ADRIANNA’S P.O.V I started radiation about a week ago and I thought that before I started to lose my hair that I should tell the rest of Sleeping with Sirens about my cancer. I hopped out of my bunk to be face to face with Copeland. She pushed me against the wall causing me to slam my head on the bathroom door. “That will teach you to stay out of my way Perry” I wiped a small tear away. I wasn’t about to show her how much pain she had caused me over the years. “You ever think for just one minute that someone could actually be going through something bad? Do you even try to see how much you hurt people? You could be bullying someone who could die at any given moment!” I shouted not loud enough for anyone but her to hear. She just laughed and pushed me again. “I would know if I was bullying someone who was going to die and no I could care less if someone was going through something bad” With that she walked away. I shrugged her off my shoulder and got ready for the day. As I was brushing my hair I noticed a big bald spot on the top of my head and a clump of hair in the brush. Great, just fucking great I guess it is hat day. I called my dad into the bathroom with me. “Are you okay Sweet Pea?” I shook my head and cried into his chest. “No I am not First Copeland and now my fucking hair” My dad was the only one besides Evan that knew about Copeland and her bullying. He talked to Copeland about it multiple times but she didn’t listen. “Baby it will be okay ignore Copeland and maybe think about telling The rest of SWS about your cancer that way it will be easier to explain when the rest of your hair decides to come out” I nodded and went back to getting ready for the day. I decided to wear the necklace that my mom gave to me right after I started radiation it used to be my grandmothers before she passed away. I only wear it when I want to feel close with her and that is usually when I am sad. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=91927546 I was listening to my favorite band Of Mice And Men in my bunk thinking about if I should tell SWS of not. “Hey sweetie whatcha thinking about?” My mom asked as she got in the bunk with me. Everyone was out at the venue getting ready for the show. “Thinking about if I should tell the rest of SWS about my cancer before I start losing the rest of my hair or not” She sighed. “Well go with your heart I mean they have already gotten suspicious when you go to the hospital twice a week for 3 hours” I nodded I was going to tell them before they went on stage. “I am going to tell them before they go on the stage today. And mom I have already started to lose my hair” I took off my beanie to show her the bald spot on my head. She hugged me before hopping out of the bunk. “I love you Addy You are the strongest 16 year old that I know” I smiled and went back to listening to OHIOISONFIRE by Of Mice And Men. We were all sitting in the lounge area waiting for the time when the guys would have to go out and preform when I decided that I should tell them. “Umm could I talk to everyone for a minute?” I asked and my dad and Uncles looked at me knowing just what I was about to say. Jesse nodded and Copeland rolled her eyes and laughed. “Yeah sure what’s up?” Kellin asked as Evan sat next to me. He put an arm around me for support. “Umm well you are all probably wondering why I have been disappearing for three hours at a time every week and why I have been wearing a hat everyday” They all focused their attention onto what I was saying. “Yeah why is that? I miss my partner in crime” Justin said and I chuckled. “Well I have cancer I have had it since I was 10 and I am sorry that I didn’t tell you guys I just wanted to be treated normally” I wiped a tear from my eye and noticed Copeland looking at me with sad sympathetic eyes. “I am so sorry that I treated you so bad for all these years I had no idea I am so sorry” She spoke up and Kellin looked at her. “you bullied her? You are the one she was talking about when she came to our house crying because a girl at school called her names and pushed her into lockers?” I would run home crying and if my dad wasn’t there I would go to Kellin’s and talk to him. He didn’t know it was Copeland he only knew it was a girl at school only my dad knew who the girl was. Copeland nodded and apologized again. “I am so sorry Adrianna I really wish there was something that we could do that would make it go away but we can’t” Gabe said. “There is nothing you can do that will make it go away but there is something that you could do that will make me feel a hell of a lot better” “And what would that be?” jack asked “Play a kick ass show” I yelled and was swarmed by hugs.

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