In the hour of waiting for Tony to come home, I don’t think I’ve ever cleaned so much and so fast in my life. I cleaned every little bit of my room, everywhere he might have touched. I stripped my bed sheets, putting them in the washing machine and when I was in the middle of changing them I heard my floorboards creek and I knew it was Tony. I knew it was Tony sneaking up on me and my heart sunk. How can I face him? He snaked his arms round my waist and I could feel myself getting guiltier and guiltier, it was swallowing me up and I felt like the room was spinning. I will tell him, just not now.

“Hey Tone” I said softly whilst he had his forehead on my shoulder. I stood up slowly and wrapped him up in my arms. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.” I was partly saying this for overreacting, but partly for last night also. I felt the tears coming but I held them in as long as I could.

“Hey baby. Do not say sorry. It was me, I’m sorry. I love you.” he said, pushing me onto the bed and kissing my lips. I couldn’t help but automatically sink into the kiss; after all it may be the last time I get to kiss those beautiful lips of his. “I’ve missed you.” he said against my lips, ripping his jumper off of me and taking his own top off. I admired his body for a second before pulling him down for more. I bit his lip and tugged it, hearing him groan drove me wild. I wrapped my legs around him and he groped at my naked breasts. I moaned and he kissed my neck and collar bones, leaving nibbles everywhere.

I groaned, pulling on his belt and undoing it, I then undone his pants and pulled them down to his knees. He pulled down my shorts and underwear before quickly thrusting into me. I moaned out loudly and my head fell back onto the sheets.

“Fuck.” I whimpered as Tony pounded into me. I could feel myself getting closer and closer. I opened my eyes to see Tony above me, grunting and holding onto my hips as he quickly and roughly thrust into me. I continued to moan out, feeling closer than ever.

“Alice.” Tony moaned out as his head flew back and I could see little sweat beads on his forehead. I admired everything about him and that’s when I felt myself tighten around him.

I gripped onto the bedsheets. “Holy shit!” I shouted, “Tony! Fuckk...” I moaned as I came. It only took Tony a few more thrusts before he collapsed on top of me.

Tony was panting into the crook of my neck and I felt myself begin to panic, getting flashbacks from last night and him doing the same thing Tony is now. I have never felt more worthless, I felt everything get smaller around me and everything was spinning. My breathing quickened and I knew if I didn’t tell him now, I would never ever be able to. The panic was swallowing me up and I pushed Tony up and off of me, grabbing the sheets and wrapping them round myself. I sat down on the floor, shaking my head and breathing quickly, I couldn’t help but panic. I didn’t want to lose Tony but of course I was going to. Fuck! Why am I such a stupid little slut?! I hate myself so much right no-

“Alice!” Tony’s voice boomed in front of me, startling from my horrifying thoughts. “Alice! Calm down okay!”

I cowered away from him, and he stood up, looking frustrated. He paced my room and stopped at my bin. I wondered why, until he picked out something, a white piece of paper that had scribbly handwriting on it. Fuck. He read it out aloud to himself, turning to face me with one of the worst looks Tony has ever given me over the years. I quickly got his jumper and my underwear on as he sat on the bed, his head in his hands.

“Tony.” I almost whispered.

“What is this Alice?” he said, his voice showing no emotion.

“I… I uh…” I said, stuttering on my words, choking on them, actually. God damn it Alice you worthless cunt, spit it out, make him hate you, go on!

“What?” he said, looking up to me.

“I slept with someone else.” I said, looking to the floor. I wouldn’t dare look in his eyes, not now.

But of course, my stupid fucking brain decided I wanted to look at him. And when I did, I’ve never seen so much pain in someone’s eyes before.

“Are you meaning to tell me, that you’ve been treating me like shit over the past few weeks over something I never done and then you go and you go and sleep with someone else? Completely contradicting yourself! You’re a fucking idiot Alice! Why and how could you do this to me?” he said, coming closer to me. I cowered away and backed up, him following my every move. I’ve never seen Tony like this, ever. “And then, instead of telling me straight away – you fucking had sex with me too?! What are you?” he paused, looking into my eyes, “In fact, who are you?!” he said and I backed up so much I ended up at the wall, nowhere to move, nowhere to run. I’m fucked. And I need to give answers, quick.

“I don’t know Tony, I don’t fucking know okay! I was so scared everything was going through my mind at the once! I didn’t know what to think, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry Tony, you deserve more, I tried to tell you I did! I just couldn’t…” I paused, looking down. “I had to kiss you one last time without you being mad at me. I love you Tony.” I tried to reach for him but he grabbed my wrist and came close to my face.

“Fuck you.” he said through gritted teeth.

“Tony please!” I said, grabbing him as he tried to move away.

“You’re nothing but a worthless, cheap little slut!” He shouted. I grabbed for him once more and he stopped this time.

“Tony I’m sorry. But you cheated on me first, you were the one that made me have all of these doubts.” I said quietly, scared of his response, and boy I had reason to be.

He slapped me on the cheek and I grabbed my face instantly at the impact. A look of horror was on my face and it soon made its way on Tony’s too. I ran away from him as quickly as I could and he tried to come over to me but I pushed him away. “Go Tony.” I said; my voice emotionless now. I pushed him out of the door and closed it, locking it behind me, despite him shouting for me and banging on the door. I slid down the door, tears escaping my eyes. You deserved that you worthless little cheap slut.

Notes

Title credit: The Final Episode - Asking Alexandria

Hello my little lovelies!

So, what do you think of this chapter? It actually hurt me to write it, I felt it was necessary though! I know Tony wouldn't ever dream of hitting a woman though :)

I hope you are all liking this story though! There's still plenty of drama to come! <3