maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
this world is about to change
Friday. I got up as usual, took a shower as usual, and although I felt terribly fat, I felt something weird that I haven't felt before... I felt pretty. It actually impressed me. I straightened my hair and put a little makeup. Black pants, purple vans, black Rolling Stones shirt, purse, headed to work. It wasn't an interesting day. Around 2pm, my phone buzzed. I hoped it was Mike. I missed him. I wanted to see him. I wanted him to text me, it felt good when he did, I felt like somebody cared about me. Even though I wanted to talk to him, just to hear his voice, or even a text, something, I couldn't text him first, I felt like an annoying burden, and I didn't wanted to bother him. Anyway. I grabbed my phone filled with hope, just to see that the text message was from Sarah. I was kinda disappointed, but fuck, Gina, you always want to be the center of attention, he doesn't even care about you, he's doing something much more important, he's busy with his things and the band, stop trying to seek attention, you stupid. Sarah wanted to know if I wanted to go to to watch a movie with her tonight. There was a showing of IronMan 3 today, and she had a huge crush with Robert Downey Jr. I have to admit that he is pretty hot. I said yes to the offer, since it's been a while that we don't hang out alone.
At 5 she was outside the shop. She took a taxi to there so we can use my car tonight. We headed to the theater, got out tickets and just went into that huge room with no many people inside. Half an hour after the movie started, my phone vibrated on my pocket. Concentrated in the movie, I saw I got a text from Mike. I smiled wide and I opened it, while I tried to watch what's happening with Tony Stark. But my attention abruptly changed when I read the message. ''Today Vic asked me, and I thought about this a little more, and I don't want to not be able to say that you're my girlfriend, at least if it bothers you, I think it'd be the best... I don't know, what do you think?'' my heart skipped a beat, I was smiling like an idiot and forgot I was watching a movie. I was so happy, like, he was asking me to be his girlfriend? Mike fucking Fuentes girlfriend? Jesus.
''It doesn't bother to me at all, but, like, are you asking me to be your girlfriend?'' Yes, I asked that, even though I knew it was very stupid, I wasn't sure if all this thing that was happening was real. Waiting for an answer, my heart raised, my blood burned under my skin, I wanted him to write faster, I wanted to know that answer. I already knew the answer, but I wanted to make sure I wasn't dreaming, it was real, and it was happening to me. My phone vibrated again, my hands were shaking. I unlocked it as fast as I could, but very awkwardly because I couldn't coordinate the movements of my fingers so well due the shaking.
''Yeah, I want to be able to say that you're my girlfriend, why complicate things? I want to say everyone that you're mine and how much I love you <3'' When I finished reading that message my whole body was shaking, and a happy tear rolled down my face. Seriously? Finally, a boy that I liked, liked me back? My first reaction was to hug Sarah, considerating that because of her making out with some boy at that party, I met Mike. She whispered in a kinda funny tone ''what the fuck, G?'' and I just sat there normally again, watching the movie with a huge smile on my face ''I'll tell you later'' I said. I felt amazing. When I calmed down a little, I responded him ''asdfasdfasd omg, thank you, thank you for making me feel good. I love you too, Mike <3'' I thought my response was a little too lame, but it didn't mattered to me. I was happy and made.
When the movie ended, Sarah wanted to go dinner. Although I was starving, I didn't wanted to eat anything, the last few days I've been feeling pretty disgusting. We went to a McDonalds drive-thru and ordered a hamburger for her. I just said her that I wasn't hungry yet, and that I ate a lot at work that afternoon and that was enough for her to stop asking. As she ate her thing I told her the story with Mike. She fangirled a little but I could see some kind of sadness in her eyes. She had a hard times with boyfriends in the past, not many, she's more a one-night stand kind of girl, so I guess that seeing me so happy kinda put her down. I just changed the subjet and everything went out normaly. Later, I lifted to her house and went to mine. I couldn't get Mike off of my head. I loved him. It was very fast to say those things, and I was aware of that, but fuck it, I loved him. I tried to sleep but I just couldn't. It was now 3am and I was just lying there looking at the ceiling, wanting Mike to be with me, cuddling, making out, whatever, I just wanted him by my side. Like if I called him with my mind, a text made my phone buzz. ''I had a nightmare and now I can't sleep. Hi. I love you.'' I found it very cute, even when he took all sigh of sleep that I had. We started texting normally, goofy and romantic, but this time, I felt like he did that because he actually wanted me. We decided to spend the sunday together.
