You've Got Your Head in the Clouds
Tell Me That You Love Me Cause I Need You So Much
I carried Luna on my hip while I walked through the front door of the hospital. This couldn't be real. This couldn't be happening. I just lost Anakin, I can't lose Mike too. I pushed my way past people and up to the front desk.
"Michael Fuentes?" I shifted Luna onto the opposite hip.
"Take the elevator to the second floor. He'll be in room 23A."
Tony walked beside me and pressed the elevator button, both of us walking in when it opened. When we got to Mike's floor, Vic was waiting outside the door of his room.
"Vicky, I'll take Luna. You don't want her to go in there right now." He said quietly before taking her from me. "Tone, come with me? Vicky needs to talk to him."
I peeked my head into the room and saw a frustrated looking Mike laying in the bed with his arms crossed over his chest.
"Finally someone who isn't retarded. Victoria what's going on? I mean I know whats going on but...they told me we got in a fight and I got drunk and drove into a truck or something. Why'd we get in a fight?" He rambled.
"You don't remember?" I whispered as I took a seat next to his bed, placing my left hand in his.
"No, I don't know anything. The last thing I remember we were on the Selfish Machines tour." he shook his head and stared at me with desperate eyes.
"Mike, that was five years ago..." I mumbled. That meant he didn't remember anything about us. He wouldn't remember our wedding. He wouldn't remember Luna. He wouldn't remember Anni.
"What?" His eyes went wide. I just nodded with tears in my eyes. "So you're telling me I don't remember anything?" I didn't say anything. He rubbed his thumb over my hands then looked down at it suddenly.
"I won't remember your wedding. I bet you looked gorgeous Vicky. Who's the lucky guy?"
A sob escaped my throat and I stood up and walked out of the room, sinking down against the wall as I listened to Mike calling after me. He didn't remember a thing. I stood up, composed myself and walked into the room again, taking my seat beside him for the second time.
"I'll tell you about him" I smiled. I couldn't let him know that my heart was breaking. He just nodded and waited for me to begin. "I've known him since high school, he's absolutely wonderful. Everything I could ever need. We have a big house together in south San Diego. He's covered in tattoos-"
"Just like you"
"Just like me. He always wears snapbacks because he thinks he's going bald." I rolled my eyes as I remembered him whining about it one day, something he would never remember. "We had two kids. Twins, a boy and a girl. Their names were Anakin and Luna."
"Star Wars? Really?" He laughed at me. I laughed along with him.
"I named him after Tony. His name was Anakin Antonio Fu- Anakin Antonio." I caught myself just as I said the last name. Mike didn't even notice. "My husband named Luna. Luna Alexandria because Luna's his favorite name."
"You keep saying was and had...Vicky, what happened bub?"
"We lost Anakin during the night a month ago. He stopped breathing in his sleep. The twins were born on
August 23rd, 2012 and he passed September 14th, 2014. He was three years old."
"I'm so sorry bubby" He whispered. "What's your husbands name?"
"H-his name?" I stuttered. He nodded, a smile playing on the edge of his lips. "His name is Michael Christopher Fuentes."
"We..."
"We did" I nodded slowly and felt a tear slide down my cheek.
"And the twins?"
"They're yours baby" I heard my voice crack at the last second.
"Is Luna?..."
"You wanna see her? We just went to see my dad and Anni when Vic called me. She's in the waiting
room."
"No" He said quickly. "I mean, I want to talk to you for a bit. I don't remember..." He took a deep breath and rubbed his face. "Just...tell me everything"
"Everything?" I looked at him skeptically.
"Everything. All the good and all the bad. I want it all."
~
I slammed my body down on Tony's couch, exhausted. I was still going to stay here because I couldn't bear to be at home. Not with everything going on. Luna was asleepin in Tony's guest room and Tony was asleep in his own room. It had taken hours to explain everything to Mike. I showed him my tattoos and told him their meanings. I showed him some of his too. I told him how he proposed to me and how we had a Star Wars wedding. He looked happy, but he felt off, like he wasn't happy that this was how he ended up. That's the part that worried me. He didn't want me anymore, just like I said he would in the beginning, he regretted his life. He did want to be a part in Luna's life though. He said he was going to stay at Vic's for a while, just to get his mind straight. But let's face it, we were meant to be broken.
