I Met The Love Of My Life.
I Don't Know The Girl In The Mirror Now.
It’s been three weeks since the incident and I rarely speak to Tony. He’s called and texted loads, but eventually after a week he gave up with one last text that said, ‘I’ll give you your time’. He told me that it was actually Mike and Stephanie were together and got Mike to say so too, but how do I know if he’s just lying for Tony? Would he really do that? Am I overreacting? Fuck knows. I just know I need to get out of this house. I still text him saying goodnight and that I love him, by the way, but I just don’t know. I need to sort my head out and make sure that I know he’s being honest to me.
I decided to get ready and go out with Cassie, we were just going to a club to have our last night completely together before our men come back. I smiled as I looked at my outfit. I feel confident, I could maybe even call myself pretty tonight. Which I never do. So I’m happy. I sent Tony a text to say I was going out and that I love him, purely so he doesn’t contact me whilst I’m out. I need to just be out with my best friend, one of the only people who know everything about me. I applied my red lipstick and walked out of the door, wolf whistling at my best friend. She looked ridiculously beautiful. She made me twirl and I did so, her wolf whistling too. We fell into a fit of giggles and got into the cab she’d called for us.
I was pretty far gone about an hour after we got to the club, Cassie had just left me to go to the toilet and I wasn’t up for dancing myself so I retreated my drunken ass back to the bar. I ordered 2 shots of tequila, taking them quickly and paying the bar tender. I plopped myself off of the stool and nearly tumbled to the floor when a pair of strong arms caught me. I followed the arms to the face, who was smirking at me in amusement.
“Hey.” He said.
“Hello there.” I slurred, “Thank you for helping me.” I smiled.
“No bother, can I buy you a drink?” he said and I nodded, eager to get more alcohol in my system. I was nowhere near drunk enough yet.
I had no clue where Cassie had gotten to, so I decided to stay put with him. We took shot after shot with each other; I was fairly enjoying my company with him. We were talking and laughing our heads off, everything seeming much funnier than it would if we were sober. I loved being able to laugh, it felt good. I felt like I was in the clouds, that’s where my head was anyway. I seen him look from my eyes to my lips, I also noticed him licking his own lips before he leaned closer to me and whispered against my lips.
“I’ve wanted to kiss you all night.” was what he said. I felt butterflies in my stomach. Deep down, I knew I shouldn’t be doing this, but I did, I placed my lips firmly on his. He kissed back instantly, and I wrapped my fingers in his hair. “Let’s get out of here.” He whispered before attacking my neck with a kiss and I nodded, grabbing my purse and making my way out, him following closely behind.
I woke up, my head pounding and feeling slightly sweaty. I seen a note on my bedside table that had scribbly handwriting on it. I picked it up, sitting up as well. It said ‘Last night was good; we should do it again, had to leave and didn’t want to wake you! x’I sighed; I really am a fucking idiot. Who thought it’d be a good idea to let me drink? Seriously? I can’t remember much at all. I walked out from bed to realise I was completely naked. I sighed once again, feeling absolutely disgusting. I suddenly got this awful churning in my stomach, and I ran to the toilet in just enough time to empty the contents of my stomach. I flushed the toilet, wiped my mouth and brushed my teeth. If only I felt like less of an asshole... I turned on the shower, washing off the remainders of last night’s makeup. I washed and conditioned my hair, then scrubbed at my body for what seemed like hours to get rid of the evidence of last night. I couldn’t get it out of my mind. Why am I such a fuck up? And I thought Tony would be the one to cheat! I’m such an asshole.
I hate myself so much right now but there’s nothing I can do until I see Tony. I have to tell him, that I know, and I know he’s going to hate me. Fuck, I’m such a hypocrite. I walked out of my bathroom with my towel round me. I put on some clothes and walked through to the living room, towel drying my hair to be met with an infuriated Cassie.
“You’ve fucked up so bad.” She spat, before pushing past me and walking to her room. I know I have, I know.
I looked at my phone to check it and saw a message from Tony. I sighed, secretly hoping he'd text me to say he hates me so this all feels easier. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case.
