I sat on the couch and Tony sat down next to me. He looked at me in the eyes. "Are you going to keep your promise?" He asked me. Oh god, I hate lying to him but I have to. But maybe i'm not lying to him. Maybe I will actually stop.. I shook my head yes and Tony smiled. Tony hugged me and we held each other for a long time. Vic came out of his room "Hey Tony you ready to practice?" "Yeah um sure." He replied. "Chloey you wanna come watch us practice?" Tony asked me. I saw Vic starting to look a little nervous. "I will only if Vic and you guys want me to. Is it cool with you if I watch?" "Sure." I could still tell he was nervous but he said yes so I got up to go listen to them. We went to the basement, to describe what it looked like well there was a lot of equipment, a place where they can play there music, there was a mini fridge in there, and a small couch to sit on. I sat on the couch. "What songs do you guys want to play?" Vic asked them. "How about Match Into Water?" Tony asked. The band agreed on that song. Mike and them started playing then Vic started singing.
Let's go!

I kissed the scars on her skin
I still think you're beautiful
And I don't ever want to lose my best friend.
I screamed out, "God, you vulture,
Bring her back or take me with her"

I payed so close attention the lyrics. The beginning got to me. I felt the tears start to form. So much crying today.. I tried to keep my mind off of crying.. I then felt kind of cold and realized that Vics voice gave me the goose bumps. I fell in love with his voice. It was so amazing. I look at Tony and he could tell that I love Vic's voice. I could tell he gets a little jealous. I went back at staring at Vic singing. His voice was just so beautiful.

Tear it down, break the barricade
I want to see what sound it makes
I hate this flavor with a passion and I fucking hate the aftertaste

How does it feel? How does it feel?
Well it feels like I'm on fire!
Wake up, I know you can hear me.

These lyrics are so good and inspiring.... I sit there and just listen to the music, it starts to relax me. I close my eyes and then all I know is I'm asleep. I had a dream that Mike and I got into a fight and everyone took Mikes side. I didn't know what I did wrong. I left and ran off. I didn't know where I was going. I was just so depressed because no one really wanted me there. Not even Tony. They didn't care for me, They didn't care if I was alive or not. I ran to a far away place and found a razor blade. I worked up the courage to slit my throat... I didn't want to be here anymore because I lost all my friends. All of them. I suddenly woke up. I didn't realize where I was so I got up. I thought to my self I thought tonight was going to be a cut free night.. that dream just gave me the creeps.. it made me sad.. I walked up the stairs and went to the couch I saw Vic watching tv. I flopped down on the end of the couch. "Hey sleepy head, did are music bore you?" "No, no it didn't it was beautiful, amazing I loved every second of it. I just was so tired from crying all day, Wheres Tony and Jaime?" I asked. "They left about an hour ago Tony told me to tell you bye and to remember the promise..." "Oh.. yea the promise." I said looking down. "Hey whats wrong?" Vic asked. "Nothing... Can I take a shower...?" I asked. "Yea sure." Vic said smiling at me. I smiled back with my fake ugly smile. I went over to my stuff and looked for my clothes to change in. I grabbed some underwear, a bra, some skinny jeans and a sweater. I also grabbed my body wash and stuff from home. I grabbed my razor blades and hid them under my clothes. I was walking to the bathroom and didn't notice that they fell out of under my clothes. I got in to the bathroom and set my clothes on the counter and set my body wash and stuff in the shower. I stripped naked and got in to the shower I turned it on it was really cold but got warm really fast. I washed everything that needed to be washed and then I was thinking about the dream. I was in the shower for a good 15 minutes. I got out of the shower and realized I forgot a towel. Fuck, how am I going to get a towel now. I looked at my dirty clothes on the ground but no I didn't want to dry off with those I just washed my self. So I yelled for Vic.

Vic's POV
"Vic!" I hear Chloey yell. I got up and walked to the bathroom. I noticed a rectangle-ish shape on the ground I looked at it for a minute then realized what it actually was it was a razor holder... These aren't Mikes cause mike doesn't do this.. They aren't mine I haven't touched mine in over 6 months. I remembered stopping Chloey in the hospital today. There probably hers. I picked it up and put it in my pocket. I went to the bathroom. Chloey opened the door a little bit hiding her body behind the door and asked me to get her a towel. I went and got her a towel. I knocked on the bathroom door "Chloey when your done in here meet me in the basement. I need to talk to you.." I looked at her with a sad expression on my face.. I walked away and went to the basement.

Chloeys POV
I got kinda worried about meeting him in the basement. But it could be nothing I decided and just acted like it was nothing to worry about. I dried off and then looked through my clothes for my razors. I couldn't find them. I flipped my clothes around and looked under everything but I could not find them. Did I really grab my razors? I asked my self. I'm pretty sure I did. I started to worry again. I tried to calm down, I put my clothes on and put my hair in a pony tail then went to the basement to meet Vic. "Hey.." I said as I was walking down the stairs. I walked up to the couch and sat down. Vic scooted closer to me and grabbed my arms. He pulled up my sleeves and looked at the top of my arms and my wrists. He looked at both of them. They were ugly, like so ugly I started to cry, I didn't feel scared I felt worried. I wondered if he found my razors. He just sat there looking at my arms. "How long have you been doing this.." Vic asked. I had to be honest with him. "Since I was 12 so its been 3 years..." "Why are you doing this.." I sighed, "I hate my life, I hate my self i'm just so ugly, No one cares for me. I even had a dream today when I fell asleep down here that you guys stopped caring and we got into a fight and I left and killed my self and you guys didn't even care at all. But that's what I figure anyways if I kill my self which hopefully will be soon.." "Chloey, stop.." Vic said, his eyes teary. He pulled up his sleeves and showed me his arms. "Your not the only one.. I've self harmed before. I wanted to give up but then I found out that Mike looked up to me so I stopped for him and learned to wait, things do get better..And it may seem like forever but sooner or later things will fall right back into place." Vic pulled his sleeves down and wiped my tears away. I didn't even think I was crying. He hugged me tightly. "You are going to win this battle, and we will all be by your side when you do it." he pulled away from the hug and told me how he found the razor holder. Vic also made me promise that I wouldn't go back to the razor. And of course I lied. I know where and how to get more if I really needed it. I really was starting to like Vic, but I couldn't show it because I didn't want to hurt him by lying to him. I hugged him one more time and got up to walk out of the room. I turned around "Vic, how am I gonna go to school tomorrow I have stitches in my head, and I really don't feel like going." "I don't think you have to.. Me, Mike, Jaime, or Tony will skip school to come hang out with you, cause we will do anything for you." What Vic said made me smile really big. I just wanted to kiss him. "Thank you Vic," I laughed "I love you guys." "Yea, we love you too." I remembered what Tony said. "I know we just met but it feels like an eternity that we have know each other." I left the room smiling. I walked up the stairs and saw Mike. "What are you so happy about." Mike teased like he thought me and Vic did something. I forgot my mom passed away today so what he said didn't really bother me. "Nothing, your brother and you guys are just so nice." I smiled and went to lay down on the couch. I was still tired. Mike came in, "Hey do you mind if I watch tv?" "I don't care its your house.." I said moving my feet so he could sit. He put on a random show and soon I fell asleep.

Notes

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That's the outfit shes wearing ^.^ Ill try and do more tomorrow its like 5 am here where i am so ill write more tomorrow. c: hope you guys like this chapter <3