I Met The Love Of My Life.
I Used To Be Scared.
*** Tony's Pov ***
“Baby girl?” I shouted from the bottom of the stairs. When Alice hadn’t answered I sighed and walked upstairs. “Babe?” I said, to figure out what room she was in.
“In here.” I heard her croak out, her voice sounded like she’d been crying. I walked in to the room and figured she’d be in our walk in wardrobe. I walked over to it, hearing quite little sobs. I seen Alice sitting down, her hands over her face and sobbing.
“Now baby girl, what are you doing down here? And what are you crying for?” I said, coming down to her level. I sat down, scooped her up in my arms and sat her down in my lap. She put her face against my shirt almost automatically. “You wanna skip lunch before the doctor’s appointment and go after instead?” I felt her shake her head yes as she calmed her tears down a little.
“I can’t even curl up in a ball and cry because I’m so fucking fat and ugly.” She said, looking at me with tears in her eyes.
“Who said that?” I asked.
“No one… I just know I am.” She said, wiping her face with her (well, my) jumper sleeve.
“Hey, there better not be any boogers on that jumper if I ever get it back.” I joked and she chuckled a bit, “See, there’s that beautiful smile. Now baby, you are not fat – you are pregnant. That’s our beautiful baby girl in there, and she’s just getting really big because you’re already spoiling her with everything she needs. And as for being ugly, baby, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world.” I said, kissing her face everywhere, “Now, if your face was ugly, would I want to kiss it?”
She shook her head and laughed, “I love you Tony.” She kissed my lips and pulled away staring into my eyes, “You always know what to say.”
I stood up and took her hands, helping her stand up too. I told her I’d be downstairs if she needed me and that to come down when she’s changed and ready.
I was sitting downstairs flicking through my phone and answering emails when my baby came down stairs, “I’m ready, Tone.” She said, smiling.
She was wearing the Star Wars top she’s had for years, and she looked beautiful. “I hope our baby girl loves Star Wars just as much as we do.”
Alice looked at me like I was weird before laughing, “I’ll force her to, it’s okay.”
I laughed and shook my head, grabbing her hand as she followed me out of the door and to the doctor’s office. “Alice Webster?” the doctor called about 10 minutes after we got in. Alice and I stood up and I grabbed her hand, walking together until we got into her office. They took Alice’s blood pressure and what not and then finally, it was time for the scan. I’ve not been to any of the scans because I didn’t want to fall in love with the baby, to find out that it’s not mine. But, as Alice’s bump has grew, I figured ‘fuck it’, this baby will always be partly mine.
“So, it’s time for your last scan. Are you excited to meet your baby girl?” Doctor Rose asked.
Alice nodded eagerly, “We both are, I can’t wait to meet her, hold her. Eeeek!”
The doctor laughed at Alice before getting the ultra sound monitor closer to us and asking Alice to pick up her top to just under her breasts and pull her leggings down quite a bit. She put the gooey stuff on her stomach and as soon as the thing (I don’t know what it’s called) touched her stomach you heard the heartbeat of the baby, my baby. “My, she’s a big girl, Alice.” The doctor informed us.
“Takes after her dad then.” Alice smiled to me.
I looked at the screen and seen how cute she looked. I actually felt my eyes well up with tears. This beautiful, precious little girl could actually be mine. I couldn’t believe how much I adore her already. I just want to meet her, hold her, kiss her, cuddle her, be there for her, do everything for her, and stay up all night with her. I need to meet her, now.
The doctor took some pictures and Alice cleaned her stomach up and off we went to lunch. I drove us to an Italian restaurant, knowing it was probably something Alice would love right now. Italian food always cheers her up.
I got thinking about everything on the way there. I’ve always been so scared about messing up and about not being a good enough father, even if she wasn’t biologically mine. I was scared I wouldn’t be there enough, with Pierce the Veil being so big. I was scared I didn’t want her. But now I wasn’t scared, not one bit. Now, I want her so much. I love her so much. Nothing matters other than the safety, health and happiness of my two beautiful baby girls. I need them to be okay, and I’ll do anything to make sure they are always okay.
I parked the car and rushed round to the other side to help Alice out. “Thank you baby.” She said and I kissed her lips passionately and slowly, trying to savour every minute of it.
We walked into the restaurant and got a table for two immediately. The waitress took our drinks order and once we’d gotten them, we ordered the food too.
“Hey baby?” I asked Alice whilst she was taking a sip of her Diet Coke.
“Hmm?”
“Could I see one of the pictures of the scan?” I asked and she nodded, digging in her bag for a minute before handing me the little square shaped picture.
I stared and stared and stared for something to prove she was mine, but I couldn’t find anything. I won’t find anything until she’s physically in front of me. It doesn’t really make any difference to me but I really, really want her to be mine. I need her to be mine!
I just looked at the photo for ages, staring at my tiny baby girl. I couldn’t believe how much you could love someone you’ve not even met yet.
“Baby girl?” I shouted from the bottom of the stairs. When Alice hadn’t answered I sighed and walked upstairs. “Babe?” I said, to figure out what room she was in.
