He squeezed me tightly, his arms like a padlock on my body, I didn't care though, this was exactly where I wanted to be.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I whispered trying to keep the tears at bay, he pulled back, the biggest smile painted on his Mexican face and kissed me softly on the lips. That's what I loved about Vic, he didn't pick me up and spin me around, blurting how he missed me, he didn't sweep me off my feet and carry me off into the sunset, he wasn't elaborate in the way he treat me but it was just Vic all over. It was written on his face how much he adored me and I'm sure it was written on mine too, he hadn't even spoken yet, but he didn't need to.

He brushed my cheek with his thumb and smiled wider.

"You're here, I missed you." I said stupidly and he laughed a little. I didn't want him to be silent, I wanted to hear his voice, needed to hear it.

"Leda, what the-" I heard Taylor's voice approach and then he stopped once he'd gotten out of the door and saw us. He looked at Vic from top to bottom and then at me, sizing up the situation, doing what Taylor does. He flashed a smile at Vic, genuine or not I couldn't tell. "Hi, you must be the boyfriend." He said happily, holding his hand out for Vic to shake, I think I saw hurt cross Vic's face at the fact a handsome and shirtless guy just waltzed out of the same door I did and he was on a first name basis with me. Vic shook his hand though with a big bright white smile on his face and a curt nod.

I felt awkward, although Taylor was being polite and respectful and not hinting that anything had gone on between us I felt like Vic knew, I could sense he knew, but he didn't show it at all.

"Er, Vic this is Taylor, he helped me out when I was in trouble, Tay this is Vic, my boyfriend." I dragged the word out, loving the taste of it, the sound of it.

"Hey." Taylor greeted again, Vic nodded again and I bit my lip feeling a bit awkward. Taylor looked at me confused as if to ask what was wrong with Vic and why he wasn't talking, I just shook my head. "Er, I'll give you guys a minute," Taylor said awkwardly "don't leave without saying goodbye, you." He nudged me with a small smile and I nodded, smiling back, I watched him retreat back inside and then I turned back to Vic.

"Are you okay?" I asked, searching his face for something to tell me he wasn't. He nodded with a small smile. "No you're not, Vic, what is it?" I asked caressing his face, he looked down and shrugged. I laughed a little and he looked up briefly, furrowing his eyebrows.

"You expected differently," I shook my head "you made this situation absolutely perfect in your head and now you're disappointed," I knew it, for some reason I began to get angry, he hasn't done anything to make me mad or anything of the sort but I felt so frustrated, "well I'm very fucking sorry okay, damn." I threw my arms up in defeat accompanying it with an exasperated sigh. He didn't lift his gaze from his shoes that repeatedly scuffed the pavement beneath our feet.

"Your mom tried to force me to tell Mike..." He mumbled and I sighed again, he was so good at distracting me from my bad feelings.

"About us?" I asked, a fraction of hurt following through into my tone. He nodded his head. "Shit." I muttered.

"I didn't," he clarified, "her exact words were 'you're going to tell him what's been going on, and then you'll find my daughter and bring her back here, and then you'll leave.'" My mouth fell open all by itself.

"Fuck," I expressed "what the fuck." I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"I considered it," he explained, "I mean it's the good thing to do, it's the honourable thing to do...but I know I'm far from honourable..."

"Oi," I frowned and pulled him into a hug "you're a good brother okay? We can't help the way we feel okay, you didn't choose to fall for your brothers girl, just like I didn't choose to fall for my boyfriends brother but here we are and it's not an ideal situation I know," he sighed and nodded in agreement and I continued, my tone calmer and softer this time, "but its you right here, not Mike, do you see Mike out searching for me, adamant to find me?" He smiled a little like I was making him feel better. I liked that.

"It's going to be okay isn't it?" He raised an eyebrow, his chocolate eyes more sad than usual.

"Damn straight it is." I smiled and kissed him softly, he smiled too, I liked that I could make him do that. "I'll just got say goodbye to Taylor and we can go anywhere you want okay?" He kissed me again and then nodded. I pulled out of his grip and headed towards the door to go tell Taylor goodbye.

"Leda?" I turned back around.

"Yeah?" I asked his voice was small and he looked a little awkward when he spoke.

"I forgive you. It's okay." I frowned for a second, wondering what he was talking about and then I saw his gaze wander to the door of Taylor's apartment block and it clicked instantly. He was forgiving me for sleeping with Taylor, he knew, he knew me so well he just figured it out and he was forgiving me. My heart broke a little and I swallowed past the lump that was becoming huge in my throat. I nodded, slightly blushing, pretty ashamed of myself but grateful he was forgiving me.

I turned back around and headed inside, his words heavy on my shoulders, making the lump in my throat grow with every breath. I was so angry with myself, why the hell did I have to ruin everything that was perfect? Me and Mike were fine and I fucked it up by falling for Vic, and then Vic and I were perfect (to the point he travelled all of this way to find me) and I'd fucked that up too. How could he forgive me? Hell I didn't even forgive myself.

"Taylor?" I called out as I stepped over the threshold.

"Hi," he smiled as he came from another room and emerged into the one I was standing it. "All set to go?" He asked, his shirt still absent, his abs still publicly teasing me.

"Yup, I just came to say goodbye," I shrugged awkwardly, "and thank you of course." He dismissed me with a wave of his hand and a roll of his eyes.

"Leda you don't have to thank me, it was nothing." He replied modestly.

"It wasn't nothing, god knows what would have happened if you weren't there." I shuddered at the thought and he took a few steps closer to me.

"Well you're welcome," he whispered "any time." My heart rate accelerated and I hated that he still had that effect on me when Vic was downstairs waiting for me. He took a few steps forward so we were inches away from one another, he looked down to me and I looked up, our eyes locked on one another, blue to green.

"Don't." I whispered, seeing it written all over his face.

"What?" He whispered back, his voice less smooth than usual.

"You're going to ask me to stay, don't." I replied, closing my eyes to cut the sexual tension but it only made me feel it more strongly and once I opened them again it was still there.

"Damn, Vic is one lucky guy." He smirked sexily and I bit my lip.

"Goodbye Taylor." I spoke up this time, just so I seemed in control, like I'd made up my mind for real and there was no changing it.

"Until we meet again." He cocked an eyebrow and the left side of his face was smiling.

"Maybe." I shrugged trying to play it cool.

"Take care of yourself." He ordered softly and I nodded.

"You too, and make it your mission to see your daughter more often, you don't want to miss out on her life, trust me." I replied thinking of my own dad. "Thank you once again." I smiled and turned for the door, my heart feeling a little heavy. Although I could live without Taylor and I knew it, he was a distractions, this whole place was, nothing mattered here, not the past or the future, it was here and now and it went from moment to moment, nobody really knew me or my issues or problems and it made me not want to leave.

"Goodbye Leda." Taylor breathed and I held my hand up as a kind of backwards wave.

It's fine Leda, you're doing the right thing, it's okay, it's okay.

"Good to go," I faked a smile once I got back to Vic, "where to, ace?" A smile reappeared on his face at my ridiculous nickname.

"Can we go somewhere to just talk? I've missed you." He admitted and then blushed a little and my heart melted.

"Sure!" I agreed because I knew I could listen to his voice forever.

Yes, this was right, this was how it was supposed to be.

Until we get back home and all hell breaks lose.

Notes

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