My phone rang for the fourth time in a row on the small table next to Tony's bed. I groaned, rolled over, and reached for the phone.

"Hello?" I said pressing it to my ear. God, I sounded groggy.

"Do you know where your husband is?" Vic huffed.

"Probably at Casey's" I answered.

"Look, I know he's an idiot and what he did was really fucked up. But you guys need to fix this. He's shit without you and the same for you-"

"I'm not talking about this right now. Like I said, he's probably at Casey's. I'll talk to you some other time, bye Vic" I tapped the end button and sighed loudly. "Tone I'm gonna go out on the balcony" he grumbled an alright and fell back asleep almost immediately. I pressed my phone to my ear after I sat down and dialed my moms number.

"Hey baby how're you doing?" she answered. I couldn't even get an answer out for her before I started crying. "What's wrong? What happened?"

"Mommy he cheated on me" I cried.

"What?!" she said surprised.

"He slept with his ex girlfriend. He did it right after Anni..."

"Oh honey what are you gonna-"

"So I slept with Tony. Mom what do I do?" I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around myself.

"Victoria! What made you think that was a good idea! You can be so stupid sometimes I swear!" she yelled at me.

"Mom you're not helping.." I let out a shaky breath, trying to calm myself down. I heard her let out an exasperated sigh and I could practically hear het rolling her eyes.

"So what are you doing?"

"Luna and I are staying at Tony's for now. I don't know what to do mom. I'm married to him. We have two kids-" I rested my forehead against my knees "We have a kid together. What can I do?"

"I don't know what to tell you baby, you both messed up pretty badly. Maybe you should ask daddy for help"

"I will later. I'm gonna go see Anni with Luna after I pick her up from school."

"How was getting her there this morning?" my mother asked.

"Really easy actually" I gave a small laugh "A lot easier then I expected."

"I remember your first day of kindergarten. You wouldn't let go of me to let me leave. Neither would Franky. Collin ran fom me as soon as his feet hit the ground. How are the boys holding up?"

"They're doing good. Franky landed a job at the record company Mike's band is signed to. Collin's almost done with school. You'd be so proud mommy" I smiled while I spoke. She really did love my brothers, she was just so afraid that they wouldn't forgive her for what she had done. "Speaking of which, I've got to go pick up Luna in a few minutes."

"Alright Tori, send Lulu kisses for me. Tell Anni and daddy I love and miss them."

"I will mom, I love you."

"I love you too baby, figure this out." she hung up and I stared out over the balcony.

After a few minutes i went back inside and started collecting my clothes, thinking as I did. Mike slept with Marilese. I slept with Tony. Why didn't I feel guilty even though I was just as wrong as Mike? When I got to the kitchen Tony was standing with a cup of coffee In his hands.

"Hey" I smiled at him.

"Hey, uhm, Vicky I-"

"Never happened. It's the only way." he just nodded and sipped his coffee. "I'm gonna go get Luna and we're gonna go see Anni and my dad, you wanna come?" I watched as his eyes clouded with tears.

"Yeah, I'll go" he said quietly.

~

Tony and I stood outside of Luna's school and waited for the kids to come rushing out around us. We got stares from the other parents and started quietly making jokes about being murderers.

"You're scarier looking then I am" I laughed bumping my hip against his as we walked.

"Nuh-Uh. You look like the bride of Frankenstein." he teased and started walking like a zombie.

"Why, thank you!" I slapped my hand onto my chest "I am flattered Antonio!"

The bell rang and all the little kids ran out towards there parents. I watched for Luna, but heard her before I saw her.

"Muuuuumaaaaa! Muuuumaa where are you!" I lookedin the direction of her voice and laughed. She was standing in the center of a group of kids with a concentrated look on her face as she scanned the people for me. "Tio Tortuga!" she screamed running towards Tony.

"Loony Lovegood!" Tony yelled picking her up and spinning her.

"Tio guess what I did in school today!" she said as we walked to the car. She was siting on top of Tony's shoulders playing with his hair.

"What?"

"Teacher asked what our Muma's and Poppa's did. I said Muma hurts people and colors on them. And Poppa makes really loud noise with mis tios."

"Well that was a perfect description Luna" he chuckled and placed her in the carseat.

"Muma where are we going?" she asked when she noticed we weren't headed in the direction of the house.

"To see Anni and Poppy"

"Do I have to talk to Anni the way I talk to Poppy now?" she said.

Tony looked over at me and smiled weakly.

"Yeah Lulu. Just like Poppy"

I pulled into the cemetery and parked next to the row that my father and son were buried in. When I went to open the door for Luna she ran over to Anakin's headstone as fast as she could, leaving Tony and I trailing behind.

"You're not worried?" Tony said nodding at the running girl.

"Nah, she knows where my dad is. Anakin is right behind him."

"I never came after..." he trailed off but I knew exactly what he meant.

"Me either" I whispered "I didn't even leave my bed."

"Neither did I" he wrapped his arm around my shoulder as we came up to Anakin's grave.

"...and I told her 'Muma, you have to save some for Anni' and she said she did but I think she didn't" Luna whispered. "I was telling him how you said you saved him Mac and cheese but I don't think you did"

"I'm sorry Lulu I forgot" I shook my head. "Why don't you go talk to Poppy?" she hopped up and ran over to the headstone with my maiden name on it.

I fell to my knees in front of the big stone that said "Anakin Antonio Fuentes. August 23rd, 2012 - September 14th, 2014 Rest in The Stars Above, Youngling". Tony sat beside me with his legs crossed, elbows on his knees and head I his hands.

"Hey Lil Tony" he said with a shaky voice. "Boy do I miss you kid. I watched episode 2 last night, your favorite. I thought about you the entire time. Especially when Obi-Wan finds out about the clone army and he fights Jenga Fett. That was your favorite part. I'm a mess without you. I have no one to watch nerd movies with. I wanted to see you grow up to bad. Mommy and Daddy miss you a lot too. Things have been really hard on them lately bud. We need ya down here Anni"

Tony was crying by the time he finished speaking. I was too. I leaned on his shoulder and took a deep breath.

"Hi baby. Sorry I haven't been here yet, I've been trying really hard to be okay. I'm better now, not great but I'm working on it" I smiled weakly at Tony "Daddy and I love you so much Anni. Sometimes we act like you're still there because we're silly. God, I miss you. I just wanna be able to wrap my arms around you and squeeze you so tight. I wanna be able to tickle you and hear your laugh again. I just want you back..."

Tony and I sat there for a little while in silence before we were interrupted by Tony's phone ringing.

"Hello?...yeah she is... I guess she left it in the car" That was true "yeah sure hold on. It's Vic" he said before handing me the phone.

"Yeah?"

"You need to get to the hospital now" he said hurriedly.

"What?" I said shocked.

"It's Mike. He was drinking and he didn't stop at a light. It's bad Vicky it's so bad."

"I-I'm coming" I said before hanging up. " Luna lets go!"

"But Muma-"

"Now!" I shouted and she ran up next to Tony and I as we walked back to the car.

"What's wrong?" Tony half whispered once we got Luna in the car.

"He was drinking and he didn't stop at a light and he got in an accident. Tony I can't lose him. I can't" I cried

"Gimme the keys. Let's go." I handed over the keys and climbed into the passenger seat, letting Tony find our way to te hospital. Everything went past the car in a whirl. Everything was falling apart