I Met The Love Of My Life.
Why Can't We Just Rewind?
I woke up to a pounding headache and a lightly snoring Cassie behind me. I honestly don’t remember much after I ran into Tony. I remember I full on kissed Telle and I drank a lot. I suddenly felt very nauseous and ran to the toilet to empty the contents of my stomach. About half way through I felt someone pull my hair back from my face, hand me a tissue and rub my back. I looked to the person comforting me to find that it was Tony. My face dropped and I felt my face go a bright red colour. Not only because I was wearing close to nothing, but because I was hungover, messy hair, half of my makeup still on my face and I’d just been sick. I weakly smiled to him before brushing my teeth and washing my face. He stood in the doorway with me, probably to make sure I wasn’t sick once again. I walked back into my room and he followed, I slipped on a jumper and we headed to the living room. It would appear I brought half of the party back with me.
“Fuck.” I mumbled, seeing Mike, Jaime, Vic, Telle all crashed out on my couch along with a few other people I’d just met last night. there was no Stephanie though. I grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge and handed one to Tony, who looked just about as rough as I did. I smiled to him as I handed him some aspirin, we both popped the pills and drank the majority of the water in the uncomfortable silence before finally he spoke up.
“I-uhh… Last night was good.” He finally said. I could feel his eyes burning into my skin.
“Uhm, from what I remember of it, I guess it was.” I slightly chuckled, looking up at him for the first time. I looked into his eyes and nearly melted. He came over towards me, engulfing me in a hug. I took in his scent. The scent I’d missed so much. I wrapped my arms around his torso and felt a tear slide down my face. I tried to hide my sobs but I’d accidentally let one free.
“Why are you crying?” he whispered.
I took hold of his hand and walked him into Cassie’s room and locked the door to it and sat down on her bed, patting the space next to me. He sat down and looked at me, really looked at me. It looked like he was studying every feature of my face. I didn’t know where to begin. I wanted to tell him how much he hurt me, how he was such an ass, but as soon as I looked into his eyes I couldn’t. I melted. I love this boy. It’s always been him. I’ve always loved him, and I’m in love with him. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Just as I thought I was getting over him.
“Ugh I feel like such a fucking idiot.” I laughed through my tears which were now streaming out of my eyes. I calmed down a little, with the help of Tony cooing me.
“Darling, you’ll be okay.” He smiled down to me and I smiled too. I let go of him and looked him in the eyes.
“Okay. I wanted so badly to hate you. I wanted to forget about you, let you be happy with Stephanie. I wanted to be over you. But as soon as I look into those beautiful god damned eyes of yours, I can’t help but melt. I love you Tony, I still love you. I’ve always loved you. I could never really get over you, I mean; you’re my first love, so obviously I knew it was going to be difficult. But with you, I felt like it was more than just a first love. I just, I don’t know how you can throw me away like I was nothing to you. Was I nothing to you? I want so badly to just let you be happy and forget about everything and start fresh, as new found friends, but I can’t. I can’t Tony. I want you to be my best friend in the whole world again, my boyfriend. Tell me Tony, how could you leave me like that? How could you do it? You were with her during your tour, did she even know about me?” I started bawling my eyes out again, starting to feel exhausted.
Tony took me into his arms and rocked me back and forth. I felt like a baby. But I needed to just let everything out.
“I’ve been so broken, Tony. I’ve tried to commit suicide 3 times. Each time Cass stopped me. I needed you Tony. I needed you.” I said barely above a whisper and he kissed my forehead.
“I know baby, I know. I’m sorry. I was an idiot. When I first cheated on you, I couldn’t forgive myself so I left you altogether. You didn’t deserve that, you are so much better than that. I wanted you to be happy, little lady. But I’ve only now realised that I hurt you worse. I don’t really love Steph. Well, I do, but not in the way I love you.” he said, still cuddling me.
My tears stopped a little and I looked up to his tear stained face also. His lips came towards mine and for a split second they brushed against mine. I pulled his neck down to kiss me again, this time with much more hunger. It was filled with all the emotion we needed to let out over these years. I straddled him and continued the kiss. Our tongues were fighting for dominance and his hands were gripping tightly on me whilst I was pulling his hair. If it wasn’t for a knock on the door, things would have gone so much further.