On sunday, when I opened the door to my house, it was a completely new experience. It was Mike, just standing there normally, but he was my boyfriend now. I felt happiness in my body again, after so long it was gone. And we just spend the afternoon, a very sunny afternoon, in my house's roof, just there, laughing, making out, having tickle fights, cuddling, enjoying each other's company. I felt safe in his arms. And I started dreaming about my future with him, living together, getting married, spending lazy saturdays together, cooking for him. I felt stupid for thinking those things after a week of being in ''something'' with this guy, but it didn't mattered to me. I took the chance of being wrong. I was just happy like that.
At 5 she was outside the shop. She took a taxi to there so we can use my car tonight. We headed to the theater, got out tickets and just went into that huge room with no many people inside. Half an hour after the movie started, my phone vibrated on my pocket. Concentrated in the movie, I saw I got a text from Mike. I smiled wide and I opened it, while I tried to watch what's happening with Tony Stark. But my attention abruptly changed when I read the message. ''Today Vic asked me, and I thought about this a little more, and I don't want to not be able to say that you're my girlfriend, at least if it bothers you, I think it'd be the best... I don't know, what do you think?'' my heart skipped a beat, I was smiling like an idiot and forgot I was watching a movie. I was so happy, like, he was asking me to be his girlfriend? Mike fucking Fuentes girlfriend? Jesus.
''It doesn't bother to me at all, but, like, are you asking me to be your girlfriend?'' Yes, I asked that, even though I knew it was very stupid, I wasn't sure if all this thing that was happening was real. Waiting for an answer, my heart raised, my blood burned under my skin, I wanted him to write faster, I wanted to know that answer. I already knew the answer, but I wanted to make sure I wasn't dreaming, it was real, and it was happening to me. My phone vibrated again, my hands were shaking. I unlocked it as fast as I could, but very awkwardly because I couldn't coordinate the movements of my fingers so well due the shaking.
''Yeah, I want to be able to say that you're my girlfriend, why complicate things? I want to say everyone that you're mine and how much I love you <3'' When I finished reading that message my whole body was shaking, and a happy tear rolled down my face. Seriously? Finally, a boy that I liked, liked me back? My first reaction was to hug Sarah, considerating that because of her making out with some boy at that party, I met Mike. She whispered in a kinda funny tone ''what the fuck, G?'' and I just sat there normally again, watching the movie with a huge smile on my face ''I'll tell you later'' I said. I felt amazing. When I calmed down a little, I responded him ''asdfasdfasd omg, thank you, thank you for making me feel good. I love you too, Mike <3'' I thought my response was a little too lame, but it didn't mattered to me. I was happy and made.
When the movie ended, Sarah wanted to go dinner. Although I was starving, I didn't wanted to eat anything, the last few days I've been feeling pretty disgusting. We went to a McDonalds drive-thru and ordered a hamburger for her. I just said her that I wasn't hungry yet, and that I ate a lot at work that afternoon and that was enough for her to stop asking. As she ate her thing I told her the story with Mike. She fangirled a little but I could see some kind of sadness in her eyes. She had a hard times with boyfriends in the past, not many, she's more a one-night stand kind of girl, so I guess that seeing me so happy kinda put her down. I just changed the subjet and everything went out normaly. Later, I lifted to her house and went to mine. I couldn't get Mike off of my head. I loved him. It was very fast to say those things, and I was aware of that, but fuck it, I loved him. I tried to sleep but I just couldn't. It was now 3am and I was just lying there looking at the ceiling, wanting Mike to be with me, cuddling, making out, whatever, I just wanted him by my side. Like if I called him with my mind, a text made my phone buzz. ''I had a nightmare and now I can't sleep. Hi. I love you.'' I found it very cute, even when he took all sigh of sleep that I had. We started texting normally, goofy and romantic, but this time, I felt like he did that because he actually wanted me. We decided to spend the sunday together.
On sunday, when I opened the door to my house, it was a completely new experience. It was Mike, just standing there normally, but he was my boyfriend now. I felt happiness in my body again, after so long it was gone. And we just spend the afternoon, a very sunny afternoon, in my house's roof, just there, laughing, making out, having tickle fights, cuddling, enjoying each other's company. I felt safe in his arms. And I started dreaming about my future with him, living together, getting married, spending lazy saturdays together, cooking for him. I felt stupid for thinking those things after a week of being in ''something'' with this guy, but it didn't mattered to me. I took the chance of being wrong. I was just happy like that.
Notes
Just a short filler, sorry.Aaaaand, sorry if my vocabulary it's not big, I notice I always use the same fucking words and that makes me kinda angry. I'm trying to look for new expressions, I'm doing my best :3
But keep tuned because there's more drama ahead c:
thank you for reading, I really appreciate it :D
8/13/13