"Michael Fuentes?" I shifted Luna onto the opposite hip.
"Take the elevator to the second floor. He'll be in room 23A."
Tony walked beside me and pressed the elevator button, both of us walking in when it opened. When we got to Mike's floor, Vic was waiting outside the door of his room.
"Vicky, I'll take Luna. You don't want her to go in there right now." He said quietly before taking her from me. "Tone, come with me? Vicky needs to talk to him."
I peeked my head into the room and saw a frustrated looking Mike laying in the bed with his arms crossed over his chest.
"Finally someone who isn't retarded. Victoria what's going on? I mean I know whats going on but...they told me we got in a fight and I got drunk and drove into a truck or something. Why'd we get in a fight?" He rambled.
"You don't remember?" I whispered as I took a seat next to his bed, placing my left hand in his.
"No, I don't know anything. The last thing I remember we were on the Selfish Machines tour." he shook his head and stared at me with desperate eyes.
"Mike, that was five years ago..." I mumbled. That meant he didn't remember anything about us. He wouldn't remember our wedding. He wouldn't remember Luna. He wouldn't remember Anni.
"What?" His eyes went wide. I just nodded with tears in my eyes. "So you're telling me I don't remember anything?" I didn't say anything. He rubbed his thumb over my hands then looked down at it suddenly.
"I won't remember your wedding. I bet you looked gorgeous Vicky. Who's the lucky guy?"
A sob escaped my throat and I stood up and walked out of the room, sinking down against the wall as I listened to Mike calling after me. He didn't remember a thing. I stood up, composed myself and walked into the room again, taking my seat beside him for the second time.
"I'll tell you about him" I smiled. I couldn't let him know that my heart was breaking. He just nodded and waited for me to begin. "I've known him since high school, he's absolutely wonderful. Everything I could ever need. We have a big house together in south San Diego. He's covered in tattoos-"
"Just like you"
"Just like me. He always wears snapbacks because he thinks he's going bald." I rolled my eyes as I remembered him whining about it one day, something he would never remember. "We had two kids. Twins, a boy and a girl. Their names were Anakin and Luna."
"Star Wars? Really?" He laughed at me. I laughed along with him.
"I named him after Tony. His name was Anakin Antonio Fu- Anakin Antonio." I caught myself just as I said the last name. Mike didn't even notice. "My husband named Luna. Luna Alexandria because Luna's his favorite name."
"You keep saying was and had...Vicky, what happened bub?"
"We lost Anakin during the night a month ago. He stopped breathing in his sleep. The twins were born on
August 23rd, 2012 and he passed September 14th, 2014. He was three years old."
"I'm so sorry bubby" He whispered. "What's your husbands name?"
"H-his name?" I stuttered. He nodded, a smile playing on the edge of his lips. "His name is Michael Christopher Fuentes."
"We..."
"We did" I nodded slowly and felt a tear slide down my cheek.
"And the twins?"
"They're yours baby" I heard my voice crack at the last second.
"Is Luna?..."
"You wanna see her? We just went to see my dad and Anni when Vic called me. She's in the waiting
room."
"No" He said quickly. "I mean, I want to talk to you for a bit. I don't remember..." He took a deep breath and rubbed his face. "Just...tell me everything"
"Everything?" I looked at him skeptically.
"Everything. All the good and all the bad. I want it all."
~
I slammed my body down on Tony's couch, exhausted. I was still going to stay here because I couldn't bear to be at home. Not with everything going on. Luna was asleepin in Tony's guest room and Tony was asleep in his own room. It had taken hours to explain everything to Mike. I showed him my tattoos and told him their meanings. I showed him some of his too. I told him how he proposed to me and how we had a Star Wars wedding. He looked happy, but he felt off, like he wasn't happy that this was how he ended up. That's the part that worried me. He didn't want me anymore, just like I said he would in the beginning, he regretted his life. He did want to be a part in Luna's life though. He said he was going to stay at Vic's for a while, just to get his mind straight. But let's face it, we were meant to be broken.
IM CRYING I CANT EVEN WITH THIS STORY THE FEELS OMFG .
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