I stood by my bed for for about an hour. A smie spread on my face. Vic......and al the guys cared so much about me. I couldn't help but feel sightly joyful. I felt wanted again, I felt needed. They put their life on hold for me.......for ME.

I slumped down to the ground. All the happiness that filled my heart to hear Vic's voice was soon repaced with something else.......selfishness. The hole that was in my heart doubled in size. I was nothing but a selfish machine.

I needed to release the pain. I needed to cut, especially before Vic got here. I walked to my bathroom and pulled out my blade. "My best friend. The only thing I managed to not be selfsih too."

I placed the cool metal to my skin and pressed down. Feeling it against my skin made me feel alive again. The blood slidding down my skin sent a wave a satisfaction shooting through my body.

"This is for leaving Karina, Adrianna, Jaime, Tony, Mike, Vic and especially my baby girl." I cried as I repeatedly put the blade to my risk.

Before I could stop I already had twenty cuts going down my arm. I knew I needed to stop but I just couldn't bring myself to stop cutting.

"Just one more." I whispered I pushed the blade down on my skin with some force and sliced one more time. I smied in relief but it quickly vanished when I looked down at my arm. Blood was pouring out my arm.

I went to clean my arm but my legs wouldn't carry me to the sink to do so. I felt very fatigue all of a suddent and I fell back down to the ground with a pop. My head was feeling fuzzy and my world started to spin around me.

"Shit!" I mummered as I felt myself slipping away.

Maybe I used just a little to much force

For suddenly my world was consumed by darkness.

Notes

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