“In here.” I heard her croak out, her voice sounded like she’d been crying. I walked in to the room and figured she’d be in our walk in wardrobe. I walked over to it, hearing quite little sobs. I seen Alice sitting down, her hands over her face and sobbing.
“Now baby girl, what are you doing down here? And what are you crying for?” I said, coming down to her level. I sat down, scooped her up in my arms and sat her down in my lap. She put her face against my shirt almost automatically. “You wanna skip lunch before the doctor’s appointment and go after instead?” I felt her shake her head yes as she calmed her tears down a little.
“I can’t even curl up in a ball and cry because I’m so fucking fat and ugly.” She said, looking at me with tears in her eyes.
“Who said that?” I asked.
“No one… I just know I am.” She said, wiping her face with her (well, my) jumper sleeve.
“Hey, there better not be any boogers on that jumper if I ever get it back.” I joked and she chuckled a bit, “See, there’s that beautiful smile. Now baby, you are not fat – you are pregnant. That’s our beautiful baby girl in there, and she’s just getting really big because you’re already spoiling her with everything she needs. And as for being ugly, baby, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world.” I said, kissing her face everywhere, “Now, if your face was ugly, would I want to kiss it?”
She shook her head and laughed, “I love you Tony.” She kissed my lips and pulled away staring into my eyes, “You always know what to say.”
I stood up and took her hands, helping her stand up too. I told her I’d be downstairs if she needed me and that to come down when she’s changed and ready.
I was sitting downstairs flicking through my phone and answering emails when my baby came down stairs, “I’m ready, Tone.” She said, smiling.
She was wearing the Star Wars top she’s had for years, and she looked beautiful. “I hope our baby girl loves Star Wars just as much as we do.”
Alice looked at me like I was weird before laughing, “I’ll force her to, it’s okay.”
I laughed and shook my head, grabbing her hand as she followed me out of the door and to the doctor’s office. “Alice Webster?” the doctor called about 10 minutes after we got in. Alice and I stood up and I grabbed her hand, walking together until we got into her office. They took Alice’s blood pressure and what not and then finally, it was time for the scan. I’ve not been to any of the scans because I didn’t want to fall in love with the baby, to find out that it’s not mine. But, as Alice’s bump has grew, I figured ‘fuck it’, this baby will always be partly mine.
“So, it’s time for your last scan. Are you excited to meet your baby girl?” Doctor Rose asked.
Alice nodded eagerly, “We both are, I can’t wait to meet her, hold her. Eeeek!”
The doctor laughed at Alice before getting the ultra sound monitor closer to us and asking Alice to pick up her top to just under her breasts and pull her leggings down quite a bit. She put the gooey stuff on her stomach and as soon as the thing (I don’t know what it’s called) touched her stomach you heard the heartbeat of the baby, my baby. “My, she’s a big girl, Alice.” The doctor informed us.
“Takes after her dad then.” Alice smiled to me.
I looked at the screen and seen how cute she looked. I actually felt my eyes well up with tears. This beautiful, precious little girl could actually be mine. I couldn’t believe how much I adore her already. I just want to meet her, hold her, kiss her, cuddle her, be there for her, do everything for her, and stay up all night with her. I need to meet her, now.
The doctor took some pictures and Alice cleaned her stomach up and off we went to lunch. I drove us to an Italian restaurant, knowing it was probably something Alice would love right now. Italian food always cheers her up.
I got thinking about everything on the way there. I’ve always been so scared about messing up and about not being a good enough father, even if she wasn’t biologically mine. I was scared I wouldn’t be there enough, with Pierce the Veil being so big. I was scared I didn’t want her. But now I wasn’t scared, not one bit. Now, I want her so much. I love her so much. Nothing matters other than the safety, health and happiness of my two beautiful baby girls. I need them to be okay, and I’ll do anything to make sure they are always okay.
I parked the car and rushed round to the other side to help Alice out. “Thank you baby.” She said and I kissed her lips passionately and slowly, trying to savour every minute of it.
We walked into the restaurant and got a table for two immediately. The waitress took our drinks order and once we’d gotten them, we ordered the food too.
“Hey baby?” I asked Alice whilst she was taking a sip of her Diet Coke.
“Hmm?”
“Could I see one of the pictures of the scan?” I asked and she nodded, digging in her bag for a minute before handing me the little square shaped picture.
I stared and stared and stared for something to prove she was mine, but I couldn’t find anything. I won’t find anything until she’s physically in front of me. It doesn’t really make any difference to me but I really, really want her to be mine. I need her to be mine!
I just looked at the photo for ages, staring at my tiny baby girl. I couldn’t believe how much you could love someone you’ve not even met yet.
Notes
Title credit: What Are You So Scared Of? - Tonight Alive.I have to go to school tomorrow :( Pls kill me instead, I hate it there.
I've had such a good weekend! I seen Sleeping with Sirens on saturday and on wednesday I seen Tonight Alive! They were both awesome. I can't wait to see BMTH & PTV, though.
Thank you for reading this chapter! Thought I'd do it in Tony's Pov for a change.
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