From: Tony <3
I can't wait to see you, be home in an hour. Seen the photo of you on Instagram from last night and you looked stunning, Alice x
Shit.
I decided to get ready and go out with Cassie, we were just going to a club to have our last night completely together before our men come back. I smiled as I looked at my outfit. I feel confident, I could maybe even call myself pretty tonight. Which I never do. So I’m happy. I sent Tony a text to say I was going out and that I love him, purely so he doesn’t contact me whilst I’m out. I need to just be out with my best friend, one of the only people who know everything about me. I applied my red lipstick and walked out of the door, wolf whistling at my best friend. She looked ridiculously beautiful. She made me twirl and I did so, her wolf whistling too. We fell into a fit of giggles and got into the cab she’d called for us.
I was pretty far gone about an hour after we got to the club, Cassie had just left me to go to the toilet and I wasn’t up for dancing myself so I retreated my drunken ass back to the bar. I ordered 2 shots of tequila, taking them quickly and paying the bar tender. I plopped myself off of the stool and nearly tumbled to the floor when a pair of strong arms caught me. I followed the arms to the face, who was smirking at me in amusement.
“Hey.” He said.
“Hello there.” I slurred, “Thank you for helping me.” I smiled.
“No bother, can I buy you a drink?” he said and I nodded, eager to get more alcohol in my system. I was nowhere near drunk enough yet.
I had no clue where Cassie had gotten to, so I decided to stay put with him. We took shot after shot with each other; I was fairly enjoying my company with him. We were talking and laughing our heads off, everything seeming much funnier than it would if we were sober. I loved being able to laugh, it felt good. I felt like I was in the clouds, that’s where my head was anyway. I seen him look from my eyes to my lips, I also noticed him licking his own lips before he leaned closer to me and whispered against my lips.
“I’ve wanted to kiss you all night.” was what he said. I felt butterflies in my stomach. Deep down, I knew I shouldn’t be doing this, but I did, I placed my lips firmly on his. He kissed back instantly, and I wrapped my fingers in his hair. “Let’s get out of here.” He whispered before attacking my neck with a kiss and I nodded, grabbing my purse and making my way out, him following closely behind.
I woke up, my head pounding and feeling slightly sweaty. I seen a note on my bedside table that had scribbly handwriting on it. I picked it up, sitting up as well. It said ‘Last night was good; we should do it again, had to leave and didn’t want to wake you! x’I sighed; I really am a fucking idiot. Who thought it’d be a good idea to let me drink? Seriously? I can’t remember much at all. I walked out from bed to realise I was completely naked. I sighed once again, feeling absolutely disgusting. I suddenly got this awful churning in my stomach, and I ran to the toilet in just enough time to empty the contents of my stomach. I flushed the toilet, wiped my mouth and brushed my teeth. If only I felt like less of an asshole... I turned on the shower, washing off the remainders of last night’s makeup. I washed and conditioned my hair, then scrubbed at my body for what seemed like hours to get rid of the evidence of last night. I couldn’t get it out of my mind. Why am I such a fuck up? And I thought Tony would be the one to cheat! I’m such an asshole.
I hate myself so much right now but there’s nothing I can do until I see Tony. I have to tell him, that I know, and I know he’s going to hate me. Fuck, I’m such a hypocrite. I walked out of my bathroom with my towel round me. I put on some clothes and walked through to the living room, towel drying my hair to be met with an infuriated Cassie.
“You’ve fucked up so bad.” She spat, before pushing past me and walking to her room. I know I have, I know.
I looked at my phone to check it and saw a message from Tony. I sighed, secretly hoping he'd text me to say he hates me so this all feels easier. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case.
From: Tony <3
I can't wait to see you, be home in an hour. Seen the photo of you on Instagram from last night and you looked stunning, Alice x
Shit.
Notes
Title credit: Breaking & Entering - Tonight Alive.OOOOH WHO'S THE MYSTERY GUY? DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA!
I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to update, I've been feeling ridiculously shitty lately. I actually feel awful. I relapsed tonight too, which makes me feel worse. So be patient with me, I'll get back into the routine of updating. I'm hoping to start doing two updates a week for each of my stories! I hope you all enjoyed this update though :) <3
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