I cut the engine and starred out at the sea. The deep blue ocean connected with the diamond blue sky. Yet it seemed as if the ocean went on forever.

"Clairemont Clift" I whispered as I got out the car

I walked to the each of the clift and looked down at the sea below. "How did I end up here?" I questioned


I know exactly how I got here. I know exactly how I got to my 'Suicide Station'. I always come here when I feel like complete shit. When i feel like the world dosen't need me.....that nobody needs me.

See knowing my brother slept with my girlfriend years ago made me feel sad. But seeing your brother with the love of your life. Actually seeing it.....physically......with your own to eyes. That takes the cake. That sends me to an all time low.

Just thinking about it makes me sick. it makes my insides turn. How could Sam do this to me, How could Vic do this to me.......again?

"Is this fantasy real or is it all home-made?" I whisper as a tear slid down my face

I wish this wasn't real. I wish this was fantasy. I wish that Vic cared about me, but truth is he dosen't. My own brother dosen't care about me. The love of my life dosen't care about me. Nobody in this world cares if I'm alive.

But Michelle, Michelle cares about me right. I love Chelle with all my heart. She's my world and I'd do anything for her. She's my reason to live. And she blames me for her mommy going missing

Maybe this is all my fought. Maybe I am the reason that everyone's lif has been so fucked up. I'm such a fuck up. I've always been a fuck up, what makes me think I could change.

Michelle deserves a better father. Sam deserves a better lover. Vic deserves a better brother. Mama and Papa deserve a better son. Jaime and Tony deserve a better friend.

Nobody deseves such a fuck up.

The world should be cleansed of such a fuck up.

During the Great Flood the world was cleansed of all it's sin and fuck up by water. Maybe water will cleanse the world now.

Then the world will be happy. Everyone will be so much happier once the world is cleansed.

"An celebration of an ending."

I look down at the sea. Waves roughly crash against the clift. Would they see me at all under the tall waves. The waves same waves that I take my beautiful daughter out to play in can be the same waves that can take my last breath.

Water, though necessary for life, can become devestating in an instant. Just as it's needed to sustain life, it can just as easily take it away.

I look down at the sea and instantly smiled. I finally found my answer. I have finally solved the devastating equation.


The sea..........the sea can solve all the problems.





The sea...........the peaceful solution to my devestating equation.









All I have to do is jump.

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