but I pushed them away. How did this even happen? I've known the guys since I was in middle school. And they just left me, in the dust.
It didn't matter anyways, I was going to collage next month. Wait...
"Fucking hell!" I yelled throwing the bottle across the room. It shattered with a loud echo.
"Tony?! What the hell was that?" My mom asked opening my room door and looking at me. She looked worried but angry at the same time.
"I was gunna leave them mom! We planned to go to college together but I left them!" I yelled finally realizing what I have done. I bet I looked a hot mess. Shaking with self hatred and pity. But I didn't care, I just wanted to be me again.
"Yes Tony b-" my mom began walking slowly to me.
"No! This is not me mom! W-who am I?" I finally cried falling to my knees.
"Oh Tony baby, it's okay." She cooed softly and bent down to hug me. I leaned to her embrace, just wanting to feel some kind of love.
"It's okay Tony." She said softly. I shook my head and quickly grabbed my keys from the nightstand and bolted out the door. I ignored my moms yells after me and ran out the house. I was determined to go apologize to the guys. Today, so I needed to go to the airport.
I hopped and my car and quickly speed off. I wasn't completely sober but I didn't care, I need to see them now. I passed most stop signs and cut others off.
And well, that's all I remember before everything went black.

Notes

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