“Fuck. You have a girlfriend Tony!” I whisper yelled. My eyes went wide in realization of what I’d just done. I was the other girl I hated so much. Tony came to me and took me in his arms again, before opening the door. It was Cassie and Tony ran past her, out of my house. Typical Tony. Always running away.
“Fuck.” I mumbled, seeing Mike, Jaime, Vic, Telle all crashed out on my couch along with a few other people I’d just met last night. there was no Stephanie though. I grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge and handed one to Tony, who looked just about as rough as I did. I smiled to him as I handed him some aspirin, we both popped the pills and drank the majority of the water in the uncomfortable silence before finally he spoke up.
“I-uhh… Last night was good.” He finally said. I could feel his eyes burning into my skin.
“Uhm, from what I remember of it, I guess it was.” I slightly chuckled, looking up at him for the first time. I looked into his eyes and nearly melted. He came over towards me, engulfing me in a hug. I took in his scent. The scent I’d missed so much. I wrapped my arms around his torso and felt a tear slide down my face. I tried to hide my sobs but I’d accidentally let one free.
“Why are you crying?” he whispered.
I took hold of his hand and walked him into Cassie’s room and locked the door to it and sat down on her bed, patting the space next to me. He sat down and looked at me, really looked at me. It looked like he was studying every feature of my face. I didn’t know where to begin. I wanted to tell him how much he hurt me, how he was such an ass, but as soon as I looked into his eyes I couldn’t. I melted. I love this boy. It’s always been him. I’ve always loved him, and I’m in love with him. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Just as I thought I was getting over him.
“Ugh I feel like such a fucking idiot.” I laughed through my tears which were now streaming out of my eyes. I calmed down a little, with the help of Tony cooing me.
“Darling, you’ll be okay.” He smiled down to me and I smiled too. I let go of him and looked him in the eyes.
“Okay. I wanted so badly to hate you. I wanted to forget about you, let you be happy with Stephanie. I wanted to be over you. But as soon as I look into those beautiful god damned eyes of yours, I can’t help but melt. I love you Tony, I still love you. I’ve always loved you. I could never really get over you, I mean; you’re my first love, so obviously I knew it was going to be difficult. But with you, I felt like it was more than just a first love. I just, I don’t know how you can throw me away like I was nothing to you. Was I nothing to you? I want so badly to just let you be happy and forget about everything and start fresh, as new found friends, but I can’t. I can’t Tony. I want you to be my best friend in the whole world again, my boyfriend. Tell me Tony, how could you leave me like that? How could you do it? You were with her during your tour, did she even know about me?” I started bawling my eyes out again, starting to feel exhausted.
Tony took me into his arms and rocked me back and forth. I felt like a baby. But I needed to just let everything out.
“I’ve been so broken, Tony. I’ve tried to commit suicide 3 times. Each time Cass stopped me. I needed you Tony. I needed you.” I said barely above a whisper and he kissed my forehead.
“I know baby, I know. I’m sorry. I was an idiot. When I first cheated on you, I couldn’t forgive myself so I left you altogether. You didn’t deserve that, you are so much better than that. I wanted you to be happy, little lady. But I’ve only now realised that I hurt you worse. I don’t really love Steph. Well, I do, but not in the way I love you.” he said, still cuddling me.
My tears stopped a little and I looked up to his tear stained face also. His lips came towards mine and for a split second they brushed against mine. I pulled his neck down to kiss me again, this time with much more hunger. It was filled with all the emotion we needed to let out over these years. I straddled him and continued the kiss. Our tongues were fighting for dominance and his hands were gripping tightly on me whilst I was pulling his hair. If it wasn’t for a knock on the door, things would have gone so much further.
“Fuck. You have a girlfriend Tony!” I whisper yelled. My eyes went wide in realization of what I’d just done. I was the other girl I hated so much. Tony came to me and took me in his arms again, before opening the door. It was Cassie and Tony ran past her, out of my house. Typical Tony. Always running away.
Notes
Title credit: Rewind - Paolo NutiniVic story
Prequel to this story.
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